There is a saying that begging is the most painful. In fact, you shouldn't put so much pressure on yourself. I think no matter whether you are a boy or a girl, as long as you educate your child with your heart, your child will be equally excellent. Besides, I think you have given birth to two children. It doesn't matter. Children also have company. Don't make yourself so tired, because a child has made you pay a lot. Taking care of children is a hard job, so I think this is enough. You should live for yourself. Otherwise, you will have a hard time.