It was dark before it got dark, and the street lamps in the city were already on. Passing through the vegetable market in the second residential area, as noisy as usual, and passing through the narrow Donggou Lane, you are greeted by the kindergarten number of the Commercial Bureau, where my son's preschool education was enlightened.
She still sat quietly in that narrow lane, with little trace of time. Sixteen years ago, in August, when I was three years old and eight months old, I held your hand, greeted the first dazzling Guang Chen in the morning with you, and sent you to the first school that allowed you to set rules, cultivate habits and learn knowledge.
After three years in kindergarten, I remember a few things best. First, you just came to school for a month, and you didn't feel any discomfort at first. Whether you are listening, eating or sleeping, you have never worried us. The teacher praised you for rarely seeing such an adapted baby. A month later, I had a seven-day National Day holiday. When moths come to school again, you are always dawdling and reluctant to part. Every night during the whole month of 10, when I came back from work, I was sure to hear a story: Today, when children went to school, they jumped out of the car in the community again. Grandma rode a tricycle to see you off at school. At the moment you left the gate of the community, you jumped off the tricycle like an arrow. Then grandma shouted categorically, you go your own way and run home as soon as possible. As soon as grandma shouts, other grandparents in the community will help catch you together. Later, the neighbors in the community always said that at 8: 30 in the morning from Monday to Friday, there was a scene in the community: a group of grandmothers were chasing a child, and a child was playing hide-and-seek with a group of grandmothers; And every time I run against the wall, the first floor is the eaves of the storage room, and it is impossible for adults to get close to you. That's slippery and sour. You can mend it. Second, small classes, every time the kindergarten picks you up from school, if I happen to be doing exercises, then I don't have to look at people's faces. As long as I look at people standing still, the only child with the same hands and feet is mine, and I can never be wrong. Third, when eating in kindergarten, you never make teachers and parents work too hard. It's been a week since school started, and the teacher is so eager. Every time he adds a meal, he is the last one to pack it for you, because even so, you will finish it first.
Turn around and go through your primary school, Nanjing Dongshan Primary School. Your primary school for six years is wonderful enough. In six years, you have changed six class teachers, and the teachers can sit in a row. In this school, you signed up for the long-distance running in the sports meeting and came back to tell us that you won the fifth place. We think it's ok. You said there were five people attending. You played the English drama "Pig Strong", and I smiled strangely and said that it was a bit of an image. You turned against me in anger; Join the school drum team, I go to see you rehearse, and I can always find a big man in uniform; When I first learned Chinese Pinyin, the teacher said there was no shortcut, so I just read more. When I pronounce mu as ma, I hope I can kick the correct pronunciation for you. Of course, I also bought you fruit to take with me and gave it to the students who were hit by you on the stairs of the classroom. Because you sprinkled colorful toys on the top of the classroom, Dad was arranged by Mr. Wu to go to school to paint the wall with paint buckets, rollers and ladders. After six years of growth, the naive, naive, ignorant and stubborn little boy was a smart boy when he graduated from primary school.
Go straight south to your junior high school. In junior high school, we chose a public middle school-Nanjing Zhushan Middle School. In this school, you met your head teacher, English teacher Mrs. Tai, who took you from grade one to grade three. Teacher Tai is also a teacher and friend. She is gentle but principled. She cares about you but is strict.
I remember the second year of junior high school, when you came back from school, I was cooking in the kitchen and only said to me: Mom, I came back from school. I'm not as cheerful as before. I didn't hear the right voice. I came out to see you. Your face is pale and your chest is undulating. I quickly asked you what happened. You told me that when I came home from school by bike, I was almost hit by a tricycle riding a battery at the Yin Tian Mountain Farmers' Market. It was obviously the man who ran the red light. When he saw that I was silent and full of foul language, he began to scold me. Many people surrounded us, and finally some people couldn't stand it and accused that person of bullying a student, but he didn't care at all; I was so angry that I threw my bike to the ground, went over and grabbed his collar, gritted my teeth and asked him what he wanted, but he lost his voice.
Standing in front of him, I am obviously much taller than him. Isn't it necessary to convince people with reason and to convince people with virtue? Don't you have to follow the rules You have been teaching me to make way for others, not to have conflicts with others, and you have been telling me the law of garbage people. Is it true?/You don't say. I don't know how to tell you right and wrong. Many things are either black or white. How can I make you understand that I am a tongue-tied person?
Growth is stumbling, a little difference, the baby may grow crooked. At that time, I understood more deeply how important it is to establish a correct three views for you; I am also convinced that studying and making progress with you is a lifelong practice. Thank you, Mr. Tai, for making you grow into an honest, enthusiastic and kind boy in junior high school.
Go east after leaving Zhushan Middle School. In high school, you entered Jiangning Senior High School in Nanjing and started your high school career. You were in the top 50 in your sophomore year. From grade two to grade three, it's like being under a spell. You're completely out of touch and confused. These two years are my most painful and empty years. Exhausted heart, try my best to pull you down. Failure in the college entrance examination is also reasonable! At that moment, you seemed to wake up and decided to repeat your studies and fight for another year.
I moved to a repeat school, and you, growing up, never left us and lived on campus. Although the conditions are extremely simple, you have never complained. You told us that I chose my own path, and I can't blame anyone. I'll grit my teeth and go on. Thanks also to the math teacher You Zhu met in this school. You are making progress in every exam, and we have all seen your efforts and hard work. You have a holiday every three weeks, and we visit you every Wednesday and Sunday afternoon, rain or shine. Cook for you at home, take it to you, eat it in a hurry and go back to work. It's a two-hour drive back and forth, and you say, "This is the smell of mom." For me, I am running in hope, willing and happy.
One month before the college entrance examination, you suddenly lost sleep, saying that you didn't sleep well all night and were in a bad state. I'm so worried. I'm looking for a house around your school in that city, but no one wants to rent it for a month. Finally, I booked a room for a month in a hotel that is three minutes' walk from your school, and decided that my mother would come to accompany you every night.
In this way, 29 days before the 20 19 college entrance examination, I started my life in two cities. Get off work every night, eat at home, do housework well, drive to Zhenjiang, arrive before evening self-study, read books in your room for a while, then walk to pick you up from school and talk to you about your day's study. As long as you say it, I am willing to listen. After you arrive at school before 6: 40 in the morning, I will drive back to Nanjing to work.
Go back and forth like this, without stopping for a day, until I return to Nanjing for the college entrance examination. I'm very busy at work, so it's really hard to run around like this, and sometimes I'm even tired, but I've never been bored. Companionship cannot be reborn. I cherish being with you like this, and I am very happy. In the end, your college entrance examination is still not satisfactory. I haven't mentioned this experience to anyone except my colleagues in the office.
The last time I went to this repeat school, I accompanied you to get the admission notice, and I have never been there again. About your college entrance examination, it is my biggest pain. I can't get out for a long time. Sometimes I blame you. More often, I reflect on myself. What did I do wrong to make you like this? Sometimes I even blame myself and suddenly doubt my life.
But people always have to move forward, and the things in front of them will be turned over after all. Finally, you went to school in the northeast. This time, I will never walk to your university. I don't want to give up, but you told me that I took the exam myself, and I have to bear all the results myself. I know you can do it alone, but my father and I will send you to school to report, because I think at this stage, I will participate in all these things, which is a complete chain of learning career.
Freshman semester, then sophomore year. You seem to be busier this year, sending you messages and replying slowly, but you insist on reading poetry every day. Mom opens a dialogue with you and hears the cadence of your poetry reading, and the fatigue and hard work of the whole day can disappear. Seeing you in college, you are busy, full, healthy and motivated. My mother is so happy for you. I hope you will always have a childlike innocence whenever and wherever you are.
I think I will have the courage to visit the road to your school again soon. Life may be constant tempering and encountering, breaking cocoon and transforming again and again, and then releasing.
Just yesterday, I kept repeating that this time last year, my son was coming back. At 9: 35 pm, I thought that my son got off the high-speed train at this time, and I was happily picking him up at the South Station. There is nothing to look forward to at this time of year.
During this time, I thought of you when I saw all kinds of children in primary school. Today is my mother's birthday and the Mid-Autumn Festival. We are in different places, and my mother misses you a little. In fact, this article was written last summer, but only 1000 words were written, so I stayed and didn't continue. The pain at that time made me unsustainable. Today, this day, I found it again. Facing the college entrance examination, I was relieved.
This night, from kindergarten to primary school, to junior high school, and then to high school, I walked the road you walked, too many memories, too many vicissitudes, and it will always be the tenderest treasure in my heart.