Xu Tang

On my way to school every day, I can see a small shop specializing in candied haws. The decoration of that small shop is simple.

Under the glass cover, a bunch of hawthorn candied haws stood there. Hawthorn is bright red and attractive, and the sugar juice wrapped outside is as bright as diamonds, which looks delicious. Next to the candied haws is a bunch of yam, which is still from yam bean. Not to mention the shape, but the color is inferior to hawthorn.

I had little pocket money at that time. The departure of my father made the pillar of my family collapse, and my mother, who had been a housewife for many years, was forced to enter the society again. All these made me precocious when I was still young, and let me know that I shouldn't put forward high requirements in material life. My so-called pocket money is also saved from the meal, but I know my mother's life is more bitter than mine.

Nevertheless, I bought a bunch of hawthorn candied haws with the pocket money I had accumulated for a long time.

The first bite is the top sugar, which is sweet and has no special taste, but the second bite bites the hawthorn, and the only feeling is sour. I didn't dare to eat the third bite, but I thought I bought it with the money I had saved for a long time and I couldn't bear to throw it away, so I ate a whole bunch of candied haws. I dare not savor it, but just swallow it quickly. At that time, I knew that good-looking things are not necessarily delicious.

But when I threw the ticket, I saw a couple with a little girl coming over to eat candied haws and hawthorns. How happy a family of three is.

I used to have that kind of happiness, but now all I have is that happy memory.

"Mom, how sweet!" It was the little girl's immature voice that made me listen, but it was so harsh.

I couldn't watch it anymore. I couldn't listen to it anymore. I left my ticket and ran out. No, I ran out.

It turns out that no matter how sour hawthorn is, it is still sweet when eaten by a happy person. However, happiness no longer wants me.

I swear, unless I find happiness, I will never eat hawthorn candied haws again.

I was only 10 years old at that time.

With the passage of time, the city where I live has also undergone earth-shaking changes. What remains unchanged is the small shop specializing in candied haws and my oath.

My mother's career is booming and her material life is good, but I'm still unhappy. Seeing my busy mother every day, I know how bitter she is. A woman has no husband, but she has to work hard in society, just for me. That's not strength, but a kind of sadness, which makes me heartache all the time.

Once my mother and I went to that small shop to eat candied haws. My mother and I never ate hawthorn. Didn't my mother find happiness like me? I don't know.

One day my mother asked me, "Tang Tang, are you happy these years?"

I know, my mother doesn't want to ask me this question, but wants to ask me if I want her to remarry. In recent months, a man has been calling home to find his mother. Although I am very sensitive, I have long realized it. I gradually feel that my mother may have found her own happiness. I always wanted my mother to remarry. As long as she is happy, I won't feel that I am a burden to her.

"Mom, do you know? After dad left, you gave me more love than any mother gave her children, but no amount of maternal love is just maternal love. Motherly love can never replace fatherly love. Although I got a lot of love, it is not complete. "

I didn't say I was unhappy. I know how much harm that sentence will do to her. How can I have the heart to hurt my only relative like that?

"Mom, you should find your own happiness. If you can't get happiness because of me, then I will feel guilty for a lifetime. "

"Tang Tang, there is a man who wants to pursue me!" Mother showed the attitude of a little woman, and it could be seen that her mother had fallen in love with that man.

It turns out that love can really make people young.

"Mom, I want to meet that uncle." I must make sure whether he loves my favorite mother or not.

"ok." Mom laughs so sweetly.

"Hello, I'm Shi." His voice is gentle and vigorous, and his eyes are bright. This man is his mother's lover, wearing a suit and tie, and has the unique charm of a man in his forties. At first glance, he is a successful man.

"Hello, I'm Xu Tang." I am very polite to strangers. "I saw you alone today to ask you some questions." Politeness is politeness. I don't like being polite. Straight to the point.

"I know." Still gentle and steady, calm.

We've come a long way. This man has nothing to say and has always been calm, so I have a good impression of him. I like quiet men.

"Do you know what my mother likes to eat?"

"I like sour food, and I like fish and spinach."

His fluent answer surprised me.

"How do you know that?"

"If you like someone, you will naturally notice her liking."

"Why do you like it, not love?"

He didn't panic because of my sharp question. "At my age, I can't talk about falling in love. I just want to take care of your mother. I don't know if this is love, but I just want to bring her happiness. That's all. "

I was touched by his sincere voice. I want to take care of an irrelevant person and bring her happiness. This is not love. What is this?

Unconsciously, we came to a small shop specializing in candied haws, and the last test followed. My mother is waiting for us in the shop.

"Pick a bunch of candied haws for my mother!"

Without hesitation, he took a bunch of peaches, green and very beautiful.

"Why don't you pick the hawthorn?" I always thought hawthorn was the best, but I was unhappy after eating it.

"Although your mother likes to eat sour, there is too much sugar in hawthorn. Her blood sugar is too high to eat any more. Peaches are not only low in sugar, but also rich in nutrients. " After that, he gave it to his mother.

I never knew my mother had high blood sugar. He really cared about her. Enough!

"Mom, have you decided on the wedding date?"

My question makes my mother very happy.

Looking at the candied haws happily eating peaches, I know that she has found her own happiness.

It turns out that happy people eat everything delicious.

Two months later, I had a stepfather and a younger brother named Yang. One year older than me, a gentle big boy, he is handsome and tall, with thick black hair, light bookish, clear eyes, as clear as a newborn baby, giving people a very quiet feeling.

He is the kind of boy I like, but he is too handsome and excellent for me. I'm not even as good as the ugly duckling. The ugly duckling will eventually become a beautiful white swan, and I am still the ordinary me.

"Hello, I'm Xi Yang. Nice to meet you. " He held out his hand to me.

"Hello, I'm Xu Tang. Nice to meet you, too. " More polite than that, I won't lose to him. I shook his hand, warm and generous enough to give people a sense of security, and my voice was as gentle and rich as my father's.

"Your name is Xu Tang?" He stared at me with a hint of surprise in his eyes.

"Yes, I am." I tried to search my memory to see if I knew him, but I found nothing.

"well! I just think your name is very nice. " He's a little embarrassed.

"Your name is very nice, too." I've always been kind to others.

"Why do you agree to your mother remarried? Nowadays, many children don't want their parents to remarry, for fear that their parents will love them less. Why do you agree? "

"I already have a resident ID card, and I am no longer a child in your mouth. Women always need someone to take care of them, and I'm not that person. I can't replace the other half of her life. What's more, she gave me so much love, and I hope she is happy. "

"My father told me that you are a person with youthful appearance and desolate heart, and it really happens."

"Your father is a clever man." Indeed, his father is really smart, and he can understand me so deeply in one contact.

My mother and I moved to my uncle's house. /kloc-When I was 0/7 years old, I felt the warmth of my family again.

Uncle Xi is very kind to my mother, really good. My mother found happiness. I think sugar-coated haws are as sweet as honey in her mouth no matter how sour they are!

Xiyang takes care of me, taking care of me a little like a child, and I also enjoy his care, no longer indifferent or sharp.

In this way, he took care of me for six months. After that, he was admitted to the university and began to stay in school.

And I, because of his absence, have some discomfort, which makes me uneasy. At that time, I was a senior three and I was studying hard. I told myself that it is because of my mother's hope that I really want to be admitted to the key university where Xiyang is located, and I need his care.

After July, I got my wish and entered the university where Xiyang was located, and my family was very pleased.

Mom said, "Well, I can take care of you more."

Yes! Yang Can only cares about me, and I shouldn't ask for more.

When I was in college, I couldn't be with Yang often because of different courses, but I was mostly with him when I was eating.

Xiyang still takes care of me and takes care of me like a child.

I played a joke on him once. I was sick and caught a cold. The sun sent me home and stayed at home to take care of me. He tucked me in and cooked me millet porridge.

"Yang, you take care of me so much. If you leave me in the future, what should I do! " I gave him a naughty smile.

"I am already a patient. Where are there so many problems? Hurry up and drink porridge, then take medicine to sleep. " He always leaves me at a loss.

"Attack Yang, will you leave me?" I'm obsessed with this problem.

"Hurry up and drink porridge, and forget it!" He obviously doesn't want to answer this question. He's afraid I'll be sad!

"Will you leave me?" I want to force him to answer, even if it hurts, I don't want to perfunctory!

"Tang Tang, I won't leave you."

He told me the answer, but I know that even if he says so now, he will leave me one day.

What shall I do when he leaves me?

One day, I had lunch with him

"Attack Yang, do you know Song from the photography department?" I read the man's name according to the name on the envelope.

"Not so good, what's the matter?" He didn't even lift his eyelids.

"He wrote me a letter!" I thought he would read the letter, but he just glanced at me and went on eating his ribs.

Song and I started a relationship. He is a handsome boy, with great artistic talent, majoring in photography. The degree of romance is self-evident. Like other couples on campus, we spend the whole year together and have sex. But I still go home with Xiyang.

Once we passed a small shop selling candied haws, which was bigger, rounder and more beautiful than the one selling candied haws.

Song and I are in love. I think I am happy, and happiness is around me. So will the hawthorn candied haws I eat be very sweet?

I can't wait to buy a bunch. This is my second time to buy candied haws. The first time made me very sour. What about this time?

I ate a big piece and stuffed it all over my mouth. I took a bite, not sweet, but sour.

Why is it sour but not sweet? Am I not happy enough? Or did I not find happiness at all?

This time, sugar-coated haws made me cry. No, it made me cry. It turns out that happiness still doesn't want me.

Sun Yang took my candied haws.

"That string is very sour, don't eat it." I wanted to get it back, but Xiyang took advantage of her height, ate one and shed tears. I was shocked to see him cry.

"How sour!" He smiled and told me that it was really uglier to laugh than to cry, and then continued to eat, tears kept flowing down.

I clearly saw that before he ate candied haws, his eyes were full of tears, which fell at the moment of eating. Why is he crying? For unknown reasons, I feel sad for him. Maybe he is unhappy!

Study, love, life as usual, but the person who accompanied me to dinner became Song.

Until one day, when Song and I were wandering around the campus, I saw Xiyang and another girl passing by. Xiyang didn't seem to see me, but she had already left.

I suddenly realized that I haven't eaten with Xiyang for a long time, and I also realized that Xiyang has its own world. He is no longer the one who will take care of me, not anymore.

I suddenly felt inexplicably sad.

In the next few days, my temper was inexplicably irritable and somewhat unreasonable.

I can't help comparing Yang with Song. When eating, Pleasant Goat will carefully help me remove the chopped green onion, but Song Brown Wei never asks me what I want to eat, and he has the final say. When drinking water, Xiyang always buys me my favorite coke, and Song always likes my coke.

Compared with others, I found that Song was far behind Yang.

"Let's break up!" Seeing each other's so many shortcomings, it is impossible to be together again!

"ok."

To my surprise, he agreed so easily. It seems that he stopped caring about me a long time ago. I didn't ask why. The reason is that I don't feel anything. Why bother? So we parted ways.

Although I broke up with Song, I can't be with Yang, which makes me very lost and sad.

One day, the loss has been hanging over me, making me very uncomfortable. I went to the nearest bar and drank a lot of wine.

I called Xiyang when I was still awake.

"Attack Yang, come to' Heart', I will wait for you here."

He hung up before he could answer. Because I am afraid that he will tell me that he wants to accompany his girlfriend and can't come to accompany me as a stepsister! Yes! He is my stepbrother, a title, which has ruled out all possibilities between us, but it can't end my fantasy about him.

"Tang Tang, why did you come to a place like this?"

The sound is getting closer, but I can't see the person in front. Suddenly, I felt my head sinking and I lost consciousness.

I feel dizzy. But I know that the West is by my side, because he holds my hand, and I can feel the warmth and generosity of those hands. I feel like I'm lying in his arms, because I smell the faint scent of soap, which is the smell on his shirt, so familiar.

"How can I trust you like this?"

His soft and deep voice came from my ear.

After that, I felt that he held me in his arms, held me in his arms, and tied me tightly like a rope, which made me a little painful and touched. Can I mistakenly think that he loves me now?

My head is dizzy and heavy.

When I opened my eyes, the sun was a little harsh. I found myself lying in my bed, not basking in the sun, not to mention his arms. It turned out to be just a dream.

That's right. How can the West fall in love with me? He is a prince, even if he is not worthy of the princess, the worst thing must be Cinderella! But what about me? Not even Cinderella. I don't have a pumpkin cart or glass shoes. I shook my head and stopped dreaming.

I saw the attack on Yang as soon as I went out.

"Get up! Go and wash, and then come and have breakfast! "

At home, Xiyang always cooked breakfast, which was delicious.

Seeing the same sun attack as before, I am more sure that I was just dreaming yesterday.

Life and study, as always, really as always, because Xiyang still eats with me at noon every day.

He took care of me as usual, as if nothing had changed.

But I know something has changed. Like our relationship.

I went home with him and passed by the store.

I saw a couple walking out of the store happily with candied haws. They are so happy that I am jealous.

"I'll marry whoever wants to buy me candied haws every day." I just said, I don't know if he heard. In fact, I really hope that this man around me can buy me candied haws every day, but hope is just hope, and this hope is very slim.

But at noon the next day, Xiyang brought a bunch of candied haws to have dinner with me. Is this just a coincidence?

On the third day, the fourth day ... every day after that, I have to doubt his intentions!

We passed the store again.

"Tang Tang, I want to go in and do something. Sit here and wait for me! " I went to the kitchen before I came back.

For so many years, I have eaten candied haws in other stores, and there is no one like this one. I don't know why, but I have a soft spot for the candied haws in this store.

Not long after waiting, Pleasant Goat came out of it, walked straight to me, and then took out a bunch of candied haws from behind, which belonged to hawthorn. "Tang Tang, try this string of candied haws, sweet or sour."

I took a bite and ate it. It is sweet, but there is some acid in it. What does this mean? Will happiness come to me soon? "well! Very sweet! " No matter what kind of candied haws are, as long as they are given to me by the West, they must be sweet.

"Really? Have you found happiness? "

I stared at him. I still remember what I said. Unless I find happiness, I will never eat hawthorn candied haws again. But how could he know? Even mom doesn't know!

I was too surprised to speak, so I could only hear him say, "Tang Tang, I helped you find happiness. Do you have to help me? Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? I won't give you to anyone, because you are my happiness, be my girlfriend! " He has a sincere face and bright eyes.

I think this bunch of hawthorn candied haws in my hand is so sweet!

Happiness has returned to me, and it will be eaten by me like this string of sweet candied haws.

Attack poplar

Today, I received my stepmother's daughter at home. Her looks are not outstanding, but she is special, perhaps because her eyes reveal indifference, false strength and cold fragility.

"Hello, I'm Xi Yang. Nice to meet you. " I held out my hand to her, and I guessed that her hand must be slender, but cold.

"Hello, I'm Xu Tang. Nice to meet you, too. "

I held her hand and it was really cold, but what surprised me most was that her name was Xu Tang. Is she the little girl?

1 1 years old, there was a small shop specializing in candied haws on the way after school, and there was always a girl staring at candied haws under the glass cover.

One day, I happened to see her running out of the store as if she were running for her life. Then, standing in front of a big tree, she raised her right hand devoutly and shouted, "Unless I find happiness, I will never eat hawthorn candied haws again." Say that finish, then silently away.

It turned out that she was an unhappy child, which made me feel a little pity. Later I learned that her name was Xu Tang.

This indifferent girl is Xu Tang, and the fate is really wonderful. I really wanted to ask her if she had eaten hawthorn candied haws, but I didn't say.

The next day, we lived together.

She is only 1 year younger than me, which surprised me. Because she is not as mature as any 17-year-old girl, of course, I don't mean that her body is underdeveloped, but that she is a child who needs care from others. She once said that she has a resident ID card and is no longer a child, but what is a person who can't even take care of herself?

From my relationship with her, I can feel that she needs love, and her heart is desolate. Only by planting flowers with love can she start on that barren land and make her heart no longer barren. So, I tried my best to take care of her. Besides, I'm her brother. Mom and dad are often busy with work, so shouldn't my brother take care of my sister?

Gradually, her eyes are no longer so cold and firm, which makes me very happy. What makes me most happy is that she is very dependent on me, which makes me feel that taking care of her makes me happy, but she has never eaten hawthorns.

Isn't she happy?

In this way, I took care of her for six months. I have been admitted to the university and want to live on campus.

So I can't take care of her anymore, which made me feel a little uncomfortable for a while. No one said that the apples I peeled were beautiful, and no one said that the porridge I cooked was delicious. Only then did I realize that while I was taking care of her, she was also comforting my heart. It turns out that while she is relying on me, I am also relying on her.

When I was a freshman, at first, Tang Tang always called me, but as time went on, the number of telephones became less and less. Later, I learned that it was because she was a senior in high school and her homework was very tight.

She also asked me if I would blame her for not calling me.

"Of course not." I said so, but I really blame her for her indifference to my study. I just realized how much I care about my position in her heart.

I study hard and join the student union, which makes me very busy and has no time to think. But sometimes, I still have insomnia. No wonder some people say that God's greatest punishment for human beings is to give them unfettered thoughts!

In this year, my life is full, but I know my heart has been empty, because the person who comforts my heart is not with me.

Finally, the summer vacation is coming. What makes me most happy is that Tang Tang has been admitted to my university, so that I can take care of her again. Yes, I'm just taking care of her and trying to make her happy and happy. Yes, that's all. This is how my brother feels about his sister, isn't it?

On the first night of college, I lost sleep again, this time because I was so happy.

"Yang, what's the matter with you? Is it stimulated by anything? " My roommate Gao Lei looked at me with a frown.

"no! I couldn't be better. "

"Then why are you so happy?"

"no! I am not so happy! "

"Then why do you keep giggling?" My roommate Chen Chao also asked me some questions.

"Why? I smiled happily! "

"Go ahead! Attack Yang, is your boy in love? " High to wry smile.

This sentence has cooled my happy mood, love?

"Why do you have this idea?" My voice became serious.

"Please! My lover's nickname is not for nothing. Your smirk was obviously hit by Cupid's arrow! "

What he said surprised me. I'm just glad that Tang Tang can be by my side and let me take care of him instead of falling in love!

No ... Don't you think my feelings for Tang are no longer just brother and sister feelings?

I have a sleepless night.

Although I haven't figured out my feelings for Tang Tang, as time goes by, I will still take care of Tang Tang and take care of her like a child.

Once, Tang Tang caught a cold. I don't know why I am so nervous. I sent her home at once and asked for personal leave to take care of her at home. Alas! Why is she still acting like a child?

When I was feeding her porridge to take medicine, she suddenly asked me, "Xiyang, you take care of me so much." What should I do if you leave me later? "

"I am already a patient. Where are there so many problems? Hurry up and drink porridge, then take medicine to sleep. " I made a casual remark to prevaricate her, because I never thought that I would leave her one day. How should I answer her?

"Attack Yang, will you leave me?"

"Hurry up and drink porridge, and forget it!" Listening to her thick nasal voice, it is most important to cure the disease first.

"Will you leave me?" She kept insisting.

"Tang Tang, I won't leave you." Looking at her frightened deer eyes, how can I leave her? No, I will always take care of her, and I will never leave in any capacity.

I know, I made a lifelong commitment.

I don't know why you told me about that boy named Song. All I know is that when she told me that Song had written her a letter, I was very upset. I was so angry that I took a sparerib and almost bit my tooth.

After that, a few days later, I knew I was in love with that boy named Song Brownway.

My Tang Tang has grown up, but she belongs to another boy. This knowledge makes me heartache, and I almost died. This also makes me have to admit that I am in love with Tang Tang!

Later, naturally, Tang Tang ignored me again, not to study, but to love my boyfriend, but we both went home together.

Once, I went home with her and passed by a store that bought candied haws.

Looking at a bunch of tempting hawthorns candied haws, I was afraid that Tang Tang would choose one, because I remember she once said that I would never eat hawthorns candied haws again unless I found happiness.

However, she picked a bunch of hawthorn candied haws. It's cruel to look at it, big, round and beautiful, but sentence me to death. Tang Tang found happiness, but it wasn't me who gave her happiness.

I watched her eat one, but she shed tears. Are those tears of happiness?

My nose is sore and my eyes are blurred. I didn't listen to her advice. I robbed her of the candied haws, just like I wanted my Tang Tang back. Then, I ate it and tears came down. That was the second time I shed tears since I was sensible. The first time was at my mother's funeral. I lied to her about being sour, and then I continued to eat with tears in my eyes.

Tang Tang got happiness, but I lost it.

I used to think I was strong, but in the face of love, I was very fragile.

After that, we went back to school and lived our own lives.

I seldom walk around the campus and tell myself that I'm just tired and want to have more rest. In fact, I'm afraid to see walking with Song Brownway. I know if I see it, my heart will really break into powder, and I can't make up for it.

But things didn't go according to people's wishes. I saw them on my way to the student union with a senior.

I didn't say hello. I'm afraid to face their heartbreak and my own. I chose to pretend not to see it until my senior and I entered the office building. I immediately leaned against the wall. I know I need a support, or I will really fall down.

"Yang, don't you feel well?" The senior asked with concern.

I gave a wry smile and made no answer.

How to answer? I'm not unwell, I'm just very ill and dying.

But unexpectedly, a few days later, someone told me that I broke up with Song Brown Wei, which made me happy and heartbroken. Happily, Tang Tang has become my Tang Tang again. Sadly, Tang Tang will find her happiness one day, but it won't be me.

So, I didn't spend much time with Tang Tang. I want to get used to not having her around, but the facts tell me that it is really difficult.

One day, I was working in the Student Union when I got a call from Tang Tang.

"Attack Yang, come to' Heart', I will wait for you here." She hung up before I could answer.

A bar? She's in the bar?

I grabbed my coat and ran out, leaving the others at the meeting.

Why is she in the bar? Trapped by emotional damage? I don't know.

When I came to the bar, I saw many bottles of Budweiser beer in front of her.

"Tang Tang, why did you come to a place like this?" I asked her loudly that she was already lying on the table.

I was helpless, so I took her home and put her on the bed. Maybe it's the wine. Her face is flushed and her brow is tight. She looks miserable. What is she doing here? I don't know.

"How can I trust you like this?" I said to myself, and then I held her tightly. I really want to lock her in my arms and hold her tightly for life.

That night, I stayed up all night and made a big decision. I will always take care of her and stay with her, not as a brother, but as a lover. I won't give her to another man, besides, we are not related by blood, and my parents won't object.

Early in the morning, I went to make breakfast for her and stayed at home as usual.

I had dinner with Tang Tang again and went to the library together, like a couple.

Once, I went home with her and passed a small shop selling candied haws.

There happened to be a couple who just bought candied haws and had a good time. I wish I could buy Tang Tang a bunch of candied haws and watch her smile happily.

"I'll marry anyone who wants to buy me candied haws every day." The language that Tang Tang suddenly said was amazing, but it impressed me.

Every day after that, I bought her candied haws, but I never bought hawthorn. I wonder if she understands what I mean.

Soon after, I learned how to make candied haws from the owner of a small shop selling candied haws. I hope I can send candied haws a bunch of hawthorn made by myself, and give her my happiness. I hope she can accept it together.

After finishing school, I took her to the small shop where she used to go when she was a child.

"Tang Tang, I want to go in and do something. Sit here and wait for me! "

I went in and started making candied haws with the help of my boss. I specially picked a bunch of big and round hawthorn, and then turned it around in the sugar juice. I put it on the blackboard and pulled it down. The sugar crown appeared, very long. Is my happiness very long? After cooling, I carefully took it down as if to protect my happiness.

"Tang Tang, try this string of candied haws, sweet or sour." I handed the candied haws to her, nervous as hell, even more nervous than the college entrance examination.

She took a bite, and then smiled, "hmm! Very sweet! "

"Really? Have you found happiness? " I looked at her with wide eyes and continued, "Tang Tang, I will help you find happiness. Do you have to help me? Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? I won't give you to anyone, because you are my happiness, be my girlfriend! " I looked at her.

She just looked at the candied haws and smiled so sweetly.

I know that my happiness is sweet.