A few days before the college entrance examination, I always wanted to write an article entitled "Why do I always like to add questions to myself after the college entrance examination?" I also vowed to sit still for more than half an hour, crying, and made a psychological draft with the help of Iflytek's words, but I failed to put it into words because of mistakes.
In the past life, there are indeed many such unfinished events, a large part of which has faded with the passage of time, but a small part is still like a fishbone stuck in the throat.
The most difficult additional question is the first day of work after the Spring Festival last year. I clearly remember February 1 1. As in previous years, all employees marched through the opening ceremony and held a regular meeting of the head office.
Suddenly, I was called by the leader, and then, I thought about what happened for nearly a year and finally happened as I hoped-transfer, or demotion to be exact.
Before the Spring Festival holiday, I proudly said to my partners, "20 19 can really be said to be a year of bottoming out." The staff didn't rebound, so I didn't have a chance to witness it. Just after the Spring Festival, I was bounced out first, and then 10 days later, I bounced myself home again.
After bidding farewell to my 23-year career, I said something that I was very excited to think of. Although this passage was sent to the leader by WeChat, I know it was actually written for myself.
I said, "I missed thirty, and I'm not confused at forty." I can't miss fifty more. " When the leader said that I was "narcissistic and brainwashed", I dropped the bomb again: "Although I don't know what I want, at least I know what I don't want."
Afraid of ruining the relationship, I even smiled and said, "I don't have much time."
These words are really weighty and explosive. Perhaps, this is my challenge to all the people and things that set obstacles in my life from the bottom of my life, and it comes from my depression in the past 50 years.
I am glad that I have not been crazy or depressed for so many years.
The cry of "Let the storm come more violently" is like Haiyan because of a heartfelt but thought-provoking sentence in the family education class-
"Whoever loses will change", "wake up and live", "the relationship is average, life is average", "In a warm world, there is always love flowing", "Abandon yourself and hide endlessly, laugh at the poor children in the street" and "Start from self-knowledge, get used to it at last, and get used to it naturally" ...
It really didn't happen for no reason, just like the leader asked me, "Don't you leave without changing jobs?" My answer is, "It's only a matter of time before you leave. Thank you very much for letting me make a quick decision. "
Indeed, this day will come sooner or later!
Just like today, when I was 50 years old, I gave the rest of my life to Li, a man I only met twice.
Although he doesn't know why at all, I know why and why.
At the end of 20 15, the son of senior three who was obsessed with online games was sent to a family education class. From then on, a little sunshine began to seep into my dark life.
As a result, I caught the life-saving straw of "learning" like a drowning person, and it was out of control from then on.
In fact, nothing happens by accident, only necessity.
In fact, there is no such thing as one cause, one fruit and one fruit.
In fact, in my bones, there has always been an indomitable spirit, just like my name "ode to a hero".
Although I am not a hero, I like to use the screen name "ode to a hero", just hoping that it will be remembered by the other party soon.
I am often excited and grateful for the heroic deeds of heroes in history. I am also excited and excited about the heroic behavior of the heroes. I admire and worship my heroes. ...
It is precisely because of such a long prelude that everything that happened today is logical and logical.
20 17, participated in the last batch of psychological counselor qualification examinations and obtained the national second-class psychological counselor qualification certificate.
20 18, I missed the first class of the last phase of Starlight Project, He Ai System, but in the third class, I met this ugly uncle-Li for the first time.
At the end of the two-day course, I bought a whole set of eight books from him. Every day, he completed a psychological essay with examples, which shocked and impressed me. After the two-day course, I walked for the first time in 48 years, and after more than 50 kilometers of non-stop walking, I challenged my sleeping bag in a tent in the mountains, personally verifying his boasting in class that "everyone is a rich and poor child lying begging on the Jinshan Mountain".
The second time I saw Teacher Li, I risked the COVID-19 epidemic in April this year and went to Zibo to attend a clinical psychological practice class.
After coming back, I was still in a daze, staring at the dynamics of the new Sunshine WeChat group all day. The students trained by Teacher Li unscrupulously ridiculed us melon eaters who didn't have the courage to become Miss Li's students.
Watching them act recklessly in the group, I was stupid and clumsy, so I could only take the time to stumble secretly, occasionally post articles in the group and throw a bomb. Who knows, these people don't look at others at all, and even are arrogant.
Really cornered, had to take out his last killer mace, "humiliation" to become a ball with them, let him a nest.
So, I resigned for a year and a half without any income. For the first time in 50 years, I asked my husband for money, and for the first time, I said my heart "I want to report to class" unanimously.
So, I can finally hold my head high in the first class, and spit out the first bite of "evil spirit" in front of all the new and old students and Teacher Li himself through the screen of time and space: "Teacher Li's thinking is really abnormal."
Boy, I can't believe you have today? !
Today, I can finally be an equal with you and become one of the few denominators of Mr. Li. As for when I will become a child, let me complete primary training, intermediate training and advanced training. Goodbye!
At that time, perhaps, I could stand up straight on the new sunshine platform, shake my bangs and show my face like a dog: "Hello, everyone, my name is Liu Yingzan, and I am a student of Teacher Li's XX advanced seminar!"
Writing here, I can't help thinking about this additional question for myself, amazing! Miss Li Foucault, I'm coming!