A letter to Mr. Hu Shi: a teacher's advice;
I haven't written for a long time. I miss it very much. Everyone here is fine and everything is as usual. The rare book "Notes on Water Mirror" that was lent out before was originally packaged by Zi Shui, Chong Min and Du Shi, and it has been checked correctly. Is it easy to take out? Three volumes of Dunhuang Exhibition Catalogue and Rare Book Catalogue are attached, please accept them. Du Shi has moved to Zhong Lao Hutong, and Mrs. Jiang can take care of it nearby. It was a great comfort to find two boxes. I'm sorry I didn't tell you how to deliver it when I entrusted it. How about giving lectures in Australia? Go to school. Please forgive me.
Students from Zheng Tianting, Dorch.
Thirty-eight Two. eighteen
A Letter to Mr. Hu Shi: Commendation from Mr. Chairman of the Second Litigation;
Dear Rev.: Cha Dunhuang Art is the crystallization of China's two thousand years' culture from Wei, Jin to Song and Yuan Dynasties. The first is the distant frontier, which has been lost for a long time. Since the discovery of stone chambers in the 26th year of Guangxu, scholars at home and abroad have gradually paid attention to it, but there is no way to preserve it. In the autumn of 1930, the dean visited the northwest and visited the grottoes. On 1932, he reported to the Central Institute of Setting up Studies, and the Ministry of Education hired Mr. Gao and Mr. Shu Hong to take charge of the preparation. In the meantime, due to the bleak life in Mobei, traffic jams and lack of human and financial resources, in the past five years, although it is extremely meager, it has made no achievements, which is shameful. This year marks the fifth anniversary of the establishment of the Institute. It is planned to collect the achievements of colleagues in the Institute over the years and make a roving exhibition at home and abroad, in order to make a modest contribution to promoting Dunhuang art. In the past, some folk people copied Dunhuang art, usually with subjective style. Its role in introducing Dunhuang art is really superficial. In view of the omen of this phenomenon, my colleagues in our office exhort each other on weekdays, so we must make a detailed, honest and systematic copy with a loyal attitude. For example, the collection of ancient patterns, ancient ships and cars, and ancient landscapes are all made of paper of a certain size, collected from various murals and reduced. Once exhibited at the same time, we can get a glimpse of the stages of style changes in different dynasties and generations, which is really valuable information for the study of China art. Today, we plan to collect more than 800 pieces of all works/kloc-0 (with exhibition catalogue) in the past five years, and petition the Ministry of Education to allocate exhibition funds for touring exhibitions at home and abroad. It is planned that 50% of the exhibition ticket revenue will be used to restore Dunhuang stone chambers, and 50% will be used to enrich research equipment.
Su Rentai advocates China's cultural undertakings and pays great attention to Dunhuang art. If you dare to take the liberty, please make every effort to guide the relevant authorities and make yourself successful. I can't help praying for it.
Shunsong
Looking for age
Learn from Chang Shuhong after school.
February 2 1 day
A letter to Mr. Hu Shi: Mr. Thirty-one;
Old people always treat young people as children, and we don't tell them anything. You are very open-minded in this respect, so Mr. Li Ao really wants you to hear his story.
I don't like pretending to be modest. I realize that my personal life experience is very representative. I think my personal history can represent some young people in modern China-how they grew up, how they chose, how they lost their minds and finally became traitors under the standard education. During this period of hard work, how many young people fell down? I am the lucky one, so I can still live freely and tell my story.
My grandfather was a beggar in Shandong when he was a teenager. Later, he drove a carriage for others and wandered outside the customs. He did at least one-tenth of the 360 lines, and there was a "foreign seal"-he was a bandit, once injured, lying in a pit moaning, and a big girl saved him, so he got her as his wife. My grandfather was also a PTT, so he quit and became a good man. Decades later, he turned out a jewelry store. My grandmother is really good at having children. She gave birth to twelve (six men and six women, in pairs) by herself. She is from Jehol. When my grandfather got angry, he called her "an ugly girl and a unruly woman". But the "ugly woman" has a good eye. At least she persuaded my illiterate bandit grandfather to send his "second brother" (my father) to Imperial University.
The "second child" entered the Chinese Department of Peking University in nine years, and his classmates Lu Kanru and Wei made some achievements, but he didn't. As soon as he graduated, more than a dozen families exhausted him, making him give up the public expense of sending him to Jilin to study, so that he could not escape to the rear area during the Anti-Japanese War, nor could he escape to Peiping (after the September 18th Incident, our family went to Peiping, and my father was at a loss and looked for things everywhere. He went to ask you for help. Later, he finally found a job in the Ministry of Justice, and the performance of a handover actually made Zhu appreciate him. Since then, he has been sponsoring him until he became the director of Taiyuan Anti-smoking Bureau under Wang Kemin (after his victory, he took out a piece of Ma Zhanshan from the pile of books to prove that he had worked behind enemy lines, but I quite doubt his serious achievements in his work).
Japanese Lieutenant General Gu Hua (? ) In order to crack down on Wang Kemin and accuse my father of corruption, the one-year prison trial failed to find any evidence. After he was released from prison, Wang Kemin made him the director of the North China Tobacco Control Bureau in order to reward his "due diligence", but he seemed to know that Japan was going to collapse, and he could no longer do it. This is his wise retreat. After the victory, Peiping arrested traitors, and he became his general affairs director in Yingcheng Coal Mine in Northeast China under an alias!
He regretted that he didn't escape to the home front during the Anti-Japanese War, so the * * * production party came, and he decided to run first and come to Taiwan Province Province. All the old foundation in the box was thrown away. No one who knew him believed that he had no money, so I didn't believe it either, but I found that I had to use salt water instead of toothpaste in the morning, and I began to believe it.
My father intends to bury the past history, re-examine his profession when he just graduated from Peking University and teach in a middle school. I doubt his writing and character, but I can't see anyone better than him in eloquence and ability. He saw that his old classmates fled to the rear area because of family fatigue, and now they have become provincial presidents and supervisory committees, and his students have also become second-ranking, which seems to have regrets. He is good material for being a politician. He couldn't continue to develop his strengths in this field, so he became a good teacher with peace of mind.
When he died, the last scene was the funeral of two or three thousand people below the mayor of Taichung City. At that time, it seemed that everyone had lost his role model. Everyone was praising him, and at the same time, they were denouncing this son who "did not kowtow, burned paper, shed a tear and advocated funeral reform"!
It was the proudest experience in my life. I showed my courage in front of tradition and the public alone. If you want to find a tester for the article "My Reform for the Funeral", you can't stop me from recommending myself. But when I rebelled against my elders and forced me to kowtow, it was not the article that hovered in my mind, but the first "Li"!
It was my freshman year, when I was just twenty years old and two days old, but I felt I had grown up.
In the past twenty years, my well-informed family and my sensible father can't give me any exquisite influence and example. Just like ordinary middle-class families in China, a boy who has never left home is unlikely to become a traitor in this environment, but after all, I appeared in this capacity. When my father looked at me and returned his lucky money and announced that "it was just the old calendar year", his expression was beyond my description.
If I use the method of "personality psychology" to analyze myself, it will be too much trouble, because my formation is very simple. What I should thank my father is that his old gentleman never allowed me to exercise my free will freely. I have set up a small library for myself while other little boys are still playing with mud. My father never refused me to ask him for money to buy books, never interfered with the books I wanted to read, and the tuition was too expensive to escape to Shanghai. After twenty years with him, he seems to give full play to the "spirit of Peking University". Seeing that Zhou Dewei ignored his son, I smiled and said to him, "The so-called spirit of Peking University is the spirit that Laozi ignored his son. Lao Tzu, who graduated from Peking University, has this spirit. 」
Since 1935, although the world has turned upside down, a little boy can sit in his little ivory tower and grow up slowly. His family, parents, sisters and outsiders can't "guide" him, because books have already replaced their influence and brought me to a new realm. On the bookshelf of a sixth-grade pupil, guests can see the complete works of Sun Yat-sen, Mein Kampf of the right and a large number of books and newspapers of the left: from Observation to Xinhua Daily, and then to Citizens of Gratkov. Although these precocious achievements have brought a lot of pride to my little mind, they have also brought me a lot of confusion.
I was in a daze all through junior high school, until I entered senior high school, until I met my teacher Yan Qiao (an overseas Chinese), and my life suddenly changed.
Yan Qiao is the eldest grandson of Yan Fu. When he first arrived at school, he immediately fascinated us. His enthusiasm and acumen, his knowledge of arts and sciences, and his proficiency in English and Japanese are not comparable to those teachers who make a living from it. Soon, I established a friendship with Yan Qiao; Soon, I knew why he was drunk all day-he turned out to be a producer!
He was found when he came to Taiwan Province Province, and his brother-in-law Ye Mingxun bailed him out. He was depressed because he was not caught and could not move. After living for a few years and reading some books, I am more depressed because I have a liberal tendency. One night, he was drunk again and cried to his children. He said to me, "I don't believe that the Kuomintang will save China. No matter how they reform, they are hopeless. Their roots are rotten. For more than ten years, I have devoted myself to a new movement. I took risks with some young people and suffered together. In order to bring new prospects to the country, I became a * * * production party. I volunteered to sneak in and do the hardest part of my faith. However, in the past two years, I found myself changed. My spirit seems to fly to the idol of liberalism, but my body is always locked by one side and watched by the other. This is my greatest pain. Even so, I still want to go back to the mainland. Although not satisfied, it always smells "new" and youthful. I have always looked down on the Kuomintang. I don't deserve to surrender! Now we don't have you on the roster, but I want to take you back and take you to * * * to participate in that new big sport. The success of this great movement is uncertain, but at least it sacrificed our generation and gained another vision. (How like Ding Wenjiang! ) at least it's much better than the Kuomintang rolling around in a dead alley! 」
I promised to go with him at that time. I dreamed that I would take part in a great movement to rebuild China, but the dream was a dream after all. In the middle of the night, five big men surprised his dreams and mine. He was arrested, and Ye Mingxun lost his job for it. Two years later, Yan Qiao died in Huoshao Island. Under the sixty-eight-year-old "Yan Nianpu", it reads:
On New Year's Day, the eldest grandson named Guo Yan an overseas Chinese student. Mr. Wang has a poem saying: "China needs healthy people, don't stop at our door." There is another cloud: "When will the Sinian Party sink to the ground and be released? If there is peace, don't forget to tell Chongquan.
But where are the "healthy people" in China? What "image" can he tell grandpa in the "heavy spring"? Yanqiao died, and he fell in the middle of the road from his original god to the free god.
The "Yanqiao Incident" was the first shocking incident in my life. His departure made me lose confidence for a long time. The "Yanqiao incident" is a summary for me, which stimulates me to settle accounts again. At that time, "Li Ao Thought" was a hodgepodge. At that time, I was the champion of the Three People's Principles Paper Competition in Taiwan Province, the birthday paper champion in Taichung City, and a loyal reader of Qian Mu. Strangely, a middle school student did not become Qian Mu's apprentice after receiving the letters and books written by Qian Mu, but gave up the "Qian Mu route" a few years later.
If I haven't read the books of Rightists, Leftists and Nationalists, but only your books, I am deeply influenced by you, which is not surprising. However, it will be very interesting for me to roll around in the right book, dream in the left vision, and pick up the Selected Works of Hu Shi with the welcome of the quintessential departmentalism. As far as the older generation is concerned, no one else in China can bring me such great changes and make me give up the old road-the old road that fascinated me for many years.
Soon, your work gradually aroused my great enthusiasm. 194 1 year 1 October1day, I gave you a long letter of 2000 words at Taichung Station. At that time, I was only seventeen years old, and I was inevitably a little "idolized" to you. Since1February 27th, 944, when I published an article refuting Taixi's Old Poems by Hu Shi, I have written many words to introduce your thoughts. Although those words seem too bad and excessive now, their motives are simple. Because I am deeply influenced by you, I also hope other young people can get to know Hu Shizhi.
At that time, many people laughed at me and wondered why I didn't write something else Why write Hu Shizhi? Some friends even joked, "Li Ao ate Hu Shi's meal. 」
It is difficult for me to explain other people's misunderstanding. They don't know that I "promoted" Hu Shi's thought because of my long-term contradiction between the right-wing and the left-wing quintessence school. They don't know that I have an indescribable feeling for Hu Shizhi, which makes me unbearable for others to scold you or praise you. So I finally wrote an article for a period of time, hoping that people would see Hu Shi's true colors, although my performance for a period of time may be thankless.
When I was a few years older, there were few traces of "personality cult" in my opinion of you. I think I can get to know you better. You have many disappointments and many lovely places. I think you are a little old-fashioned, a little more vain and factional. You are not as energetic as before, and your attack on authority is not as sharp as before. My feelings are just feelings. I expressed them in my letters and poems to you. I know you won't mind. I didn't look at you with the eyes of "teacher Tai". I support you and defend others for you, which makes me get a record of "distracted and flattering attitude" in the army (I don't think you know, there is a very popular revolutionary theory of "shooting Lei Zhen and driving Hu Shi away" in the army. At the same time, I criticize you. I don't mind. It would be tacky if I stood far away, "saluted my disciples" with trepidation, or put on a "Taoist mat" and "military class". I like you because you are a "person" with dignity and taste. I am influenced by you, and what I expect from you is nothing more than trying to be a "person" under the authority and the masses. I like musk deer because they will destroy themselves when necessary in exchange for uncompromising. I once joked with Yin. I said, "Mr. Yin, the liberals you worked so hard to cultivate at NTU all became Kuomintang after military training. As far as I know, some of them are voluntary. With this, you should admire me. 」
Maybe I should be proud, because I have never given up my faith. Although I suffered a lot and suffered a lot of inconvenience, I don't care. If I have a little talent and can't "walk the streets" according to my intention, I will take up my "self-destruction" and go to the countryside without any difficulty.
I don't believe in tradition any more than I believe in authority. I am a nobody. I don't believe I can beat anything, but it's hard for them to beat me unless they work hard. I am like a turtle. They ignored me. I may suddenly bite them, making their blood pressure higher and higher. If they fly into a rage, I have to shrink my head and let them talk. I am also uncompromising. I may be the most worthless cynic. I am confident that I can't do Wenwenshan and Shi Kefa under the banner of Qinglong Yanyue, so I have to choose Russell's verve, but I just want to say a word about President Jiang. Fortunately, I am satisfied with my current resilience. When I came back from the army, I still had no party, faction or religion. I can also proudly write this long letter to tell you that I still stick to our posts, and under the leadership of your doctor, we will develop together for a long time, jointly promote liberalism and praise the beauty of Ma Weijun. The only difference is that you are the boss and I am just a little assistant. Think about the philosophy of "Better below than above", maybe I am happier than you. I am very happy to receive the 1000 from Yuan You within a limited time. Both Huasi and Zhu Wenchang have described the story of your generosity, and today I actually benefited a lot from it. Pants have been redeemed, so it can be said that money is a thing apart, and your consideration for people should be the first. You lured me to accept the money by the fact that you accepted the book I sent you. Actually, this is different. Money is lovely, but if I accept it, I can't find a reason to say that it's not "taking". My ancestors advocated "meticulous", so I will stick to my inherent morality in this matter-I can't accept it. Since you are so kind and do me a big favor, let me take it as a loan to save my life, turn around and catch my breath. I've decided to pay you back next March 12. "You must never refuse." This is not too greedy, too polite and unprofitable. It's great to put on pants!