Once I bullied at school, I couldn't see the light and the night. Like a long-awaited dawn that will never come. I will never forget the six days when I was born again, when I was almost in contact with death. Perhaps, only if you live tenaciously on the edge of death, will you know the happiness of life, just like a light, illuminating the brilliant horizon.
When I was so young, my innocence and ignorance plunged me into an invisible quagmire. ...
I have been introverted since I was a child, and unexpected disasters have befallen me. I never imagined that I would stop developing in the fourth grade, when I 14 1㎝. At that time, I was trapped like a lost bird. Followed by endless ridicule, some people laughed at my weak strength, some people directly picked me up and walked to the fence on the fourth floor to scare me into throwing me down, and a large group of colleagues looked at me and laughed at me. Many people even say I'm fishing when they see me (Wuhan dialect means someone is stupid). I don't like talking The more so, the more lonely I am. I don't have any friends. I gradually degenerate, tired of the world, tired of all the important things in life. I know that no one will help me, just because I am so young, I hardly say a word, just like falling into a world without love. I was also severely mentally and emotionally retarded. )
Time flies, the sun, the moon and the stars shift. Before I knew it, I had gone to college.
Wuhan COVID-19 broke out in the Spring Festival of 20 19, and it was closed and unsealed a few months later, but I didn't realize it. It seems far away from me. I have always felt inferior, and I want to end my life with COVID-19. Until more than a year later, I was 18 years old and was seriously infected with Omicron strain in COVID-19. ...
At first, there were no serious diseases. Several dabai in the community have been disinfected. Those great whites are so beautiful and moving in my heart. They took a girl. But out of curiosity, I went to see a tragedy ... It was announced that this girl turned out to be a COVID-19 patient! I was diagnosed as positive! The following is my first day to my last day in COVID-19. )
? On the first day, the second person that Dabai people actually caught in the community was me. I was dizzy and couldn't stop crying. When writing a paper, I am very tired before writing, and I don't want to write until my head is constantly bombarded. The whole body hurts more and more, and finally I finished writing. I handed in my paper with my mobile phone. Because the death rate in COVID-19 is much lower than at the beginning of the epidemic, I don't doubt that I will die. As night fell, I began to chat alone with the girl of the same age in the next bed. At first, I was treated as a child, but I silently told myself that I must be the strongest and I will be fine.
? The next day, when I was overeating, I couldn't eat any more. At night, I began to feel severe pain all over my body, my heart ached (I have never had a heart attack), my limbs ached to death when I moved, and it was difficult to turn over. I can't get out of bed, so I have to raise my head and feed the medicine. I found that the door outside the ward can never be opened by itself. Dabai can come in and the patient can never go out by himself. Anxious, I finally began to cry again. I was imprisoned in a strange environment (completely isolated from the world).
I couldn't get out of bed on the third day and often fainted. I thought I lost all my love, but I know that my mother calls me when she makes me homesick. I can't sleep. I'm always sad and moved. The world seems so beautiful that she wants to chat with me instead of sleeping. I had a high fever of forty-one and stayed up until about four in the morning. I can't take it anymore. I called, but she stayed up and took care of my brother. He was infected, too.
? On the third day, a big white told me to get up and take medicine. I can't get out of bed. I was picked up by some big white men before taking medicine. During this process, my body was so painful that I could hardly move. When I move my hand to take medicine, my hand hurts.
At noon on the fourth day, I didn't sleep, had intravenous drip, and took various antipyretics. I found that how to eat it was not lower than 39.9 degrees.
On the fifth day, I fainted in bed for several hours (1 1:00-3:30) before my fever dropped. When I was about to faint, the feeling of dying made me extremely afraid. I shouted for help. I'm dying. I have difficulty breathing. I can hardly breathe. I am very heartbroken. I just want to go home alive. I was blindfolded and didn't dare to look at anything, but I didn't see the big white. I have difficulty breathing and my body feels erratic. My heart is getting more and more painful, and I obviously feel my breathing getting weaker and weaker until I faint. ...
The pain flashed by, and I felt a comfort I had never felt before. I saw the colors of heaven. I was in that space, but my grandfather, who died of cancer, told me that you must live and not be confused by setbacks. You are an adult, so young, you must live. His face was red, and his figure vaguely finished speaking. That light flashed by, and I entered a person's space again.
When I woke up on the sixth day, I returned to that kind of pain. The colorful light around me dissipated and I returned to this world. I know I went to another ward and looked at my watch. It's already half past three in the morning, and one of several great whites told me that the rescue was successful. I seem to be very happy and indifferent, and I always feel very dizzy. I saw something stuck in my body, and after a while Dabai was still pulling out one. A woman, Dabai, also comforted me, saying that it doesn't hurt, your fever is gone, and you can go home after a few days of isolation! I asked Dabai if the dream in my coma seemed true or false. Dabai told me that you would be fine. It was a feeling of dying, an illusion of dying. The mortality rate of serious illness in COVID-19 is 50%. Now that you have survived, you should face life bravely. So many people have died in COVID-19, and the death rate of serious illness is far beyond your imagination. Besides, you are actually very lucky. At your age, you have a bright future. Don't be sad because of small things.
At that time, I had nothing else to think about. I will never forget the gentle voice and encouragement of this big white sister. At that time, I just felt that only by self-reliance can others dare not bully. If he is weak, others will bully him.
Later, I found out that I had heart complications in COVID-19, but I knew that only a strong person can laugh last. Perhaps, only when you are old can you know the preciousness and significance of life. It's like a lamp, illuminating my future. Later, she grew up slowly with hormone therapy. 16 1 ㎝. ...