? -Confusion, gain and growth

Time flies like a blink of an eye. I have heard this famous saying before, but I think it is very literary. But now every time I hear this sentence, I will think of the course I have been teaching for more than half a year since I just graduated and entered the society, and I have a real experience of this sentence. It has been more than half a year since I entered the eastern suburb of Lanzhou in a blink of an eye, and the role of graduates has become the role of teachers. As a new teacher, I entered the school with a feeling of anxiety and confusion, because it was a new job and a new environment. After more than half a year's continuous study, accumulation and dedication, I have more thoughts and feelings about my teaching career. Today, with the attitude of learning and reflection, I share my growing experience with you and gain the happiness of growing up as a young teacher.

I still clearly remember that when I applied for the school teacher last year, I struggled and hesitated from the bottom of my heart whether I should apply for the profession of teacher. Because I heard people say that teaching is hard and tiring before, there was a saying in ancient times that "my family has five buckets of rice and I don't want to be a king of the children", and I have to apply for schools in provincial capitals. For a graduate from a small town outside the country, I am even more uncertain. But I also envy the teachers in my heart and think they look relaxed. Finally, with the encouragement and support of my family and friends, I made up my mind to take the exam, and finally I was lucky enough to pass the exam and become a primary school teacher.

After the start of school, I was deeply attracted by the large tree-lined campus environment. As a new teacher, I inadvertently thought of what I often said on the Internet or in articles: "Teachers are diligent gardeners, silent burning candles, engineers of students' souls, and people who teach and solve doubts. "For ordinary me, these words of praise are an invisible great pressure, but pressure is also the driving force to become a qualified teacher. As a new teacher, I stepped onto the platform under such pressure. I don't have any teaching experience, rich educational theory knowledge and profound teaching basic skills. However, according to the arrangement and requirements of the school, I started my teaching career with a confused mood. With the guidance and encouragement of Teacher Xie and my colleagues in the office, I have been trying to adapt to the teaching work of the school and constantly learn and improve myself.

When I first stood in front of the children and stood on the three-foot platform, everything made me feel fresh, nervous and excited. At first, there was no so-called pre-job teaching and training, no time to listen to excellent teachers, no teaching foundation and no teaching experience, so I directly began to face many strange and naive faces and took over the nine-joint class of grades 5 and 6. In the first few weeks, I was in a hurry. Every day, I take the time to write lesson plans, prepare lessons, and prepare teaching instruments and experimental equipment for each class. After each class, I have to reflect on the effect of this class, what problems exist in teaching methods, what children have learned in this class, and how to solve some unexpected things in class. There are also school leaders and teachers who evaluate classes after class, point out the shortcomings in classroom teaching and put forward sincere and valuable opinions, which makes me feel very nervous and stressed. Classroom teaching is only a process of teaching plan, and it is not really integrated into the classroom. I also found that my class lacked energy and interest. Except for a few students who were listening carefully, all the students showed indifference, especially the sixth grade students. Whenever I ask questions, the students are silent many times. Of course, the teaching effect is not good. I am depressed but helpless. I was so confused and nervous for more than half a semester. At this time, I deeply realized that being a good teacher and having a good class is not as easy and easy as I thought before. What I am facing is reality, which is far from the ideal I envy.

Although my own classroom teaching has many shortcomings, there are great deficiencies in teaching design and teaching methods, but it is not without its merits. While I was at a loss and disappointed, I also got the joy of being a teacher. I have received the careful guidance and selfless help from my master and colleagues, and I am willing to share their teaching experience and give timely and meticulous suggestions on the problems in class, which is of great help to improve my teaching skills and enable me to stand on the platform as soon as possible, adapt to teaching work and integrate into teaching activities. When you realize your own shortcomings, take the initiative to listen to the lessons of outstanding old teachers such as Mr. Xie, and seriously study and understand how they have a good lesson. This process is also a kind of harvest and enjoyment. Then carefully compare the difference with the old teacher. Old teachers are familiar with textbooks and know students. The teaching plan is always student-centered. They have foresight of possible problems in students' study and can prepare corresponding solutions. They are good at arousing students' interest and enthusiasm in learning. The language in the class is lively and interesting, and the explanation is detailed and appropriate. They pay attention to the connection between old and new knowledge and highlight difficulties. And when I came to this school, I came into contact with something I had never touched before. The school arranged for me to take the robot club. After I came into contact with this new thing, I studied with the children of the club and experienced the process and joy of thinking about design and creative construction together. And every time I hear the children say "hello, teacher!" " My childish greetings bring me comfort and happiness. Every time after school, I hear "goodbye to the teacher", which makes me look forward to tomorrow. After experiencing these confusions, I really realized the happiness and joy that a teacher has.

I still remember that they were interested in technology when they were teaching grade five. When they interact in class, they actively share their scientific knowledge with teachers and classmates. Together with them, I participated in the production and display of rubber-band power cars and recoil cars, as well as the production and identification of ecological bottles. When I see their innocent smiling faces and hear happy laughter and shouts, I feel very happy inside, although I don't like to laugh at ordinary times. I still remember several times after class, several boys who love to think and do things around me asked me questions related to science, exchanged the latest cutting-edge scientific and technological achievements, put forward their own ideas and wanted to explore the field of magnetic levitation. At first, they were hesitant, lacking in relevant theoretical knowledge and design, and unable to start with the materials designed and produced. They want my guidance and help. I will give them some suggestions within my power and give them positive encouragement, so that they can try to design and make their own products first. I promise to give them appropriate subsidies and rewards after completion, so as to motivate them and make them more confident to complete their ideas. Of course, communicating with them is also a process in which I keep learning and enriching myself, which is also my growing experience as a young teacher. Teachers don't have much potential to ignite, but they must not be put out! We should cherish the children who are also full of curiosity and innocence, and strive to make every child's heart full of sunshine and let every child grow up in happy learning. Although the school arranged for me to give science lessons to the first and second grades in the second semester, in any case, when I came to a new stage, it was a new starting point. I still need to keep studying and working hard to grow up as soon as possible.

Now, I have been admitted to a new job, but it is still education and teaching. I just changed my working environment and met some new people. From primary school teachers to junior high school teachers. But no matter where I go, my initial heart for education and teaching has not changed. Keep trying.

If the role models around me lead me to grow up, then my constant efforts and integration with students are the necessary conditions for growth. I like this sentence: practice makes true knowledge and sharpens the cultivation of new people. How appropriate it is for our young teachers. Looking back on my teaching experience in the past six months, what I feel most is that the busier I work, the richer my heart will be. Looking back on the footprints I have traveled in the past six months, no matter how deep or shallow, no matter how big or small, there are stories worth remembering. If I have made practical actions on "learning with an open mind and being diligent in practice", what attracts my attention is the lack and deficiency in these processes. Therefore, I think that both education and teaching should understand in the process of continuous exploration and growth: "This matter needs a lot of efforts to learn."