Can deformed love be counted as love?
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Fang Siqi's "Paradise of First Love" tells not only her own story, but the story of "Fang Siqi".
Fang Siqi, 13 years old, doesn't know what sexual assault is. All she knows is that on the weekend afternoon before Teachers' Day, she went to Li Guohua's home to make up lessons as usual, but the teacher didn't take out her textbooks or explain literature, just took off her clothes and tore her body.
Si Qi vaguely felt that this was a bad thing. But when the values have not been established, she can only accept the teacher's explanation:
This animal-like excuse can probably explain why Fang Siqi went to Li Guohua's home after being violated: she probably didn't know that this was a premeditated crime, even at the age of 13, she didn't know that she had been violated, and even said "I'm sorry" to Li Guohua because she didn't do well. Sadly, when she grew up and understood the essence of this matter, her view of love had become deformed and her life was coming to an end. ...
Siqi didn't try to tell her mother, but reality forced her to run away every time.
The first time she tried, she said to her mother, "Our family has everything, except sex education."
Mother didn't notice the meaning behind this question, but replied coldly: "Sex education is for those who need sex."
On the second attempt, she said to her mother, "I heard that there is a girl with a teacher in our school."
My mother still didn't care and said, "It's so small, so coquettish."
Mother didn't say the teacher was wrong, but she carefully condemned the little girl.
Siqi also tried to tell her good friend Yi Ting, but she only said, "I am with Miss Li."
Yi Ting's reaction is: "You are disgusting! Are you going to jump off a building? Can you not dance at my house? "
Si Qi tried to say to literature and art, "Miss Li, this is too strange."
Unfortunately, literature and art can do nothing. She wants to help Siqi, but Siqi doesn't want to say more.
Li Guohua knew that Siqi had strong self-esteem. "Such a delicate child won't say anything because it's too dirty. ..... self-esteem is often a needle, hurting people and hurting themselves, but here, self-esteem will sew her mouth. "
Siqi, who has nowhere to talk, has only one way out: to fall in love with the teacher.
Perhaps Siqi's only luck is that from beginning to end, she only has one man, Li Guohua. Li Guohua didn't find an excuse to abandon Siqi, and Siqi didn't degenerate and promiscuous.
And the price of this luck is, Si Qi, crazy.
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Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise, the tone of the whole book is very peaceful, and the author seems to be telling a story that has nothing to do with himself from the perspective of God. But in the process of reading, there is a deep depression, suffocation and despair between the lines. "Fang Siqi" didn't struggle or ask for help, but the reality and humanity of society made them fail every time.
While we feel sad for the characters in the book, perhaps more feelings are "mourning their misfortune and angering them." However, when the unfortunate struggle has no effect, but puts themselves at the forefront of public opinion, how can these desperate people believe in human nature and goodwill?
After Fang Siqi, Li Guohua violated another girl named Guo Xiaoqi, and then found a poor excuse to abandon her. Abandoned Guo Xiaoqi first started promiscuity on the Internet, and then posted on the Internet to point out Li Guohua's cruelty. But when the victim knocked out his own experience word for word, the keyboard man once again became an accomplice of evil:
As the saying goes, there are gains and losses. Guo Xiaoqi lost his body, and all he got was a cold understanding of the world.
The joys and sorrows of human beings are never connected, and I don't condemn human nature for it. After all, it is always easy to watch the guests.
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Fang Siqi is obsessed with literature, so is Lin. All the words, metaphors and criticisms of reality and humanity in Fang Siqi's First Love Paradise are profound.
For example:
We can't imagine in what state of mind the author can write such a subtle metaphor. Lin said that she felt a sense of humiliation in the process of writing.
After reading it for a long time, I found the story in the book ridiculous. Talented women who have suffered from domestic violence for many years but have not divorced, principals of cram schools who collude with teachers to trick female students, male teachers who get together to talk about "achievements", parents who know nothing about children's violations ... What are the factors behind all these tragedies?
At the end of the story, Fang Siqi went crazy, and Guo Xiaoqi continued to be condemned by public opinion. Li Guohua, who ruined their life, sat at the dinner table dressed up and continued to accept people's respect, which was about to invade the next girl.
Lin said that the biggest massacre in human history was Fang Siqi's rape.
In the final analysis, this massacre is a tragedy of women, education, society and human nature.
Living in a great tragedy, each of us is a survivor.