5 Essays on Appreciation of American Initiation Literature (1)
Mother, army, growth
Years are passing, time is advancing, everything in this world can't go back to the past, and young people have followed the long road away from immaturity and gradually drifted away? Everyone's life has his own way to go, all kinds, long or short, far or near, but this so-called long road, we will all go through. It is a road full of hardships, with helplessness, bitter reality and lost youth, forcing us to move towards it. This is the road to growth?
18 years old, bid farewell to his parents, left his hometown and walked into the military camp. My mother chose this path for me. But I believe that no mother in the world is willing to send her son to suffer for no reason. It must be very painful for her to say, but there is no way to make her children grow up as soon as possible. Actually, I didn't even think about it at the time. How did my mother feel when she personally sent my son to the military platform? When I first went there, my weight was only 1 10 Jin, and I was thin, a typical "small sparerib team" with poor physical fitness. It is no exaggeration to say that I can't even run 500 meters without a breath, but it is because of that time that things have changed. . . . . .
On the third day after I went in, when the roll call was made at night, I was disturbed and crossed my legs in the team. As a result, several old monitors cleaned me up together. At that time, I felt that my character was very wronged. I have never been bullied by others since I was so big, but I really feel helpless in Hubei. Without friends, the more I think about it, the worse I feel. But fortunately, I didn't do anything extreme, just a little. . . Thanks to the monitor at that time, a native of Dalian, Liaoning, who was two years older than me, he called me to his bedside just after turning off the lights and said to me, "Sining, I also heard about tonight. At that time, the monitor knew that you were upset and probably knew you before, but things had happened and the monitor didn't want to talk nonsense. Just say five minutes by myself. How to make your own decision after listening? . . . . . "
After listening to some short words, I went back to bed, and I was greatly deceived. I hid in it and cried desperately, but I had to fight back. That was the first time I cried. . . . . .
I hardly slept that night and thought about many things. . . I got up at five o'clock in the morning, that is, from that day until I was admitted to a special class. For six and a half months, I got up at five o'clock every morning to strengthen my self-training, and got up at six o'clock, and then went out for sports training with my classmates, rain or shine. The harder you work, the luckier you are. Make a wish to enter the special forces first, and then enter the special forces "Raytheon Commando" in the special forces, and truly become a soldier king, but the price paid for each step of growth is only the clearest in your heart. . . . . .
Looking back, I haven't spent the Spring Festival with my parents at home for five years. I have often written to my mother in recent years. Every time my mother replies, she always brings me something else in the package, food and clothes. . . The most impressive time, my mother sent me a small convenient bag of melon seeds. I held this bag of melon seeds in my hand and my tears could not stop flowing. . . Because when I look at the bag carefully, besides the melon seeds, I will find that there is a little residue on the top that the melon seeds have not been completely peeled off. As you can imagine, these must have been peeled off by my mother. Watching my mother peel so many melon seeds in front of me hurts in my mother's hand, but it hurts in my heart. . .
It took me a long time to finish eating those melon seeds. This priceless treasure has become my panacea. Whenever I am tired and wronged, and I can't hold on any longer, I take it out to eat. My personality is working. I still remember the first time I visited my family and went home on vacation. It was four years after I left home. /kloc-when he left home at the age of 0/8, he was still a young face and a thin figure. When I first came home at the age of 22, my body was strong, my skin was dark, and my beard was thick and hard. At 23: 39 the day I got home, my mother saw me and held my hand tightly. For half a minute, neither my mother nor I spoke. I'm looking at my mother, and at the same time, my mother looks at me from top to bottom and from bottom to top. Then the first thing my mother said made me laugh, "The eldest son is awkward (ugly meaning)".
That night, I put all the trophies, medals and certificates I have won in the past four years. . . When I filled the bed from my backpack, my mother cried with relief. She said, son, you are the pride of your mother. But just because of my mother's words, all my efforts and efforts in the previous four years are worth it!
It was only after this that I slowly discovered that I knew my mother better and better. When I walked into my house, my hut was still the same as before. The only difference is that it is clean and tidy, and there is no previous chaos. I have the habit of keeping a diary since I was a child, so my mother's diaries used in these years are neatly placed in that box, and even the clothes I used to put in the closet are so neatly stacked. I didn't know until later that in those years when I was away from home, my mother worried about me all the time. Whenever she thought of me, she would go through some of my old things and wash the clothes I used to wear. . . . . . This is my mother.
Looking back on this journey, when my mother put me on the train to join the army, I often couldn't sleep at night. What worries her most is her son's safety! Slight injury, hold it down for a while! It is the greatest comfort not to be disabled or die! Because it is the feeling of every soldier to serve the country, devote oneself to national defense and sacrifice for the war! But a kind mother knows geometry? I know her heart. She doesn't expect me to earn much money, because her salary is high! Instead, I am expected to exercise myself better in this melting pot. She expects my son to become a good man, grow up and mature at an early date, be able to stand on his own feet, and see his talent and success in the process of her aging! She pinned the responsibility of this training on the military camp and this monument!
But in fact, at that time, once she understood the news of my illness and injury, she could not wait to fly to my side, take my temperature, feed me the medicine she bought and send me the canned food I loved. This is how she raised me! This is also every mother's love for her son! But at the same time, there will be another idea, hating myself for sending me to the military camp and regretting my original decision. I know, I know better, she is my mother, and every mother has love and hate! However, I want to tell my mother: I really appreciate your original decision. Be a good person; Love life; Cherish life; Know how to be grateful . Teach me how valuable these are! I also expect my mother to know that my son expects you to be healthy and happy every day. Don't worry too much about me, worry about me. I am used to dealing with all difficulties by myself and solving problems by myself! I'm not afraid of life or death. What am I afraid of?
All this stems from the first cry in my life, which made me completely awake. Looking back, I suddenly realized the years that Huang Tang had passed, looking forward, and having infinite expectations for the future life. At the same time, I have a deeper understanding of my mother's good intentions. In my heart, she is not only related to me by blood, but also a mentor who changes my destiny in my life. I must respect her, appreciate her and love her. . . She's really great. . . . . .
My mother has done too much for me, and I have paid too little back. This son really didn't do well. I seldom spent time with him in the years after he left. I have been engaged in a job to make them live better and hope to be more successful. And I know she won't blame me. But ... . In fact, what is missing may be what my mother is worried about, the lack of a girlfriend? Lack of a small family?
Mom, I love you! You have worked hard!
The most perfect thing in the world is that I grow up and you are not old. I have the ability to repay you. You are still healthy. The most beautiful woman is mother, please don't hurt her in the years. Sincerely wish all mothers in the world: health, happiness and peace!
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My "sports career"
My growing experience was not smooth sailing. I can say that the story of failure has always been with me.
After taking the senior high school entrance examination in 1985 and successfully passing the cultural subjects, you must take the "three courses" of music, art and physical education for teachers. This is very difficult for me. At that time, there were almost no music and art classes in rural teaching, and physical education class basically belonged to the type of "taking a rest, standing at attention and playing ball". Music and fine arts, the school invited professional teachers, assault to strengthen, at least can deal with. But when it comes to sports, I'm in trouble. At that time, I was less than 1.6 meters tall and as thin as bean sprouts. I am a typical bookworm. Alas, people are treated equally and have no choice but to bite the bullet and take the exam.
At the test center, a group of ten people. Unfortunately, I am the first in the group and need to take the lead. The first is pull-ups. I hung on the horizontal bar, bulging, and tried my best to suck milk. My feet kicked hard, but my slender arms failed to help me completely cross the bar. The invigilator is a bearded and rude-looking teacher. He said with a straight face, "Look, classmates, this is a typical unfinished action and you can't score." I am very angry. If you can't, you can't. Why should it be used as a negative textbook? The second item is optional. I didn't have any strong exercise at all, so I chose the long jump at random. As a result, the distance I jumped out was less than three meters. The invigilator looked at me inexplicably and said disdainfully, "Why did you choose the long jump at your speed?" Zero points. "In this way, I ended the physical education exam with a zero score. Fortunately, his cultural achievements are far ahead, and he was successfully admitted to Tianjin Wuqing Yangcun Normal School.
In my later study career, my physical education has always been a long-standing problem. In my impression, except for the high jump score, I passed the teacher's back door and got the teacher's "preferential treatment" in almost all other subjects. What impressed me the most was the second year of normal school, 100 meter exam. At my speed, I can definitely go beyond "twenty seconds" and go straight to "thirty seconds". Want to go over there? I can't help it So, in the exam class, I pretended to have a stomachache and asked the teacher for leave. After everyone finished the exam, I went to the PE teacher during recess and asked for a make-up exam. In fact, the PE teacher already knew about it, and he readily agreed. /kloc-at the end of 0/00 meters, the PE teacher motioned me to go to the starting point, and I walked about halfway. I turned around and asked loudly, "Teacher, is this ok?" The PE teacher smiled and waved, indicating that I could. I ran alone, made an exaggerated sprint, and finally passed. Many years later, I mentioned this to my PE teacher, and I am very grateful for his generosity. The PE teacher said, you're welcome. This is what I should do. You belong to the kind that can't squeeze water. Doesn't it make me feel bad to compete with you? Fortunately, you still like sports, that's all.
In retrospect, I really appreciate it. Although there are so many "embarrassing things", the teacher didn't "force" me to reach the standard in sports performance. Because he sees that I'm not cut out for this, and if I have to do it, I'll only lose both sides. It is precisely because of this relaxed and tolerant attitude that I can't feel the pressure brought by exercise. On the contrary, I can enjoy the fun that sports give me. I like physical education class very much, although my sports performance is poor. I am willing to take part in all these ordinary sports activities. Although my skills are poor, I can forget all about eating and sleeping. This interest has continued until now. Although there are not many opportunities for exercise, I still have a soft spot for sports. Watching TV basically locks CCTV5. A few years ago, I was partial to football and always stayed up late to watch Italian first division. During the World Cup, I refused to leave. In recent years, I like Barcelona and Messi. I often stay up late to watch football and share joys and sorrows with the team. After Yao Ming arrived in the United States, he began to favor the NBA again, and he had to watch it from beginning to end almost every season. Personality is the competition of Houston Rockets and the focus of attention. Sometimes I am absent-minded because I can't watch the live broadcast during work hours. But I don't like idolization. Few people know him except Yao Ming, Liu Xiang, O 'Neill, Beckham, Diego Diego Maradona, Zhang Yining, Ding Junhui and Guo Jingjing, the world's top figures or the most important figures in China. Especially those foreign athletes, they can't remember their names at all. Sometimes when I watch live TV, my family suddenly asks me the name of a player, so I go.
I was tongue-tied, but I couldn't answer, and I was inevitably scolded: "Give it back to the fans, fake!"
According to the truth, sports can be regarded as my "short board", but this short board has not hindered my life, on the contrary, it has added endless fun to my life. What should education do? If under the influence of the idea of pursuing the so-called "all-round development", we can't see the unique advantages of students, but we always like to stare at their "shortcomings" and try to make students become all-round people with good intentions. This is like letting monkeys learn to swim, fish learn to climb trees and turtles learn to run. Besides making students lose confidence gradually in the inevitable failure, what are the benefits?
Of course, the "long board" and "short board" I mentioned there refer to talents in a certain discipline. There is no need to excessively pursue catching up with weak disciplines, but to focus on the in-depth development of professional disciplines to promote the height that students can reach. As for the "short board" phenomenon in students' learning process, it is another matter, such as lack of confidence, confusion of thinking, lack of potential, habit defects and so on. These shortcomings must not be ignored. Teachers should not only urge students to see themselves clearly and understand themselves, but also foster strengths and avoid weaknesses in their studies to make up for their shortcomings. At the same time, we should consciously guide and help them to fill their own "shortcomings."
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Feeling of Young Teachers' Growth
Time is walking quietly. As a young teacher, this moment is the beginning of my career. Many times, comparing myself with myself two years ago, I feel incredible: the ideological growth is incredible! This includes educational thoughts, working attitude, working methods, working enthusiasm and various work-related memories. These scores come from every minute of teaching work in these two years. There are both the concern of leaders and the help of colleagues, as well as self-efforts. This also comes from the most authentic communication and interaction between myself and my predecessors, colleagues and students, and from the unforgettable experience of happiness or sadness or excitement or hesitation every time. All these have made me deeply realize the hardships and happiness of being a teacher. Looking back on my teaching path, I have some growth insights to share with you:
First of all, always keep a good attitude. Teachers' work is ordinary, and their mentality determines teachers' quality and teaching performance. There are many things we need to take the initiative to do in our work, such as preparing lessons and attending classes, and thinking about what students think. In this way, I not only exercised myself, but also improved my quality and won more opportunities for myself. Everyone has his own shortcomings and weaknesses. As long as he keeps learning from excellent teachers, he will succeed if he learns to learn.
Then, be a conscientious person, reflect on teaching in time, and constantly improve your professional level. Every semester, the school will hold lectures for key teachers so that I can learn from them. After exploring and reflecting on what I have taught, I can make progress, improve and sum up my experience. American educational psychologist Posner said that experience without reflection is narrow experience, and at most it can only be superficial knowledge. So he put forward the formula of teacher growth: growth = experience+reflection. What we need to reflect most is autonomous teaching behavior, from the interpretation and design of teaching materials, the choice of teaching methods and learning methods, the handling of classroom details and so on.
As a daily teacher, in the past two years, I often reflect on my teaching with such questions: Have I devoted myself to this class? Is there a more suitable angle to interpret the textbook? Is the teaching goal of this course reasonable? What are the most memorable details of this lesson? What is the biggest regret of this class? If you teach this course again, what is the most worth improving? The depth of reflection determines the height of teaching. After constant reflection, we can grow step by step. As a teacher, in addition to reflecting on teaching, you can also reflect on communication with people and reflect on everything that can be reflected. At the same time, we should use the keyboard to reflect, record and leave words, which will bring vivid cases to self-taught education and teaching and pave the way for writing educational papers in the future.
Finally, I sum up my experience and sort out a set of class management methods that belong to me. I feel a little lacking in managing students. Mao Zedong said: "Strengthen discipline, the revolution is invincible." Class management pays attention to art, so we should think more and think more about children's needs. Use your brains in teaching methods and art to coax children to go with you. No matter how hard you try to subdue a stubborn cow, it is not as effective as a straw. In a word, a good class can not be separated from the careful management of teachers. In order to have a good class atmosphere, so that every child can grow up healthily and happily, teachers as managers must master the rhythm of children's development and do their work well. Do have goals in mind, children in eyes, education everywhere, and build a healthy and progressive class.
Another point is: love, patience, and take every child seriously. Human intelligence
It is unequal and there is a gap, which also causes differences in learning. It is impossible to train all children to a unified standard, which means it is not easy to teach all children well. It is wrong to look at different children in a unified way. Use different rulers to measure children and find out their unique strengths. Never use a ruler to measure all the children, so your eyes are basically poor children. A child's development is fast and slow. How can his life be decided by his temporary performance?
There is no end to learning and no end to art. These are my personal practices and experiences in the process of growing up. Please criticize and correct my mistakes. Finally, send a word to colleagues: the work of teachers is ordinary, but there is greatness in the ordinary; Teachers' work is hard, but there is joy in suffering and endless fun!
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Review growth
Growing up is like a boat in my life, sailing in the waves. Sometimes it is calm, and sometimes it will encounter surging waves. However, my growth boat was not smooth sailing, and I also experienced various storms. For me, everything is bittersweet.
At this moment, because I have grown up, I am no longer a child in the eyes of my parents, but I have become conscious, courageous and knowledgeable. Sometimes, they will say, "You've grown up!" You're not a child anymore! It gives me a headache. At present, no matter what you do, you must first recognize the "compass" and have principles. You can't do it hastily, and you can't treat it hastily. If anything goes wrong, I will bring in a snowstorm at any time.
Think back to how simple, carefree and free life was when I was a child, with no worries around me. But with the passage of time, the waves ahead are bigger and the sea surface is more tortuous. I became a primary school student, and the old me was gone. I am tall, I have been in school for a long time, I have more homework, I have more subjects to study, my schoolbag on my shoulder is heavier, and the pressure in my heart is getting bigger and bigger. If I were a child, no matter what I did wrong, no one would blame me and blame me more.
I also have my parents as "guides" in the world. But now, I'm grown up and sensible. I must get used to being independent. I should pay attention to my wings and think twice before doing anything. Compared with the carefree days when I was a child, this gradually widened the distance.
When I was a child, although I would live comfortably, I was bound by my elders and others everywhere, and I was mixed by my parents when I walked. I fell, and my parents helped me. But I know that when I grow up, I will become an adult, which is different from when I was a child. Just like me at the moment, I am growing up and have my own opinions on everything.
Sunshine is always after the storm, not after the storm. How can I succeed in my growing boat? Although unstable, calm and rough, it is all kinds of rough waves that make me learn a lot and exercise a lot. Through my growing process, I really realized that growing up has necessary troubles, but more is happiness.
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My road to growth
"In the beginning, we were all children, and in the end, we longed to be angels; Folk songs, singing the shadow of fairy tales, children's children, where are you going? " Along the way, because of tears and sweat, my road to growth has become rich.
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Start of the beginning
"tomboy" is my pronoun. My childhood was accompanied by my brother. As long as he did it, there must be me. My ears seem to recall the cicada's cry "cicada, cicada", which is my brother catching cicada, crawling and holding his breath; On the grass, we scratch the grasshopper's back; I was scolded for tearing my neighbor's couplets during the Spring Festival. These scenes are like finding shells in the sea, one by one bright and dazzling, but they can never be picked up. My naughty experiences as a child contributed to my unruly character. After primary school, coupled with good grades and the teacher's "doting", I began to become overbearing and arrogant, and my ear echoed with "we were all children from the beginning"
Children's children
"Children's children, where are you going?" After entering middle school, I have to deal with strange faces and have pressure on myself, perhaps because I have grown up or something. My personality has converged a lot and started to become quiet. Children's children, I want to fly to my ideal high school. So I use the tears of struggle to make my middle school have no regrets, and my efforts will be rewarded. I finally got into my ideal high school.
finally
In this sacred high school campus, there are laughter and tears, and the failure of the exam makes me hesitate, but it is family. These tangible wings give me strength, give me the courage to stand up after crying, and make me more eager to fly! Eager to be an angel!