Birth and lineage

Lu Xiaoman, 1903 was born in Kongjianong, Shanghai in September. Minmei, alias Xiaomei, Xiaolong, pen name Lengxiang, beautiful aunt. People from Changzhou, Jiangsu. Changzhou is a famous historical and cultural city, known as "Three Towns of Wu" and "Eight Cities". Lu Xiaoman's ancestral home is Changzhou Zhang Cun. During the reign of Xianfeng and Tongzhi in Qing Dynasty

At that time, Lu Xiaoman's grandfather Lu Rongchang moved to Shanghai to avoid the "Long Hair" (that is, the Taiping Heavenly Kingdom) rebellion. Lu Xiaoman's father, Lu Zifu (1873- 1930), was born generous. Because he was smart when he was young, he had to pass every exam, so his elders renamed him Lu Ding. Lu Ding, also known as Jing 'an and Kenzo, was a juren in the late Qing Dynasty, graduated from Waseda University in Japan, and was a proud disciple of Japanese famous Ito Bowen. During my study in Japan, I attended the Alliance of Dr. Sun Yat-sen.. When Yuan Shikai was president in the early years of the Republic of China, he ordered the arrest of Lu Ding and other members of the League. After the establishment of the Kuomintang Nanjing government, Lu Ding was recommended by fellow countryman Xun to work in the sub-bureau (later the Ministry of Finance). He has served as director, counselor and director of taxation for more than 20 years. He is party member, a national, the main founder of China Savings Bank. Mother Wu Manhua, nicknamed Mei Shou, is the eldest daughter of Wu Qihe, a native of Baima, the first in Changzhou. Her ancestor Wu Guangyue was the governor of Jiangxi in the Qing Dynasty. She is versatile and has a deep knowledge of ancient Chinese. In the late Qing Dynasty and the early Republic of China, he taught in Beizi Baylor School. These articles and homework written by Prince Wang Sun were all taken home by Lu Ding and corrected by Wu Manhua, which shows that she has considerable writing skills. She is better at meticulous painting. Lu Xiaoman loves painting and is deeply influenced by his mother. The word "villain" also comes from the mother.

Campus "queen"

Lu Xiaoman spent his childhood in a kindergarten in Shanghai. At the age of 6, she went to Beijing with her mother and lived with her father. At the age of 7, she entered the primary school affiliated to Beijing Women's Normal University. 9 years old to 14, studying in Beijing girls' middle school. 15 years old, Lu Xiaoman transferred to Beijing sacred heart school. In the same year, Lu Ding invited an English female teacher to teach English for her. Lu Xiaoman is naturally intelligent and willing to study hard. When he was sixteen or seventeen, he was fluent in English and French. He also plays the piano and is good at painting oil paintings. As a student, Lu Xiaoman is not only talented, but also beautiful, showing her charm. She has a Shanghai girl.

Smart and lively, with the beauty and dignity of Beijing girls. At school, everyone calls her "Queen". Every time she goes to the theater or Central Park, there are dozens of foreign and China college students who carry bags or coats for her, but she is arrogant and disdains them.

After three years of diplomatic translation, she gradually became famous in Beijing society.

Gu Weijun, Foreign Minister of Beiyang Government, asked Sacred Heart School to recommend a beautiful young girl who is proficient in English and French to the Ministry of Foreign Affairs to receive foreign envoys. Lu Xiaoman became the natural choice. Mr. and Mrs. Lu Ding thought it was a good opportunity to exercise their daughter's talent and agreed. Therefore, Lu Xiaoman is often invited by the Ministry of Foreign Affairs to receive foreign guests, attend dances organized by the Ministry of Foreign Affairs and serve as an oral interpreter for Chinese and foreign personnel. 18 years old, Lu Xiaoman gradually became famous in Beijing society. She is good at drawing, writing small letters, singing and acting, and she is warm, generous and polite. What is more attractive is her bright smile, light posture and soft voice. During her three-year career as a diplomatic translator, Lu Xiaoman has shown her astute and patriotic side many times. Because at that time, translators not only had to translate each other's words, but also had to improvise against foreigners who despised China people. She loves her motherland, and when she sees foreigners' contempt for China people, she answers blows with blows and responds skillfully.

Marry Wang Geng.

Newly married disharmony

1922, Lu Xiaoman 19 years old, with a handsome face, a more graceful figure and a more beautiful appearance. This year, at the order of her parents, she left school and married Wang Geng. But in this marriage, Lu Xiaoman is like a boat in the sea, tossed by the wind and waves, completely passive. When the excitement of honeymoon faded, she gradually realized that she was not happy. She feels that she and Wang Geng are very different in temperament and hobbies. In the third year of marriage, Wang Geng was appointed as the police chief of Harbin, and Wang Geng invited Lu Xiaoman to accompany him. Lu Xiaoman lived in Harbin for some time. It is said that because Lu Xiaoman was a well-known social figure in Beijing at that time, after she arrived in Harbin, her posters were plastered all over the streets of Harbin. However, Lu Xiaoman is not used to living in Harbin. Soon, she returned to Beijing to live with her parents and separated from Wang Geng, so her feelings for her husband became even more indifferent. Because of their temperament, after half a year of marriage, their estrangement became an undeniable fact. But Lu Xiaoman has a high heart and will never let people know that she is a frustrated person and an unhappy person. So she lived a life of hiding her temperament and pretending to laugh and cry. In this state of mind, Xu Zhimo, like a whisper, broke into Lu Xiaoman's heart.

Know Xu zhimo

After Xu Zhimo was ordered by his parents to marry Zhang Youyi, he deeply felt the lack of affection with his wife. Zhang Youyi is indeed a virtuous, capable and housekeeping woman, but she is not suitable for a romantic poet like Xu Zhimo. 1922 In March, Xu Zhimo divorced Zhang Youyi in Berlin.

From 1920 to 192 1, Xu Zhimo saw Lin in London. This is his ideal woman-beautiful, pure, naive and lively. The two of them had a happy time in England. After returning home, he still can't forget this fresh and refined "Miss Lin". However, after Lin returned to China, he was engaged to Liang Sicheng, the son of Liang Qichao. During Tagore's visit to China, Xu Zhimo was able to get in touch with Lin again and rekindle the old feelings. However, Lin made up her mind at this time and soon went to study in the United States with her "fiance" Liang Sicheng. Xu Zhimo was depressed to the extreme. It was at this time that Xu Zhimo met Lu Xiaoman who also endured tears. Their meeting gradually turned their tears and depression into joy and hope, and this amazing love that attracted much attention began.

Prom acquaintance

As for the occasion when Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo met, the general expression is at the dance. The two of them, one is my fair lady, affectionate; One is Jiangnan talents. One is a rose with dew, the other is a lyric new poem. When dry wood meets fire, how can it not spark love in generate? Since then, Xu Zhimo has become a frequent visitor to the Wangs. Because Wang Geng focused on his work and future, when Xiaoman wanted to play, he said, "I don't have time. Ask Zhimo to play with you. " When Xu Zhimo came to invite the couple out, he said, "I am very busy today. Ask Xiaoman to play with you. " Wang Geng would never have thought that such treatment would lead to a marital crisis. In this way, Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman played together in the favorable situation recognized by Wang Geng. They visited the Great Wall, the overpass, drank tea in Laijin Yuxuan and went to Xishan to see the red leaves. They are very busy! Xiaoman likes playing cards, and Zhimo plays cards with her. Xiaoman likes to go to the opera, and Zhimo will accompany her to the opera; Xiaoman likes painting, so Zhimo introduced her to famous painters in Beijing. In this way, if you accompany me, I will accompany you. Because of the perfect appearance and psychological fault, there will inevitably be feelings. So, when did Lu Xiaoman fall in love with Xu Zhimo? At the beginning, Xu Zhimo described the fact that he was shocked by Lu Xiaoman: "Tonight in Zhenguang, I asked you if you remember the first time you went there last year?

The theater feels that your hair curls in my face (I wrote a poem in Hailar to commemorate my first keen sense of bureaucracy, which I will never forget). "Xu Zhimo is a great poet. In the process of falling in love with Lu Xiaoman, he left many popular love poems. For example, the happiness of flowers, the reincarnation of spring, gloomy road monuments, cold jade nights, and so on. At this time, Lu Xiaoman almost became the source of Xu Zhimo's poems. Xu Zhimo said: "The nourishment of my poetic soul depends entirely on you. You should hold my poetic soul like a mother holding a child. You should dress him when he is cold, and feed him when he is hungry. With your love, he won't be hungry or afraid of freezing. With your love, he will have a life! "Xiaoman loves literature and art and naturally admires a talented poet like Zhimo, so he often asks him for some literary things. Two people are like-minded, * * * as the language gradually increased, the conversation content also enriched, and gradually produced feelings. After Wang Geng was transferred to Harbin police chief, Zhimo and Xiaoman had more contacts, and their feelings became deeper and deeper. Lu Xiaoman's calm heart caused a stir. Although her husband has received higher education, he is still a soldier on the whole. He doesn't understand women's psychology and won't please him. The kind Zhimo opened a beautiful window for her-a poet who can write romantic poems, a charming romantic talent, and what's more difficult is that he can read Xiao Man's painful and profound world. The little man was stunned. She thought, "This is my ideal partner. However, we met when we shouldn't have met. " She fell into infinite sadness.

disagree

Soon, Lu Xiaoman and Wang Geng had another big fight. On that day, Tang Ying (a noble family in Shanghai. At that time, there was a saying of "Southern Tang Dynasty and Northern Land", that is, Tang Ying in Shanghai in the south and Lu Xiaoman in Beijing in the north, both of whom were famous for their beauty. ) invite the couple to dinner. Wang Geng has something to do. Tell Xiaoman not to go out dancing with them alone. Hearing this, Xiaoman became a little emotional. When her companion invited her out to dance, she didn't say yes at once. Someone joked: "We always thought that Shouqing (Wang Geng's number) was afraid of Xiaoman, but Xiaoman was too afraid of him to go with us alone." When I pulled her out. Just about to get on the bus, it happened that Wang Geng's car drove to the door and saw Xiaoman not listening to him. He flushed with anger and shouted at her, "Are you human or not? It doesn't count if it is sold. " When the surrounding guests saw this slip away, she was dragged home by Wang Geng. Lu Xiaoman was insulted by Wang Geng in public, and he couldn't help feeling angry and hate. The next day, he found his mother and clamored to go back to Beijing, claiming that he would not go back to the Wangs in the future and was ready to serve his parents. In this case, the mother and daughter returned to Beijing. Lu Xiaoman told his father about Wang Geng's public humiliation in Shanghai. Lu Ding was very angry after hearing this and expressed her support for her daughter's action. However, the mother strongly disagreed with her daughter's divorce from Wang Geng, because the family was always at odds.

After Xu Zhimo returned to Beijing, he found Liu Haisu. Liu Haisu deeply felt that it was difficult. It was China in the 1920s, and people in the triangle were important people. What shall we do? Seeing his hesitation, Xu Zhimo said, "Haisu, Xiaoman will be worried if this continues. She is too bitter, and her body will collapse. " This sentence touched Liu Haisu, who also escaped from the feudal marriage at home; Besides, Liu Haisu has always taken anti-feudalism as his own responsibility, and is known as "rebellion" in China painting circles. He is 29 years old and full of blood, and Lu Xiaoman is also his student. Seeing that they were in such pain, he agreed to do the work.

Liu Haisu went to see Lu Xiaoman's mother who had just returned to Beijing. He said, "Aunt, don't blame me for being frivolous. Although I studied fine arts, I am also very practical. What problem can be solved by forcing Xiaoman to Shanghai alive at present? Can she and Mr. Wang grow old together? Little man is also bitter in his heart. If you are always making trouble with you all day, you will have no peace! " Lu Mu sighed, "we don't know, but our marriage is decided by the two of us. We have no bad impression of Zhimo, but people are awesome! " Liu Haisu talked a lot about the tragedy caused by involuntary marriage, but Wu Manhua couldn't make up his mind. She said: "To tell the truth, Wang Geng is still very filial to both of us, and is also very good to Xiaoman. How can he ask him to divorce his daughter? " Liu Haisu said to Liu Mu, "If you make sense and let Wang Geng have the idea of divorce, it will not be difficult for parents. What do you think? " Lu Mu said, "I'm afraid it's not that easy?"

Kutokuhayashi banquet

Liu Haisu sees that Lu's mother is absent-minded, so she will listen to his arrangement. Finally, they agreed that Liu Haisu would accompany Lu Xiaoman and her daughter to Shanghai, and then they would try to discuss with Wang Geng.

On the day of departure, besides Hu Shi and Xu Zhimo, many scholars, professors and boudoir ladies from Beijing came to see Xiao Man and her daughter off. Seeing so many celebrities coming to see Xiaoman off and seeing Xiaoman's radiant appearance, Liu Haisu quietly said to Zhimo, "You are so blessed to have such a lover!"

The next day, Xu Zhimo chased Shanghai. On the third day, Liu Haisu hosted a banquet in Kutokuhayashi, a famous vegetarian restaurant in Shanghai. In addition to Xu Zhimo, Wang Geng and Lu Xiaoman, invited guests include brothers Tan Lu, Yang Quan (Xing Buddha) and Li Zufa of Hugh Ho Chang, Tang Ying and Tang Ying.

When Wang Geng saw these people on the table, he vaguely felt that something had happened at today's party, but he seemed calm on the surface and knew that the right people would always come. He greeted everyone politely and did not forget to shake hands with Xu Zhimo. Tzu Chi always looks guilty, afraid to directly contact Wang Geng's eyes. Although Xu Zhimo is the original planner of this banquet, he can't show his face too much on today's occasion. He just sat on the table as an ordinary guest, waiting for Liu Haisu to play the leading role.

Lu Xiaoman knows the purpose of today's party, but she is very calm and looks natural and graceful. She didn't go to see Zhimo on purpose. She can't let Shima get too carried away. Although she has always lacked lasting affection for Wang Geng, she would never embarrass her husband on this occasion. She just said hello to everyone gracefully and slightly shyly, sat down and whispered something to her mother, behaving gracefully. After a while, the food was served. Liu Haisu just asked everyone to eat, but Hugh Ho Chang couldn't help it. He asked Liu Haisu, "Hai Su, what are you doing here as an art traitor?" What medicine are you selling in that gourd? "

Liu Haisu is worried about how to speak, and Hugh Ho Chang's words just lead to the topic. He raised his glass and said, "Today, I invite you as my hosts to commemorate my private affairs. At that time, I refused the feudal arranged marriage, fled my family and finally got a happy marriage. Come on, please finish this cup first. "

Let's raise our glasses and drink. Mrs. Lu is very nervous. She stole a glance at her son-in-law Wang Geng, but saw that Wang Geng was expressionless. Liu Haisu went on to say, "Everyone drank this glass of wine, which shows that everyone is very supportive of my action. As we all know, we are in a period of social change, the old and new ideas are in the transformation stage, and the feudal remnants are gradually expelled. However, "Liu Haisu emphasized," feudal thoughts still exist in some people's minds, which can't be rushed out. We are all young people. Who doesn't pursue happiness? Who doesn't long for happiness? Who wants to be bound by feudal ideas? "

He continued: "So my view on marriage is that both husband and wife should be based on equality of personality, emotional harmony and mutual understanding. A wife is by no means an ornament for her husband. A wife should be her husband's bosom friend. The era of' three from four virtues' has passed! " Liu Haisu said more and more vigorously, and he raised his glass again: "Come, we wish all couples in the world a happy marriage! Cheers! "

Infected by Liu Haisu's passionate speech, everyone stood up and drank. Wang Geng hesitated, as if thinking about something. He didn't stand up until everyone got up. After drinking with everyone, he poured himself a glass and said to Liu Haisu, "Hai Su, what you said is very reasonable, and I am very inspired. Come, I propose a toast to you. " After a toast with Liu Haisu, Wang Geng poured himself another. This time, he raised his glass to everyone and said, "May we all create happiness for ourselves and drink to the happiness of others." After drinking, he said gracefully, "I have something to do today, so I have to go first." Please be honest. " He turned to Xiaoman and said, "Xiaoman, sit with everyone and go back with the old lady later!" " "

Wang Geng excused himself for something, which showed that he could not bear the pressure of the banquet and was in a bad mood. Xu Zhimo was very happy and thanked Liu Haisu for everything. Lu Xiaoman is quiet on the surface, but his heart is also very complicated. Of course, she hoped to combine with Zhimo, but she was a little flustered when she saw her husband's embarrassed expression at that moment. Lu Xiaoman's mother, Wu Manhua, felt a little guilty and felt sorry for Wang Geng today.

After the Kutokuhayashi banquet, Zhimo and Xiaoman are anxiously waiting for news. Xiaoman, in particular, dares not look at her husband every time she sees him. Strangely, Wang Geng didn't talk to her much. As for the topic at the party, there was no discussion between them. Lu Xiaoman looked at her husband's silence, and some hated him. She felt that she seemed too optimistic. Nothing in the world is so labor-saving, and she can't guess what he is thinking at the moment.

Pregnant on the eve of divorce

Xiaoman couldn't get the expected result from her husband at home, and lost contact with Zhimo outside. Xu Zhimo waited outside for news, disheartened. Seeing that there was no hope at the moment, he ran back to Beijing with deep disappointment.

In this way, two extremely depressed months passed, during which Wang Geng looked very busy and upset. Once, he was angry with Xiaoman for no reason, and Xiaoman felt very wronged.

Just when Lu Xiaoman was desperate, one night, Wang Geng finally broke through the ground. He stopped his wife who was about to sleep and said to her, "Little man, I've been thinking for a long time. Since you have no fun living with me, since I can't give you the life you want, then we must separate. I have been thinking about it for two months after the party. I think I still love you. In the meantime, I'll give you some time to think about it. Do you think you and Zhimo really deserve each other? " After a while, seeing that Lu Xiaoman was silent, he said, "It seems that your mind has been made up, so I won't stop it." Xiaoman cried, and she suddenly thought of all the benefits of her husband. Although he was sometimes unkind to her in the past, he still loved her from the bottom of his heart.

Wang Geng finally said, "Don't cry, I love you, but I don't care enough about you at ordinary times, which is determined by my personality. You and Zhimo are both artistic figures, and you are sure to be congenial. I wish you and Zhimo happiness in the future. " Finally, he added, "I'll finish the formalities in a few days." Lu Xiaoman can only cry, I don't know whether it is because of sadness or sudden happiness. But a few days after happiness arrival, Lu Xiaoman fell into many contradictions again. Here's the thing. Shortly after Wang Geng agreed to divorce her, she suddenly found herself with Wang Geng. This discovery made her very painful: if she was born, it would be difficult for her to divorce Wang Geng and not be able to combine with Xu Zhimo, and her efforts for more than a year would be in vain; If you have a miscarriage, you will feel sorry for the baby and Wang Geng. At that time, her mother insisted that she give birth to the baby, but Lu Xiaoman thought that being born meant that she could not get divorced. Wang Geng finally agreed. Although she hasn't signed the document yet, there is still hope, which she and Mo Chi have been waiting for for for a long time. On second thought, Lu Xiaoman chose abortion for love and freedom. She decided not to tell Xu Zhimo, nor to let Wang Geng know that only she could taste the bitter fruit. She secretly took a close-fitting girl, went to a German doctor for surgery, lied to the outside world that she was in poor health and went to rest for a while. I didn't expect the operation to fail. Since then, my body has been devastated. Not only can you not have children, but you will faint once you live as a husband and wife. After marriage, Xu Zhimo wants to have a child. Although Lu Xiaoman was in pain, she couldn't tell the secret. She just replied, "You're not."

Is there a Huan? "It is precisely because Lu Xiaoman has been infertile, so she later particularly likes to recognize her daughter.

1925 At the end of the year, Lu Xiaoman and Wang Geng dissolved their four-year marriage, and Lu Xiaoman was only 23 years old when she divorced.

Pressure from Xu Zhimo's family

Although Lu Xiaoman and Wang Geng divorced, her marriage with Xu Zhimo was still full of troubles, and her remarriage was under strong pressure from two aspects. One is Lu Xiaoman's mother's objection. Mother Lu always disagreed with her daughter and Xu Zhimo. It was Lu Xiaoman's father who signed the divorce agreement behind her back. Wu Manhua was very angry afterwards. The old couple had a big fight for this, and they were persuaded by relatives and friends to calm down.

After Lu Xiaoman and Wang Geng divorced, Xu Zhimo often visited Lujia, but Liu Mu deliberately rejected him, and Xu Zhimo always respected Liu Mu. Because of Lu Xiaoman's illness, mother Lu could not resolutely forbid Xu Zhimo to visit her daughter. Obviously, her daughter's illness has a lot to do with Xu Zhimo's visit. It can also be said that the daughter is a heart disease, and Xu Zhimo is the only cure. Wu Manhua loves her daughter after all, and she is relieved. When Xu Zhimo entrusted Hu Shi to propose to her, she made two demands to Hu Shi:

First, Liang Qichao should be invited to get married, because Liang Qichao is famous all over the country and is Xu Zhimo's teacher;

Second, the wedding will be held in the auditorium of Beijing Beihai Park Library.

At that time, it was quite difficult to accomplish these two things, but Hu Shi finally succeeded. Xu Zhimo's father, Xu Shenru, is a rich gentleman in Shixia Town, Haining County, Zhejiang Province. He thinks that his son's divorce is a big violation, and marrying a married woman is even more insulting. And he doesn't like Lu Xiaoman, thinking that such a woman must be frivolous and won't bring Xu Zhimo a stable life. From the later situation, Hu Shi's persuasion work did not work this time. Soon after, Xu Zhimo had to go south in person to discuss his second marriage with his father. It can be seen from Xu Zhimo's letter to Lu Xiaoman that his persuasion work is extremely difficult.

Xu Shenru (Xu Zhimo's father) said that if Xu Zhimo wants to remarry, he must get Zhang Youyi's consent.

. It turned out that Xu Shenru always thought that the divorce between her son and Zhang Youyi in Germany was not agreed by both parents, so it didn't count. He denied it. He had to listen to Zhang Youyi himself. Therefore, if a son wants to remarry, he should first listen to Zhang Youyi's opinion. If she really agrees to divorce her son, then she has passed the test of "daughter-in-law". At the beginning of 1926, Zhang Youyi returned to China via Siberia. I didn't return to Shanghai until that summer because of the war. On the second day of his arrival, Zhang Youyi went to Zhang's home and visited his former father-in-law, Xu Shenru. She saw Xu Zhimo sitting on the sofa and nodded slightly at her. Zhang Youyi also noticed that Xu Zhimo was wearing a very conspicuous jade ring. After saluting Xu Shen, Zhang Youyi was motioned to sit down. "

Xu Shenru immediately asked her gently, "Yi, is it true that you divorced Zhimo?"

Zhang Youyi is a clever man. He has learned about Zhimo's love story from his brother Hugh Ho Chang. She didn't want to hold Mo Chi back, and saw Mo Chi anxiously watching her, waiting for her statement. Zhang Youyi said, "It's true." Xu Shenru was obviously disappointed. He went on to ask, "Do you object to his marrying Lu Xiaoman?" Zhang Youyi hesitated for a moment. She wondered whether Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman were really suitable. On the other hand, alas, as long as they think it's appropriate and none of my business, they say, "I don't object."

Xu Shenru was disappointed with this "daughter-in-law" for the first time, and he sighed lightly.

At this time, Xu Zhimo was as happy as a child, stood up and said to his ex-wife, "Thank you." Then he ran to the window and stretched out his arm as if to embrace the whole world. Unexpectedly, the ring on his hand flew out of the open window. Mo Chi's expression suddenly became frightened, because it was an engagement ring that Lu Xiaoman gave him. Xu Zhimo immediately went downstairs to find it. Zhang Youyi looked down from the window and saw Shima looking for it, but he couldn't find the ring. Zhang Youyi felt that losing the ring at this time seemed to indicate what would happen between Shima and Xiaoman in the future.

After the first pass, Xu Shenru still refused to agree happily. In July, Xu Zhimo had a sincere conversation with his father in the unsmooth Shixia Mountain. Later, after the intervention of Hu Shi, Liu Haisu and others, Xu Shenru finally reluctantly agreed, but he also had three conditions:

First, the cost of marriage is self-care and the family will not bear it;

Second, the wedding must be made by Hu Shi as an introducer and Liang Qichao as a witness, otherwise it will not be recognized;

Third, after marriage, we must go back to the south and live in peace.

Xu Zhimo agrees with all three.

Happiness of flowers

If I were a snowflake,

Handsome in midair,

I have to know my direction clearly-

Fly, fly, fly,-

This land has my direction.

Don't go to that cold valley,

Don't go to the desolate foothills,

Don't be disappointed in the deserted streets-

Fly, fly, fly,-

Look, I have my direction!

Dancing in the air,

Identify quiet homes,

Waiting for her to visit in the garden—

Fly, fly, fly,-

Ah, she smells like cinnabar plum!

I was naked at that time,

Yingying touched her skirt,

Close to her tender heart-

Dissolve, dissolve, dissolve-

Into her gentle heart!

once in a while

I am a cloud in the sky,

Occasionally projected into your heart—

You shouldn't be surprised,

There's no need to be happy-

It disappeared in an instant.

You and I met in the dark sea,

You have yours, I have mine, direction;

You remember it well,

You'd better forget,

The light that shines on each other at this intersection!

I don't know which direction the wind is blowing.

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

In the light waves of dreams.

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

Her tenderness, my intoxication.

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

Sweetness is the brilliance of dreams.

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

Her ingratitude, my sadness.

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

Heartbroken in the sadness of dreams!

I don't know the wind

Which direction does it blow—

In my dream,

Hazy is the light in a dream.

Emerald night

You really left, tomorrow? Then I, then I, ...

You don't have to worry, sooner or later;

If you want to remember me, remember me,

Otherwise, forget the world before it's too late.

With me, I don't have to think about time and space.

Think of it as a dream, a fantasy;

Think of it as the residual red we saw the day before yesterday.

Timid and pitying in front of the wind, a fluttering,

Two petals, fall to the ground, step on them and turn into mud. ...

Alas, people step on it and turn it into mud-it's clean when it turns into mud.

This half-dead man is suffering,

Looking at an attic, heavy and tearful-

Oh, my God, why did you come? Why did you come? ...

I can't forget you, the day you came,

As if the dark future is bright,

You are my husband, my lover, my benefactor,

You taught me what life is and what love is.

You woke me up in a coma and cleared me.

How do I know the sky is high and the grass is green without you?

Touch my heart, how fast it beats;

Touch my face again, how burnt it is, thank you for the night.

Invisible; Love, I can't breathe,

Stop kissing me; I can't stand this kind of intense work,

My soul is like a burning brick these days.

Wrought iron, under the hammer of love, hits, hits and sparks.

Scattered ... I'm dizzy, hold me tight,

Love, let me stay in this quiet garden,

How beautiful it is to die on your chest with your eyes closed!

The wind rustled in the white tree overhead,

This is my funeral song, this breeze,

Blowing from the olive grove, with pomegranate flowers,

Take my soul away, firefly,

Affectionate and dedicated fireflies, with their light,

I stopped when I got to the bridge with the third ring hole.

Look, you're holding my half-hot body,

Call me, kiss me, shake me, suck me, ...

I will smile and follow the breeze,

Let him lead me, heaven, hell, anywhere,

Anyway, lose this disgusting life and experience this death.

In love, the death of this love center is not as good as.

500 reincarnations? ..... selfish, I know,

But I don't care ... will you die with me?

What, it's not a complete "love to death" without a pair,

If you want to fly, you must fight with two pairs of wings.

It's different to take care of when you go to heaven,

I can't live without you and you can't live without me;

If it's hell, you won't be at ease if I go alone.

You said that hell might be more civilized than this world.

Although I don't believe that a delicate flower like me,

There is no guarantee that there will be no more storms.

You can't hear me clearly when I call you.

That's not asking for liberation, but throwing it into the mud,

On the contrary, cold-eyed ghosts colluded with hard-hearted people.

Laugh at my fate and your cowardice and carelessness?

That's right. What should I do?

It's hard to live, it's too hard, and you can't get rid of it when you die.

I don't want you to sacrifice your future for me.

Alas! You said you'd better live and wait for that day!

Is there that day? -You are my confidence;

But you must leave at dawn. Do you really have the heart?

Leave without me? I can't keep you, it is fate;

But this flower, without sun and dew soaking,

If you don't die, you will inevitably fall out. What a pity!

You can't forget me, dear, except in your heart,

I have no life; Yes, I listen to you, I wait,

I have to wait patiently when Cycas bloom;

Love, you will always be a star above my head;

If I die unfortunately, I will become a firefly.

In this garden, next to the grass roots, flying in the dark,

Dusk flies to midnight, midnight flies to dawn,

I just hope there are no clouds in the sky, and I can see the sky.

The unchanging big star in the sky is you,

I hope you can shine more light for me at night,

Through the day, through the heart of love ...