If you accept this bad state and feel that you are indulging yourself, you will feel very entangled. Yes! In fact, I can see that you are an excellent person, and of course you are very demanding of yourself. Just like you said, you have to work overtime even after work, and you have to work overtime on weekends, but you still have to practice the guzheng every day, not at night, but early in the morning. According to your description, let me talk about some of my ideas.
1. What does it mean to you not to practice the piano?
As you said, I was so busy some time ago that I was completely out of breath. My energy and physical strength may be overdrawn, so I may be very tired. Have a good rest for a while. As long as your tired state does not affect your normal work, that is to say, although you are decadent, you can still finish your work normally, your interpersonal relationship will not be affected, you can take exams normally, and you will not lose control of your emotions. You just don't want to practice, so it's not a big problem. Can you relax yourself if you don't practice the piano during this time?
I noticed that the subject said several times that he didn't practice the piano, so what did he mean by not practicing the piano? What makes the subject care so much about whether he has practiced piano or not? The following is a view of practicing the piano. When you think that you haven't practiced the piano, what's your first thought? How do you feel inside?
2. Learn to relax yourself
If you don't want to practice the piano, can you let yourself not practice for a while? As you can see from your description, you were really busy before, writing papers and taking psychological counseling exams. Fortunately, you can finish them. I just gave up piano practice. When you don't want to practice, you can do sports. When you are anxious, you can take a deep breath, write an emotional diary and brush your mobile phone. This is also a way to relax.
Life is always full of pressure. When you feel too stressed, you should learn to relax yourself, let nervous nerves relax, listen to soothing music, practice meditation and jog, which are all good methods.
Everyone's energy is limited. If a person accumulates too much pressure, his heart will only collapse little by little. Learning to decompress yourself and relax a little may be more beneficial to his physical and mental health.
3. Seek professional help if necessary!
When a person has psychological and emotional problems that can't be alleviated, which affects his normal work and study, it's best to seek the help of professionals. Whether in theory or in reality, psychological counselors are more suitable than acquaintances around them. They won't make secular judgments about our problems. Professionals complete analysis and guidance in silence and listening, and the method is invisible. They will help us understand ourselves, the desires behind our emotions and our real needs. Finally, they will make peace with themselves slowly, and then they can go into battle easily.