That's your self-esteem, so you can't be afraid of being known when you study. And others must know that if you don't try to show it to your relatives, how can they trust you and take care of yourself and your family? Your brother-in-law just gave you a video of him in the training class. This is useless. If you don't listen to others, many things can't be done. Without the atmosphere of self-study, it is strange to learn. Php is unstable and no one dares to learn it, for fear that you will run away if you learn it well. The company spent so much time familiarizing you with the system and ran away as soon as you got started, which was a big loss. There's nothing I can do if this continues. Doesn't your brother-in-law know your true level? This kind of thing basically knows where the level is when you ask, but it seems that your brother-in-law should also be a rookie. This matter still depends on yourself. If you don't want to learn, go to your old job, animation.