In 2020, in an extraordinary year, I met an extraordinary community and strolled along an extraordinary thorny road.
This is life, a busy but full life, a hard but happy life.
Time flies, as if suddenly, it's time to bid farewell to 2020, when I restart my life, and set sail again.
2020 has given me too much, full of gratitude and excitement, full of experience and full of load. When I am about to say goodbye, let me be reborn and deeply attached to it, I praise myself without modesty: 2020 has given me a full harvest and everything I lacked after 23 years of humiliating education.
Grateful for 2020, grateful for everyone and everything we meet in 2020, grateful for our own efforts and gains.
Meet the "stationmaster" and meet each other late.
From August, 2065438 to August, 2009, I got to know the first learning community "New Education Experiment Network Teacher College" which I think is very valuable and decided to follow it. In the fall semester of 20 19, I chose Love and Education by Li Zhenxi and Positive Psychology in Education by Tao Xinhua.
I found the support of active teaching and tried the joy of loving education. In just a few months, at work and in teaching, I realized the joy of "actively loving" work and teaching.
So, I "banned" the life narrative of 20 19 with the harvest of studying for more than a month after August of 20 19. He created the first masterpiece of this exciting and rewarding life-Restarting the Journey of Growth, and won the third prize of "20 19 Life Narrative" in New Network Teachers College. In this way, I got the ticket for the advanced writing research training class held by the teacher of Xinwang in Shandong Wucheng Experimental Middle School.
20 19, 12 On June 9th, at the end of this year, I participated in this offline training not far from Wan Li, which "baptized" my educational concept, strengthened my most beautiful educator and made up my mind to "learn to change myself".
Of course, I have really integrated into the public learning community of the "new teacher" and found the feeling and happiness of "going home".
Grateful for the encounter with the new network division, grateful for the high-end offline "grand event" of the new network division. I often think: as a learner, if I didn't meet directly offline and only studied online, I wouldn't have made such a leap-the first quantitative and qualitative leap in my life.
It is precisely because of this offline "meeting" at the end of 20 19 that I met many people of the same size, found the direction of education, discovered the true meaning and beauty of education, and made up my mind to "learn to rebuild myself".
Although the meeting ended on the 9th, I didn't go back to school until 1 1 due to the smog. At the meeting, I recalled the teaching situation of teachers such as Hao Xiaodong, Feng and Zhou. Recalling the guidance of model teachers such as Wang, Wang, Ma Zengxin; Recalling the guidance of Wang Zongxiang, Lou Hongyang and other younger brothers and sisters. ...
I made a decisive decision on: 65438+February 65438+February to restart the official WeChat account, which has been registered for three years but has no record content, to restart the meaning of my educational life and force myself to seek a happy and complete educational life of my own. As a result, it embarked on the "no return" to restart the meaning of life.
I use the official WeChat account platform to record my educational life and concept innovation.
In the spring semester of 2020, I chose Li Zhenxi's Education and Writing and Hao Xiaodong's How People Learn. I was baptized by unprecedented educational writing and learning science, which promoted writing to be closer to "quality", promoted my educational understanding, and made clear the goal and direction of education and teaching.
In the study of Education and Writing, I understand the significance of educational writing. Generally speaking, writing is to do better in the future, and writing is to promote yourself to do better; Not doing well, not writing well; If you can't write well, you can't do it well; Write well, write well. ......
So, in order to do better, I began to write; In order to write better, I began to do it. In this way, I deeply fell in love with recording education and life, and it is precisely because of the "writing" and "doing" in such education that I gradually discovered that education is so beautiful and so sacred.
In this way, I gradually contracted a "strange disease": an "itchy disease" that tickles my heart when I can't write it. Every busy day, it may be time to have a rest, or people may have entered a dream, put down their work and start writing, and begin to enter the "writing mode" of this day. Because this is a habit I have long been used to. Twelve o'clock, one o'clock ... even at three o'clock in the evening, I ended this habit and felt at ease. Although I was very tired, I fell asleep quickly in that sense of accomplishment.
Teacher Hao taught us how to learn. Scientific concepts such as "the nearest development zone", "hierarchical education" and "learning center" have taken root in my mind again and again.
A thick book of nearly 400 pages, under the eight-time teaching of Mr. Hao, new ideas are vivid and baptized. Finally, I understand the roots of many educational "oddities", understand the "basis" of many educational measures, and clarify my own educational reform goals and directions. What kind of process evaluation, what kind of expert teachers ..... these are the root causes of educational disadvantages, and we can change them to make the education around us better.
In this way, I am used to studying famous excellent works about human learning over and over again, such as How to Learn and Deliberate Practice, so as to change my inherent bad educational concept for more than 20 years and find a happy and complete educational life.
In this way, I slowly contracted another "strange disease": when I couldn't study, I was crazy with anxiety. Every time I finish preparing lessons and correcting homework, I should have a rest, but my heart is always empty, as if I lack a lot of "sleeping pills", so I should open at least one book and read it for an hour. It is always pleasant to open one new book after another and gain one new educational idea after another.
In this way, four new teachers study every year, from "forced" to "self-forced". I like this journey and love it deeply.
"Professional reading, standing on the shoulders of giants; Professional writing, climbing on your shoulders; Professional communication, flying on collective shoulders "This is Professor Zhu Yongxin's" three-specialized growth model ".
"Insist on reading, writing, reflection and practice" is Li Zhenxi's "four nonstop" experience.
Over the past year, I have thrived under Professor Zhu Yongxin's "three-specialized mode" and advanced under Teacher Li Zhenxi's "four non-stops".
Finally, I rewarded myself with "four excellent courses" and was rated as "excellent student" and "model student in 2020 100" by the teacher of xinwang.
Meeting the stationmaster made me realize that education can be so wonderful and so happy.
At the same time, I feel guilty: I have been a teacher for more than 20 years! I really think it was a long time ago.
Chasing "Walking" and jointing to grow up
Education walks, the most beautiful meeting.
The first educational walk originated from 20 19 12.6. I went to Wucheng Experimental Middle School in Shandong Province to attend an advanced seminar on reading and writing for new network teachers, and got to know my former teacher, Ren Mei Du. She warmly invited me to take part in the educational walk.
The theme of educational walking is "Walking broadens the world, reading and writing remoulds the soul", which has had a great positive response since it was held for six times. Because it is grass-roots and folk, as Mr. Qian Liqun said, it has taken root where education is most needed in China. Serve tens of thousands of grassroots teachers across the country and benefit tens of thousands of educators with educational dreams.
Education Walking Everyone has a dream: keep walking and see the sun in the sky and the moon in the water; Everyone has a slogan: go if you can, go if you can; Go further and further, go further and further!
In the following eight months, I learned a lot of growing "nutrients" from two official WeChat accounts and Wen Zhishuo's column: Walking to Broaden the World and Knife Talk.
In particular, I have read Zhang Wenzhi's outstanding Teacher Micro-Revolution and Xie Yun's outstanding Reading Illuminates Education, which are really household names. From their educational ideas, I found my own direction of education and teaching, and found my lost goal for more than 20 years. It turned out that some of my previous very realistic understandings completely deceived myself. My lack of efforts in the past 20 years were all "pranks" under bad excuses.
In teacher Zhang, teacher Xie and many other educations, I can also make education happy and beautiful under my realistic conditions, but under many excuses, I am mediocre. A teacher who has been neglected for more than 20 years and has been running amok for more than 20 years.
I am grateful to meet and educate the beautiful people who walk. In the past year, I have changed myself from quantitative change to qualitative change.
Many viewpoints in Teacher Zhang Wenzhi's Teacher Micro-Revolution have changed me qualitatively:
He said: No matter what kind of education situation, if teachers are still learning, then education is bound to have hope.
Yes, my biggest failure in the past 20 years is to "be a teacher who doesn't study", to cope with the cruel educational reality with taken for granted knowledge, and to repeat yesterday's work day after day with pedantic educational ideas.
Teacher Zhang also solemnly stressed: As a teacher, if you don't study, there is almost nothing to teach.
What makes me have obvious innovation in my work is guided by Mr. Zhang in his outstanding performance: our most beautiful way out is to return to the people from the system and carry out grassroots education; From collective to individual, you can't change the collective, you can only change yourself!
"We can only change ourselves", but I ... have been looking forward to the change of environment for 20 years to realize my educational dream. That's ridiculous. Why not do my best?
Even more touching is teacher Zhang's 15 "Micro Revolution":
1. Be sure to pay attention to the current situation and discuss current events;
2. Be sure to tell the historical facts to the best of your knowledge;
3. Spread any new ideas and words that may tell the truth through personal network platform as much as possible;
4. Try to tell the truth. If you can't do it, try not to tell lies and talk less.
5. Try to participate in at least one public welfare activity aimed at boosting social progress, improving people's livelihood and education;
6. Keep reading every day and share your reading experience with friends and family;
7. Go home for dinner and spend the rest of your time with your family;
8. Drink more water, walk more, don't smoke, don't drink;
9. Know more than 100 non-local friends;
10. Visit 30, so go to a non-local school;
1 1. Be sure to go abroad and see the outside world;
12. insist on writing at least 200 words every day;
13. Make at least one person who is helpful to your spiritual growth;
14. stick to your hobbies, no matter what kind of hobbies;
15. Be curious about new things and new knowledge.
Seemingly dull idea, but every sentence is a benchmark for my progress!
There are also topics such as "What qualities should teachers have", "Where does the influence of teachers come from", "Education should return to life scenes" and "Professional quality and educational character of good teachers", which have made me gain a lot.
When I first read Xie Yun's excellent work Reading Illuminates Education, I was very excited:
He said: reading changed my destiny and made me who I am now.
He advocates: going to a book should be a gesture of educating people;
He pointed out the "three noes" of teachers: no reading, no thinking and no cooperation;
He called for: not a famous teacher, but a "master"-knowing the original meaning and law of education; Understand your responsibilities and mission;
Teacher Xie said in the book "Reading on the Road: Education on the Road": In today's era, education is very complicated and difficult, with many problems and troubles, which easily leads to many concerns. It is precisely because of this that our teachers and our education show their value.
It is precisely because the mountain is high that we need to keep climbing; It is precisely because of the difficult road that we need to keep trudging;
It is precisely because education is difficult that we need to persevere;
The complexity of education determines the dignity of teachers; The hardship of education determines the value of teachers.
From this perspective, in the face of the so-called educational obstacles in self-cognition, I only look for objective reasons and ignore my own role, which is a great mistake.
Especially in the face of the helplessness of many big environments, I often use Xie Yun's words to encourage myself to forge ahead: we can't change the seasons, but we can try our best to create local spring.
Yes, we are all in the local area, and everyone can create their own local spring and bloom the flowers of education.
In this way, I kept gnawing at the classics of two teachers, and I was baptized every time I was desperate. The more I admire Zhang Wenzhi and Xie Yun, the more I am influenced by their thoughts and spirits. The more we look forward to the faster education in 2020, the more we will strive for places.
The closer the time is to July 2 1, the bigger my eyes are. I browse education every day and go to the official WeChat account dozens of times because I am afraid of missing the opportunity and "grabbing the project". Many projects of "educational walking", the research activity of public welfare learning community, have to be robbed, because the number of places to walk benevolence and beauty in the country is very limited. It's too late, or if you don't start soon, you won't get the quota.
On August 20, 2020, my dream of "educational walking" arrived as scheduled, but due to the special epidemic situation in 2020, the activity can only be held online.
This hiking activity is divided into five stages: first, the most beautiful "ice-breaking trip" in August1July-August 19; 2. From August 20th to 22nd, there were sixteen lectures in three days and two nights. Third, share and communicate in the group on the night of August 23 -25; Fourth, the award ceremony; Fifth, the future "practice"-life is endless and walking is endless.
Education is the fastest growing.
During these three days and nine nights of educational walking activities, I "grabbed" volunteer positions such as "A Post Report", "Management", "Sharing Moderators" and "Interactive Essay Judge", which can be said to be fun, baptized and benefited a lot.
Why do you want to "grab" volunteer positions? Fundamentally speaking, it is because I don't want to be a passer-by. When the "grab" arrives, you can participate deeply. If you participate, you will become the master of educational action, and you will have more opportunities to experience and grow.
So, I "robbed" and tried to be an excellent volunteer.
Try to be a volunteer with different identities, not to show your stupidity, but to be able to keep company with the experts and the wise people in the volunteer group, so that you can grow up faster.
In just three days and nine nights, under the supervision of my volunteer status, I didn't miss a lecture for three days in order to better summarize my sharing achievements and gain all-round experience. In addition to writing more than 30 thousand words, I also learned speech synthesis and used "maker stickers" as posters. He wrote nine 20,000-word articles, such as "Why did I come? There is a kind of happiness called an ordinary teacher with backbone. There are more experiences and growth behind the award. Look at whether I am suitable to be a teacher and the appearance of an ideal teacher", etc. Six of them were published in the official account of "Education Walk" WeChat "Walking to Broaden the World".
Three days and nine nights, 30,000-word notes and six articles. It is because I am a volunteer that I have such exercise and promotion.
If I am not a volunteer, maybe I am still replaying the first day, the first class;
If you are not a volunteer, you don't have to make corresponding preparations except attending classes in advance, which is very relaxing;
If I am not a volunteer, I don't have to worry about staring at the screen all the time in case of live emergencies, which is very comfortable;
If I am not a volunteer, I can't "attend the meeting" on time, so I can listen early and listen late, so I am free;
If I am not a volunteer, I don't have to undertake the recording content and various tasks after the meeting, so I can have a good leisure.
If I am not a volunteer, I can do or not do many things. I will be a relaxed, comfortable, free and leisure person. This state is very "comfortable" and enviable, and it is also expected and pursued by many formal participants in every activity.
And I, I don't want to be a participant in the "educational walk" under formalism, I want to be a veritable "benevolent person".
I am glad that I am a volunteer. If I am not a volunteer, I will lose more opportunities to hone; If I am not a volunteer, I will be full of randomness. Feel free to listen, learn, put down and deal with. What was the result? Too much is nothing.
No commitment, no growth! Therefore, as a learner who really needs to improve himself, he must be brave enough to be a volunteer and be an excellent volunteer. In all activities, I try my best to be an excellent volunteer. Through active efforts, I have been recognized by the teachers of the Organizing Committee of Education Walking Activities, won the backbone teacher award of education walking, and was rated as an excellent volunteer.
I want to say that winning the prize is only a positive encouragement, and behind winning the prize is more experience and growth.
Hard work will eventually bring good luck, and opportunities will not disappoint those who are prepared. In the challenge of "Let's Write Together", the follow-up project of "Education Walk", I was appointed by the project team and teacher Chen Xiuyu, and promoted to administrator, who was responsible for tracking the progress of the challenged project.
This is another opportunity for in-depth study. Under the influence of the project manager of "Let's Write with Education", I take the opportunity of "testing" the challenger's writing every day, read a lot of books, appreciate your beautiful writing style, learn from it and absorb it, achieve myself, and get to know more "walkers" and "wise men" with educational dreams.
/kloc-more than 0/00 days of challenges and responsibilities,/kloc-more than 0/00 days of appreciation and reading, truly verified that "no commitment, no growth."
If I am not an administrator, but an ordinary challenger, then maybe I can do whatever I want, so I have long been an unsuccessful challenger who has fallen behind.
I have had a rich harvest, and the future is better, because my future has a good starting point and companionship-that is, the backbone grassroots teachers all over the country are "educating and walking" with lofty ideals.
In the words of Teacher Xie Yun, "Because I am good, I will leave;" Because I'm leaving, I can. More and more. "In order to have a better educational dream, I will go on and reach the destination of" fifteen points "led by Zhang Wenzhi in his outstanding Teacher Micro Revolution.
In this way, I can be a "lucky dog" forever, and I am glad that I have followed the "education" for a while in this undoubtedly year. Although I met you very late, it's not too late.
Education walks, the truest self.
Who am I?
An ordinary teacher who has been teaching in remote and cold mountainous areas of Yunnan for 23 years! The progress of society, the development of education, the reform of teaching, the "variation" of students, everything, all make me confused and lost. Many times, I really don't know where to go. Looking back on my ups and downs in the past 20 years, I feel helpless in a confused year. Who am I and why am I working so hard?
Look at colleagues around you, carefree; Look at friends around you, doing nothing. And I, in this way, a person slowly walked on the road of educating people that I thought I was proud of.
Sometimes think about it, it is meaningless to rely on your own efforts. But all along, I still can't change myself. Go ahead, go ahead. I lost when I met the appraisal; When I was elected, I also lost.
I know why. Because, I am not a gregarious person!
Looking at the huge gap between pay and return, I am discouraged, lost and at a loss. Walking and stopping are intertwined in my mind.
Thanks to the cultural and educational teachers, I finally found the answer to "Who am I" in the educational walk in 2020-I am an ordinary teacher and a happy backbone ordinary teacher.
What a fresh "pronoun". From then on, I finally have an identity and understand who I am and where I should go. Once lonely, once lonely, once helpless, the long, long road is so vacant!
at present ...
In the walk of education, I found my home, my confidence and the true meaning of education.
There are knowledgeable and experienced lecturers here; People with benevolence are in the same boat, dedicated to teaching; There are inexhaustible grassroots experiences here.
Follow education, listen to the teacher's baptism, and imitate Renmei's achievements. Confidence is so firm and the direction is so clear. Walking on this correct educational road, I am not alone.
Because we are the grassroots, because we are the backbone, because we are the backbone teachers at the grassroots level. Therefore, we happen to coincide and come together.
Because we want to see the sun in the sky and the moon in the water!
Go your own way and let others talk. Hard-working people are lonely, which others can't understand!
Don't complain, don't complain, just be yourself, as Teacher Xie Yun said: You can't reverse the season, but you can try to create a local spring. Yes, the local spring is more unique!
There is nothing wrong with the path I have taken. What I have experienced is not without merit. Everything is so real, so unconscionable.
I don't get along with others, and I don't have any credit … but I can be a good friend in students' hearts and a good teacher in parents' eyes. It's worth having these.
What did I miss? In fact, I already have a lot, but all I have is seemingly meaningless "approval"
It's not that I'm unhappy, but that I ignore myself too much. Thank you for the good name given to me by education-grassroots backbone teachers. ?
Yes! I can also be the backbone. I am the backbone. I should summon up courage to move on.
Let's go, let's go! The direction ahead is not empty, but very long.
Let's go, let's go! I go because I can, and I go because I can.