When I was a teenager, I don't know why Chai Lu became ugly. Hormone secretion in adolescence makes Chai Lu plump from top to bottom. In order to prevent such dangerous things from happening in her house, my mother did her best not to involve Chai Lu. For six years in high school, Chai Lu has never had new clothes to wear, so she can only wear old clothes that her aunt and mother eliminated. The hairstyle is also very strange, very short, very short flower head, cut along the ear, silly. So even if someone shouts "beauty" behind Chai Lu's ear, Chai Lu will not look back, because Chai Lu thinks that person must not be talking to Chai Lu.
However, even Seymour fell in love with Esmeralda.
The sense of inferiority established at the age of seven is still useful, and there is nothing to write about the later development. No matter from which aspect, Chai Lu feels that she is not a good girl, not beautiful enough, not tall enough, not enthusiastic enough, not lively enough, not running fast enough, not solving math problems ... These negative comments make Chai Lu more and more sensitive, quietly closing her immature heart, leaving only a narrow gap to look around the world. Don't get close to others, and be suspicious of those who get close. But in the end, Chai Lu fell in love with someone. Secretly. The boy sat in front of Chai Lu, exchanged one or two letters with handsome fonts and secretly stuffed them into the desk drawer. Later, a beautiful girl liked him, so he said to Chai Lu, Let's be friends.
At that time, after school, boys usually hid their favorite girls' schoolbags to delay their time alone with her. When everyone left, they both went home together. Although the girl understood, she pretended to be angry, and then Jiao Jiao lost her temper, infinitely gentle and lovely. At that time, Chai Lu secretly hoped that his schoolbag would be hidden, but he never did. So Chai Lu had to go to the school library to read by himself until it closed. The janitor knocked on the lunch box and Chai Lu walked home again.
It is a pleasure for a person to walk across the playground, distinguish the lively and quiet dust with his sense of smell, look up at the sunset reflected by the clean glass window, bend his head and fiddle with a piece of flowers and plants wet by the faucet, leaving an empty campus, and Chai Lu has gained countless beautiful pictures, so Chai Lu writes poems and poems about beauty, because only poems deserve those beauties. Those remnants of the red sunset; Dust tilted against the light; Chai Lu's lonely bike in the carport; The big lock of the school gate; The clouds in the sky, Chai Lu often fantasizes that he is like this, as if everything in nature is related to Chai Lu. Everyone can read Chai Lu's mind and communicate with Chai Lu, and Chai Lu is a beautiful elf under Chai Lu's shell.
Chai Lu often cries, even for a dandelion floating in the air. At that time, Chai Lu was lonely and quiet, unnoticed. Hide in the corner.
There is only one thing that Chai Lu can stand on the cusp, and that is talking.
Oral English includes: contracting almost all the tasks of reading Chinese texts to everyone; Be able to recite the full text fluently before the English teacher teaches the new lesson; Tell a fairy tale to make girls wipe their tears and boys lock their brows; In the chorus competition, he took on the responsibility of narration many times; Gush in a speech; In the debate, angry words ... as long as they are related to words, Chai Lu seems to be a different person, from cowardice to confidence to glory. This is Chai Lu's only stage.
Fate's favor, dreams begin.
Until one afternoon in the second year of high school. The hand of fate opened a door in front of Chai Lu.
Chai Lu, who was attending a self-study class, was suddenly told to go to the Student Affairs Office. Along the way, Chai Lu dawdled, counting the shadows of the window bars, and moved to the office door step by step, but he didn't know what he had done wrong. He slammed the door and looked up and walked in. A young male teacher in a red jacket turned around (good-looking) and asked Chai Lu with a smile, "Is your name Chai Lu?" Chai Lu nodded blankly. He said, "Hello, my name is Chen Hao." Later, I learned that this male teacher named Chen Hao is not a teacher of our Chailu School, but a friend of a teacher of our Chailu School. When I passed by, I overheard the voice of Chai Lu reading poetry from the school loudspeaker. I wanted to meet the students who read poetry ... It was this teacher Chen who let Chai Lu know that there was a university called Beijing Broadcasting Institute thousands of miles away in Beijing, where every student was excellent, and every announcer of the news broadcast was a student there, Teacher Chen.
From then on, Mr. Chen really became Chai Lu's teacher. He gave Chai Lu his unfinished dream.
Chai Lu was just 16 years old, but Chai Lu knew what he was going to do in his life.
The memory of many exercises is blurred. One summer, one winter, another summer, another winter, Chai Lu is suffering from happiness because his progress is not great enough; Chai Lu enjoys the pain, and enjoys Chai Lu's right and happiness to communicate by voice and words.
There is a scene that Chai Lu can't forget. It was a snowy morning and it was still dark. Chai Lu goes to school by bike, and the snow on the road is half frozen. The thick ice was rolled into a creeping ice track, which was narrow at the top and wide at the bottom, and it was easy to fall down if you were not careful. The road is not dark, because the street lamp is on, and the dim and warm light is dizzy in circles. When passing through every street lamp, Chai Lu meditated once: "Chai Lu is going to be admitted to Guang Bei". After passing through a street lamp, Chai Lu meditated again. There are many street lamps along the way. Chai Lu has to watch it many times. I don't know how many times. ...