Reading this novel is basically reading it before going to bed, sometimes watching it, and then falling asleep slowly. This novel is like the author talking to me at night, telling me her story bit by bit.

Qi in the book is so naive. She admired her teacher, Li Guohua, but she didn't expect her once admired teacher to rape her on the grounds of changing Siqi and Yiting's composition. At such a young age, I don't know how to deal with such a scene, so Si Qi Jr. fantasizes about falling in love with the teacher. She always thought it was reasonable to be raped by someone she loved.

From thirteen to eighteen, Siqi was harassed by her teacher many times. Every time she comes home, it is difficult for her to fall asleep. In the evening, she often drinks, drinks coffee or cries. Even when she is asleep, she often dreams of being defiled by the teacher. For Siqi, it was an indelible nightmare.

Raped by the teacher, she didn't have the courage to fall in love with a boy who liked her. She doesn't think that boys don't deserve her, but that she is dirty and often refuses many boys who like her. She has always thought that it is a wonderful thing to be liked in the flower season, and it happens that she likes others, but now it is a luxury for Siqi.

The ending of the story is also tragic. Li Guohua once told Siqi sweetly that he was the only lover. Finally, in order to scare Xiaoqi, a student who raped herself, Li Guohua stripped Siqi naked like an animal, then tied her into a crab, took photos and sent them to Xiaoqi. Finally, Si Qi went crazy because of this.

I know Siqi and live a different life. My sister literature and art is the head of the family. At first, Yi Ting, Siqi's soul twin sister, often said that her sister looked a bit like Siqi, but she was actually showing two different lives. My sister is a girl who loves literature and often reads literature to Siqi and Yi Ting. However, this talented sister was often beaten by her husband until her child miscarried. The awakened sister decided to divorce her husband. Later, my sister Wen Yi got rid of her unhappy marriage, met true love, and stayed with Mr. Mao Mao, who knew more about literature and herself.

When she learned that Siqi had been tortured by Li Guohua for five years at the end of the year, she even had the courage to kill Li Guohua. Mr. Mao Mao said something to my sister that moved me very much: The person you want to kill is also the person I want to kill! Although Mao Mao doesn't know Li Guohua, he is willing to give everything for the people he loves.

There are many stories in the book that make me sad for a long time and make me feel helpless. Some people say that Siqi silently endured and didn't tell her parents the truth, which may be due to the lack of sex education at home and the absence of parents in school in this respect.

Siqi once seriously tested her parents, and she described it like this:

As soon as she arrived at the table, Si Qi said to her mother with bread and cream: Our family education seems to have everything except sex education. Mom looked at her in surprise and answered: What sex education? Sex education is for those who need sex. Isn't that what education is all about? "Qi understood at this time that in this story, parents will be absent forever. They are absent from school, but they are self-righteous and have not started school yet."

I have never received sex education from my parents since I was a child, but I grew up happily from unknown to known. And the author has experienced something that should not be accepted at this age. There are many beautiful things in this world, but there are also many things we can't see. What we can't see doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

When reading this book. I can imagine the scene where the author is suffering while writing. There are many miserable lives in life, so be grateful for your happy life!