Yes, I tried to suppress my loneliness and express it in words.
But what is loneliness? what is love ?
I said it again and again in the article, but I still don't seem to understand it.
Loneliness is like a feeling of fear.
When I am alone, I feel as if I am the only survivor in the world. I can't see anyone else. Are the others alive?
This feeling is strongest at the beginning of a person, and then it gets weaker and weaker. Maybe I can't stand loneliness.
I went to chat with people and plunged into the internet.
Just to avoid this feeling.
Love seems to be a feeling of happiness.
Although I have never been in love, liking people makes people feel very happy.
An empty heart is like being injected with boiling blood. Nothing in the world is happier than the beating of the heart.
Love is like giving a warm home to a person's heart.
Love is really beautiful and desirable.
In fact, I am a person who has been longing for love. But I have never touched her like some people around me.
I have always had a love in my heart, similar to Plato's love.
I hope that she in my life is a person who can understand me and a soul mate.
I hope my first love is the only love in my life.
I feel that this should be true and pure love. Without the interference of anything else, if we love each other at the right frequency, we will naturally be together.
However, I have to admit that I feel more and more lonely while waiting for love.
I began to doubt my view of love. I began to wonder if I could wait for her. I began to wonder if she really existed.
I ask myself, I ask my heart. The answer is silence.
I will unconsciously communicate with the opposite sex with some ambiguous words. It seems that only in this way can I feel a little smooth and blow away my loneliness.
I have the impulse to fall in love with someone I know very well, whether she is suitable for me or not, whether she understands me or not. I just want to feel love. I just want her to be with me.
More and more people around choose to fall in love, and soon they all split up. I know clearly that they love because of loneliness, but I can't stop my desire for this kind of love.
I feel as if I have no choice but to solve it with a love.
When I am so close to love, I can stay with a certain opposite sex as long as I want.
I hesitated, hesitated and refused.
I know what I want is love, not feeling. At this time, my reason is so strong that I am lonely under me.
I am calm again, but I still have the impulse to fall in love occasionally, but it is getting weaker and weaker.
I know that no one around me today is mine. And I have established a fixed relationship with the people around me, in which I only talk to each other.
Even if I occasionally have ambiguous words, they just laugh happily.
Wang Guowei said: Great undertakings and university questioners in ancient and modern times must pass through three realms: "The west wind withered the green trees last night. A person goes to a tall building and sees the world. " So is this first place. "The wider the clothes are, the more you don't regret it, which makes people haggard for Iraq." So is this second environment. "Everyone looked for him a thousand times and suddenly looked back. The man was in the dim light." So is this third place.
I think love also needs to go through these three realms.
In the first realm, with the desire for love, you climb to the end of the tall building overlooking the road and expect a figure to appear; In the second realm, you wait, expect, endure loneliness and insist that she will eventually appear; In the third world, you searched in the crowd and found the person who had been waiting for you for a long time.
Only by enduring loneliness can we achieve great things; Only by enduring loneliness can we reap love.
Only by enduring loneliness can we know what we want more clearly.
I thought the same thing.