Do you have a very loving person, but you didn't end up with her? ?

Do you have an experience that you will never remember or forget, and you will still feel regret and regret in retrospect?

Have you ever loved someone persistently and passionately?

Have you ever been desperate to protect someone?

Do you have a person who can only meet in memory?

Did you really love someone?

02

Ringo loved such a person many years ago.

It's just a pity that those things have passed for a long time. After a long time, my memory has not become blurred at all. The scar she gave Ringo will still hurt when it is opened.

I learned about Ringo's first love at a party. At that time, he was drunk, and he was lying on the table, screaming, his cheeks were red and he smelled of alcohol.

"Small read, small read ... you don't go, don't go ..."

He kept saying this sentence in his mouth, saying that he spoke the truth after drinking. Ringo, who has always been strong and calm, showed a little-known side in front of everyone after drinking.

Both melodramatic and fragile, just like a young man who has just lost love.

A group of friends looked at Ringo, who was a little down and out, and felt sorry for him. Someone asked curiously, "Who is the little thought that Ringo has been chanting?"

Everyone was dazed and silent for a long time, and Xiaohua, who knew Ringo best, slowly told us: "In the off-year, she was Ringo's first love."

Is a sad and long story, but also an irreparable story, with infinite regret.

The protagonists of the story are Ringo and Xiaonian. Time goes back to eight years ago. Ringo and Xiaonian went to Beijing together and officially started their northern life.

03

At that time, Xiao Nian loved to laugh, his eyes were big, his smile was as sweet as melting sadness, and there were shallow dimples on his cheeks.

Ringo likes watching Xiaonian laugh best. On the train to Beijing, Ringo held Xiaonian's hand and said softly, "You look so good when you smile. When I arrive in Beijing, I will treat you well and make you smile more brightly. Believe me, I will definitely make money and give you a home! "

When Xiaonian heard his words, his cheeks turned slightly red, but his smile was sweeter.

For the future, both of them are very yearning and longing. In their view, the dazzling city will definitely change them and accommodate them.

At that time, young Ringo and Xiaonian didn't know that the city of Beijing was too big. It seemed to be full of gold and opportunities, but sometimes it was so small that there was no bed for two people.

When I first arrived in Beijing, Ringo and Xiaonian were huddled in a crowded, noisy and sultry basement. Most of the people who rent with them are young drifters in the north, some play rock and roll, some create, and many wage earners. What they have in common is that they have no money, no background and no relationship.

Ringo's first job cost 2000 yuan a month, and he was so tired that he had to live to catch his breath, even worse in primary school. She submitted resumes to dozens of companies, and only one company accepted her as a clerk with a monthly salary of 1000 yuan.

Their wages are really too small, and their consumption in Beijing is high. Apart from rent, food, transportation and some miscellaneous expenses, they have little left.

Their lives are very tight. In addition to renting a house with a group to grab toilets and toilets, we have to get up early to squeeze the subway to work. They live frugally, and instant noodles and bread are the foods they eat the most.

04

Beijing is so big, it is not easy to get along with, and it is even more difficult to get along with.

Ringo is particularly distressed by Xiaonian. I have never bought cosmetics or new clothes since I came to Beijing. Every aspect of life can be saved, and he feels sorry for her.

One night, they squeezed the subway together and went home from work. Xiao nian's high-heeled shoes suddenly broke and her feet were accidentally twisted, which looked embarrassing, but she didn't shed a tear or complain.

Brother Lin felt sorry for her, picked her up and blamed himself: "I'm sorry I didn't let you live a good life." Me, I am really useless! "

Xiaonian smiled: "I'm fine, you put me down."

Brother Lin just hugged her and refused to give up, and threw away those high heels with broken shoes. Xiaonian scolded him: "Why did you throw them away? Maybe I can fix them! "

"Never mind, I can buy you a new pair of shoes!"

"... new shoes are not cheap. "

"Don't worry, I have money to buy shoes."

"No, I have other shoes, but I have to pay the rent again next week ..."

Although Xiaonian refused all the time, Ringo bought her more than 100 pairs of shoes in Shuang Yi the next day, which was the most expensive pair he had ever bought.

Xiaonian looked at those shoes with tears in her eyes. Ringo touched his head, but his heart began to worry about the living expenses for next month.

Since then, Ringo has worked harder and has not been idle on weekends. He began to work part-time in the shopping mall, rushing to do any dirty work. Only when he can make money, he will not bow his head no matter how bitter he is.

Ringo said, "Children from poor families can only survive in big cities if they work hard. Others can live with 100% efforts, and I have to work 300% or more to live together in Beijing. "

Not only for himself, but also for the primary school, he should work hard, earn more money and let her live a good life.

Before long, Ringo jumped out of that position and transferred to a big company. His salary has doubled and his treatment is better. Ringo gritted his teeth, moved out of the basement with off-year, rented a small house, and his life was a little better.

However, Ringo is preoccupied with work and making money, and people are getting busier and busier, leaving early and returning late, and going out to socialize all day, which makes Xiaonian a little upset.

05

Xiao nian and Ringo spend less and less time together, but there are more and more barriers and contradictions between them.

One night, Ringo came back from outside, smelling of alcohol, and making a scene at home. Off-year is angry and annoyed. "Why did you go drinking again?"

"I that call social parties! How can you not drink while eating? ! "

"Then don't drink so much, it's not good for your health."

"It's okay, I have long been used to it ..."

Before the words were finished, Ringo shook himself, fell to the ground and vomited all over the floor.

Xiaonian looked at him lovingly while wiping the floor and said, "I especially don't want to see you like this!" " "

Ringo has changed, becoming mature and sophisticated. He started smoking and drinking, and his temper became more and more violent. When he was unhappy, he swore, and the smile on his face became less and less, more tired and more unbearable.

I tried to talk to him again and again, but he didn't have time. He either worked overtime for meetings or went out to accompany his clients when he received the phone call, and his attitude towards her was not as gentle as before.

"Brother Lin, can you stop drinking so much and smoke so much?"

"I this is not for you, for the sake of our future? You think I fucking want to drink and smoke? ! I am like a dog in front of customers, not just to make money? Who is not a grandson in front of money? ! "

Ringo and Xiaonian had a cold war after their quarrel. Ringo deliberately avoided off-year, and off-year refused to talk to him, until one day off-year found a pink lip print on Ringo's changed shirt, and her heart was completely cold.

The heart is cold and love is fragile.

In fact, it only takes a short moment to end a love-even if you have been in love for many, many years.

06

Ringo doesn't know when Xiaonian moved out. She left quietly, as if she had never appeared.

She jumped out of the slot, changed her job and changed her mobile phone number, but Ringo couldn't find her anywhere.

In this vast Beijing, in the vast sea of people, it is really not easy to find someone who deliberately avoids you.

Ringo regretted it and his heart ached to death. The reason why he worked so hard before was to get a promotion and a raise, earn more money, rent a better house and buy better shoes, so that he could live a better life in the next year.

It's just that in his busy life, he gradually forgot how to love a person, forgetting that what he needs most is not money, but his company.

Looking back, he suddenly found that the smile on Xiaonian's face was much less than before, replaced by complaints and worries. When I look at Ringo in my off-year, my eyes are no longer gentle, but faint indifference and sadness.

If she continues to pester her little thoughts, will she be more unhappy and unhappy?

He promised that he would treat her well and make her live well and laugh happily.

However, later, he found that he could not make her live happily.

When he drifted north for nearly four years, he lost his primary school.

When Ringo talked to us about the past, his eyes were a little red and his voice was very low.

He will never forget a little thing.

He and Xiaonian were very scared when they first met the sandstorm in Beijing. Both of them are afraid of getting lost and can't go home.

Xiaonian nervously tugged at Ringo's sleeve: "Ringo, I'm afraid, I'm afraid of being separated from you."

After Ringo touched her head, he held her hand tightly: "Xiaonian, you hold my hand tightly, don't be afraid, follow me."

"I will never let go. I will never lose you. "

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? However, Ringo finally lost his beloved little thought.

Not on a sandstorm day, but on a cloudless sunny day in Wan Li.

07

What happened afterwards?

I hope this story has no afterlife, because many afterlives are piled up with regret and sadness.

Later, Xiaonian married a strange man who everyone didn't know, and Ringo returned to Nanjing alone and started a new life. He is still single.

Later, they didn't end up together.

Maybe we all met the right person at the wrong time, but unfortunately we are either too young or too stubborn, and we don't know how to cherish or love at all.

Some people disappear into the vast sea of people, and once they miss it, they won't.

Until one day, we finally learned to love someone with tears.

It's just a pity that we don't have her around.

? "My biggest regret is that

Your regret is related to me. "

Later, we were no longer us.