From living alone to living in groups, from being used to being alone to being under the same roof with others. Unlike living in a student apartment before, it is more popular and lively, and you can talk about anything. In the past year when I was studying abroad, I basically had to stay in the dormitory and spend my time on the computer because I was taking online classes. In fact, the mentality has collapsed many times and there is a lot of homework. Coupled with various group work and meetings, it is even more devastating. Every time the mentality is collapse, reconstruction, collapse and reconstruction.
In the sprint stage of graduation thesis, I feel uncomfortable after vaccination, which leads to the delay of graduation thesis progress and graduation time. During my illness, it also troubled many people. Now these people don't want to contact me anymore, even if they send thank-you messages. Studying abroad, interpersonal relationship has always been my most painful point, and I gradually found that they have lost their ability to get along with others. In other words, we are all passers-by, and few people are sincere. Just be polite, don't be serious. But we are so serious that everyone we know should take it seriously. I will be grateful to those who have helped me, but for this reason, others don't want to talk to me anymore. I don't know if I want to continue. People are good to me.
I suddenly feel very self tonight. I sat down to chat with my friends. There is basically nothing to talk about. They talk about games, make-up, gossip and food, but I don't seem interested. I quietly went back to my room, just brushing my cell phone or reading a book.
I don't know when I've been so closed and unwilling to communicate. Even if I'm careful, I dare not say too much, for fear of exposing myself. ? Fear of rejection, fear of being laughed at, fear of being pointed at; Maybe I live in someone else's house and I am very careful about my words and deeds.
In fact, I want to get rid of many constraints, my parents and my current object, and I don't want others to put pressure on me and give orders; But sometimes I make this mistake. This is human nature. Do I need to correct it?
Gradually, I found that I don't need to talk too much about myself with others. In fact, nobody cares, nobody cares, and others care about their own business. Everyone only cares about their own affairs, but I seem to have wasted too much energy, time and money to please others. To please people's personality positively leads to the estrangement of various relationships, whether with parents, partners or friends.
Gradually, I just want to be an indifferent person, concentrate on my own life and live my own life. I don't care how others look down on me, look down on me, and do what I like alone. At the same time, I don't expose my weaknesses.
When you can't shine, learn to bear it alone; If it hurts, cry alone and don't seek comfort. Don't bother others if you can do it yourself, because others have other things to do. ?
This year's study abroad has taught me how to be alone with myself, how to endure loneliness, and I can live without love. I don't want to continue with people who despise me. Although I still appreciate his past help, I know that we have become passers-by. We should cultivate our hobbies and professional abilities and lay a solid foundation of professional knowledge.
During the year of studying abroad, I was taught not to make friends casually, not to put in goodwill too early, and not to expose my weaknesses too early. Don't tell everyone about your difficulties, no one will care; Understand some human nature and some facts as soon as possible; Don't take yourself too seriously No one will care about you, even your family, except yourself. Learn to communicate and how to deal with interpersonal relationships, including at home and abroad. In fact, no matter at home or abroad, people are people, and there are always some similarities.
Some truths need to be understood by yourself. No matter what others say, they won't remember, and they are still planted in the pit.
It turns out that I am just an ordinary person. It's time to admit that you are ordinary, not to underestimate yourself, but to admit that you are ordinary or even mediocre, and then have a good next time.
Glasgow
Britain, England
202 1/09/07