He has a cool coat with five super invincible buttons.

Day after day, Pete went out to travel and play in that coat with invincible big buttons, and the buttons fell off one by one.

Every time the button purrs—

Adults seem to care more about success or failure, but in children's world, in Peter's world, he will sing, accept it calmly and go on indifferently.

He will be happy to find that he still has a belly button. No one can take away what they have.

Sometimes, I feel that I can understand and be strong, and any external factors will not affect my evaluation and judgment of myself, and will not have any impact on me.

Life is like this. When you are blind and confident, it will always give you a head-on blow and tell you: "Hey, you are still stuck in the all-round narcissism of infancy! Wake up! Cheer up and study hard! "

Today is just like every other day, nothing special.

I woke up after a nap and saw my mother's missed phone call. Call her the second time.

On the phone, she told me a little excitedly that her sister had been admitted to Peking Opera Vocational Art College, and she could go to Beijing to study in September and major in Erhu in a technical secondary school.

My sister is nineteen years younger than me. In order to cultivate her, her mother began to enroll her in various training classes, such as dancing, martial arts, painting, piano, singing and so on.

Finally, the Langfang municipal government trained primary school students' interest classes in erhu, and contacted several prestigious teachers. The teachers all said that after my sister was talented, she would not learn from others and specialize in erhu.

The curator of Langfang Group Art Museum can no longer meet the needs of his mother. She thinks her sister can be taller. Under the introduction of the piano teacher, my mother got to know the teacher who teaches my sister now, and also the teacher of Peking Opera Vocational Art College. The teacher also praised her sister, and her mother's heart was higher.

In order to let her sister practice erhu well, she told her sister that if she went to school in Beijing, she could leave home because there was a grumpy father at home.

You don't have to learn culture when you go to Beijing to learn erhu.

Going to school in Beijing can be farther away from my sister's favorite major to learn singing. She didn't want to learn erhu, so she changed her major and studied vocal music.

My sister told me about it, and I thought, what are these reasons?

There is no denying that mothers love their children, but I think a larger part of the reason is not simple.

When I was young, my grandparents were very patriarchal. My second uncle has a younger brother, and I am the only one in the family. Therefore, in all aspects, grandpa is very biased towards my uncle's house, and my parents are also very unbalanced. They don't feel valued, but they are really despised.

Only when the villagers talk about me will there be some comfort.

Because I am a "good boy" who studies well, loves to talk politely and meets the secular standards in all aspects.

Who doesn't like to have a sense of existence in secular life and be praised?

Perhaps this has formed the habit of showing off their children, and they also hope that their children are good enough and have the capital to show off.

So after I got married, my sister became their main target.

My sister goes to Beijing with her mother every week, and every two or three days during the summer vacation. No matter how passive the teacher is, he should arrive on time the next day to learn erhu.

Finally, my sister was really excellent and passed the exam. My mother is also steadfast in her heart.

When she called me today to tell me the good news, she said that she was still in isolation and would get together later.

Because they frequently traveled back and forth to Beijing and went to those high-risk places during the worst epidemic in Beijing, of course I was worried, but I couldn't stop this extremely excited mother. She has great hopes. I can't stop it.

And just when I was concerned about her and her sister's health, she didn't want to hear it.

She said, "We are fine! Let's come often! Nothing! " The tone is impatient and cold.

Coming from a family is really a topic I don't want to talk about. I'm always out of control in this respect.

Fan Deng once told a book, Neglected Children.

Parent-child relationship was very cold when I was a child. Dad seems to have never existed in my world. He is indifferent when he is calm, and I feel nothing. When he was angry, I was so angry that I was too scared to move, like a fish in a knife, waiting to be slaughtered.

Perhaps onlookers will think it is exaggerated, but that kind of fear is unimaginable to those who have never experienced it.

Some people may say that you have grown up and are still influenced so much. That's because you are too fragile, which is a sign of incompetence.

However, the inner child may still not have grown up, otherwise how could he be wronged inappropriately because of his mother's words? ...

Don't insist on the love you didn't get. Lucky, lost life. Let me be a little sad today. Anyone who has not grown up broken will still be optimistic and cheerful tomorrow.

So, if you haven't experienced others' past, how can you feel the same way?

We cannot judge others. We should live a warm life, warm others and warm ourselves.

Forget it, the button is here, and the button is gone.

I feel much better when I think of Pete. Everything is illusory, and only by cultivating the mind can it be complete.

I also want to grow up slowly.