Like family. That is the softest corner of my heart, always carefully hidden.
I have written many other people's stories, such as friends, classmates, celebrities, criminals, human feelings' and secular', but I have never touched my blood relatives.
The closer you get, the less you dare to touch it easily. This should be the same as being afraid of being close to home, right
I don't talk much and I'm not good at expressing my family. Especially when I grow up, I can't even say "mom" for many, many years. Only after drinking wine occasionally will I call home and call "mom" once, feeling that I am more real at that moment. My father, on the other hand, rarely communicates. Even when he meets, he just sits silently. Even if he communicates, it is all gossip that has nothing to do with his family. This kind of scene is repeated in my life. Sometimes, I really want to give my parents a deep hug after meeting them, and then say to my mother's ear, "Mom, I love you!" " "However, that's just a hypothetical inference. Once you really face your parents, you can't express it.
One day at the end of September 2008, I suddenly received a phone call from my second brother, saying that my father had a physical problem. I quickly asked for leave and ran back to my hometown. At that time, I specially brought my camera back, and my family took many photos together. Later, I sent the photos to my QQ space.
A few days ago, my elder sister looked at the photos in the space and left a message under the photo named "Warm": "Five brothers and sisters are depressed without me and Cai Feng!" Thinking that my father's birthday is coming, I made an appointment to go back to my hometown this year to celebrate my father's birthday and reunite my five brothers and sisters.
However, something suddenly happened these days and I had to rush back to my hometown in advance. It seems that this year's party is incomplete again. Looking through the photo album, I found a photo of my brother and sister more than 30 years ago.
Over the years, my brothers and sisters have been calling me big brother. Although they are married, I have never called them brothers and sisters. I have always stubbornly called them by their real names.
When you scream like that, time seems to be back to childhood.
Grandfather is a scholar, so naming is all his old man's job. The baby names of our five brothers and sisters are Liangrun, Liangze, Lianghe, Liangyun and Liang Ying. When I grow up, I find that my grandfather's name is meaningful, kind, moist and friendly, which is an ideal realm of life.
In fact, between Liang Ze and Liang He, I have a younger brother named Tan Liang, but he only stayed in this world for a few short hours. At that time, I was over three years old, and I didn't remember having such a younger brother at all. I just realized his existence from my parents' memories and narratives. Up to now, I haven't asked if the word "Tan" written by my parents is "Tan". I just think the word "Tan" is the best comment he left to the world: come and go calmly and leave no trace.
Liang Ze, Hanger II, scientific name Zhong Xun, is a dragon, only one year younger than me.
Among our brothers and sisters, the second brother has the richest experience.
According to his parents, he fell ill soon after he was born. In my early years, I suffered from acupuncture. Due to repeated injections, the veins in his arm were riddled with holes. In order to find the skin that can be used for needles, the doctor shaved his hair and stuck the needles on his tender scalp. Several times the hospital issued a critical notice, and he actually survived the crisis in the repeated scares of his parents.
I vaguely think he has nephritis, and he can't eat salt during treatment and recovery.
He finally got rid of the pain. People say that if you survive, you will have good luck. We have always blessed him like this.
Maybe it's because I had too many injections and drugs when I was a child. After school, his academic performance has been unsatisfactory. This certainly has nothing to do with intelligence. Because, at school, he was good at everything except his academic performance, especially the level of bullying his classmates. It is absolutely impossible to get out of the realm without the support of super intelligence.
After graduating from junior high school, the second brother did not continue to study, but followed the villagers to work in coal mines in Pingdingshan and Xuchang. After a year, I can't mix a few money, which still makes my parents feel scared. After getting married, he didn't go to work in the coal mine again. First of all, he helped his parents take care of the several acres of responsible fields at home. Later, he studied cooking with his little fellow Guang Qi. He didn't receive formal college training, but followed the little boy in Guang Qi. When people in nearby rural areas hold weddings or funerals, they will bring fried scoops, machetes, dew spoons, steamers and other things to help people make banquets.
Although he didn't become an excellent cook in the end, his home cooking is more authentic than mine. Now, when the family get together on holidays, he always cooks.
Later, he and his daughter-in-law went to the county to open a snack bar, but because of emotional discord, they always quarreled, and the business was bleak until they closed down.
My second brother, who has nothing to do, continues to live a rough life. Because of the disharmony of family life, he began to wander in rivers and lakes, killing eels in Fujian, visiting shops in Beijing and helping people drive. However, he is always penniless and his life is stretched. The long-term separation has also exhausted a little bit of husband and wife's mutual affection.
In order to divorce, he chose to go out clean.
A middle-aged man without a home or a house, that kind of bitterness and helplessness is hard for others to understand. Sometimes, I really want to reach out and give him a hand, but I am the same, but I am unable to do so. I can only watch from a distance and bless silently.
However, the second brother survived again, with a relaxed smile on his face. This is his character, and no matter how big the difficulty is, it is just a small hurdle in his view. Even if he runs around, even if he is poor, even if he is lonely, even if he is helpless, he still keeps his original smile.
Now, the second brother has reorganized his family, ended his wandering life and managed the future years at home with peace of mind.
I believe that my second brother, who has fought death, will be as invincible as his trademark smile in any year to come.
I still believe that if you survive a disaster, you will be blessed.
Liang He, Hang San and Daming Lin Shu are monkeys. Well, he is in his forties.
I was a little smart, lively and full of ideas since I was a child. Among our three brothers, he is the most moist.
Like the second child, learning is not his strong suit. When I was a teacher in Huaidian Middle School, I specially transferred him from my hometown school, thinking that he would concentrate more on his studies under my nose. As a result, I was wrong. He seems to have an instinctive resistance to basic courses, but his after-school life is like a duck to water. At that time, cheap grain and oil were in short supply, because it was still the era of planned supply. Unexpectedly, during the winter vacation, he made a bunch of cheap food and non-staple food for his family through the relationship of the township grain station. From that moment on, I had a brand-new understanding of this five or six-year-old little brother. In the future, he will definitely take care of his life with relish.
Sure enough, as soon as he left school, he started his own unique way of making a living. Without going to a formal training school, with junior high school physical knowledge and elusive mind, he began to set up a stall in Pohe Street to help people repair small household appliances.
At first, everyone was not optimistic about his choice, thinking that he was a bit whimsical, but he insisted again and again. At first, he just helped people repair small products such as clocks and radios. Soon, he began to repair TV sets. ...
From setting up stalls, to renting a house and opening a shop, to building a house on the street; From the maintenance of small electrical appliances to the fine repair of various batteries, starters, generators, MP3 and MP5 vehicles, he has broadened his choice.
Perhaps, in the eyes of others, this is not a successful life, but even a small success is worth cherishing. A small success is also a success, which will give us confidence and courage to accept more challenges.
Life is mostly trivial, and peace of mind is bliss.
I wrote this article mainly because of my sister's message.
Liang Yun's name is Cai Xia, and he is a pig. Because she went out to work as a teenager, she had the least time to meet her. Fortunately, she also started surfing the Internet recently, which gave us another way to communicate.
There are rebellious factors in the elder sister's character, and she has her own persistence and pursuit for happiness and the future. I still can't imagine how she broke into the strange and fiery life in the south at a young age. Because of the educational level, she can only work at the bottom in the south. The noise in the workshop will be the truest background of her adolescence. How many homesick tears will there be under the exotic sky? For her wandering, I really don't listen attentively, I'm not indifferent, but I dare not and I can't bear it, for fear that she will experience another spiritual purgatory in her narrative.
I just learned that later, she went to the hotel as a waiter and a foreman. For more than 20 years, I have persisted in this way. More than a year ago, she moved from Fujian to Shanghai and started a new career with years of savings. This is what I can understand, big sister. I, the eldest brother, have neglected my duty at home.
In addition, over the years, the elder sister's love life has been unsatisfactory. Once a person has ideas and pursuits, the pain in the soul will not let you go easily. This kind of spiritual commitment and burden is irreplaceable by others, even the closest ones. Everything, you have to bear, those love and hate, those regrets and pains, those confusion and persistence.
Fortunately, the new life has opened the door to her. Can have such a result, isn't it the reward of her persistence for many years?
Cai Xia should be a symbol. She beautified her life while beautifying the clear sky after the rain.
On such a quiet night, I only wish my sister Cai Xia a gentle blessing in a foreign land.
Here, I also want to say to Sister Cai Xia: There is nothing wrong with pursuing a happy life; Even if you encounter many twists and turns, you don't have to regret it; At the beginning, since I chose to live for myself, I don't have to complain no matter what the result is. At least, we have a more real understanding of life than those compatriots who live a life without self.
In fact, life has not wronged your efforts and pursuits, and now it is worthwhile to have a quiet beauty and happiness!
Among the brothers and sisters, my little sister and I have the least communication. It must be because of my age.
Little sister Liang Ying, whose name is Cai Feng. In my impression, she has always been the petite little sister, following her sister, crying and laughing.
The fact is that she has been a good wife and mother, her marriage is dull and her life is calm. No matter how we avoid it, people always grow up and mature.
Cai Feng, although she didn't fly high, but her down-to-earth life, faint feelings of husband and wife, deep affection, just flew over the rainbow in the blue sky with wings!
Suddenly, I remembered a widely circulated poem by Li Shangyin, a poet in the Tang Dynasty: "Although my body doesn't have bright wings like a phoenix, I can feel the harmonious heartbeat of the sacred unicorn." I think this poem is not only about love, but also about family.
In this era, for one reason or another, it is not uncommon for brothers and sisters to be scattered all over the place. However, no matter how sharp space-time is, it is difficult to separate them.
Because the blood is connected, even if they are far apart, there is no distance between the hearts!
I only wish brothers and sisters: the years are quiet and the world is stable!