"Probably, the feeling of losing to yourself."

It has been nine months since the last public article.

A year ago, I was able to stick to the weekly shift. At that time, I was very happy Catch hot spots every day, learn other people's articles and occasionally listen to friends' voices. Life is beautiful.

Later, the club changed, the exam was cheated, and the pace of life was disrupted instantly. At this time, my friend asked me to bring pesticides into the pit, and I began to stop working. I haven't even finished my reading plan and fitness plan. Worst of all, I'm still in a dilemma I don't want to talk about, which has been bothering me ever since.

Until the fifteen days left on 20 17, I think I should do something and straighten out my life that has been disrupted for more than half a year.

Yesterday, the circle of friends was screened by the flash "I love you China" of the National People's Congress Statistics Institute. Many people say that this is what college students look like, and many people say that they are obviously students of the School of Statistics but sing the style of the Conservatory of Music.

I watched it many times and cried many times. During the dinner, when I saw the boy calmly directing them, it was like the anxiety and excitement when the senior of Peking University said that their chorus would be broadcast on the screen on1February 9 and walked into the recording studio of the building three years ago.

Yes, I tried to be one of them.

Later, my friend advised me to accept the reality that I am not good at hard work. I also told them in my heart that even in a second-rate university, I can be the most special one.

I started working out, reading and writing.

Everything seems to be going well.

But when you can't do everything to the extreme and get the desired result, we will have the idea of "forget it".

The article can't be written, forget it, anyway, nobody cares, it's not a big coffee, so many people write it.

Fitness has fallen into a platform period, forget it, it's not very fat. In the micro-fat circle for so many years, it doesn't affect anything, except that it can't fit every size occasionally.

Forget it. ...

I told myself that I am not a student in 985, 265, 438+065, 438+0, nor a student in a "double-class" university, and I am doomed to be less wonderful than their university life. My resume has only a lonely internship experience, and even winning an award on campus is ridiculous.

Until August, the director team of the same club went to Beijing to participate in the robot contest and won the first prize. I realized that excellent people will be excellent no matter where they are, because they have formed a mode of thinking and living, and they will not change their behavior mode for the change of life.

In the study group, I received an offer with an annual salary of 400 thousand, and I also have the right to choose; Every time the software tests another girl, she will be invited to participate and envy others; The marathon god who ran many cities also met the other half by accident.

We always think that people who are better than us are the darlings of fate, but if we look at their lives, they have already planned what to do at every time of the day and will not let themselves "forget it".

What they think is, if I want to do it, how much energy and time will it take?

So the difference between me and them is that I was urged to punch in at eleven o'clock in the evening. When the money was seized, their punching interface was 150 minutes of study time, and after the activity, I got a high bonus.

I went into the pit of pesticide.

I was going to start a new story about it, and by the way, I talked about the experience gained in the game, but on second thought, no matter how much experience is gained through meaningless things, it is particularly worthless.

At first, I had a good time, enhancing the feelings between friends and studying the idea of a game operation.

But the higher the level, the more knowledgeable players, even in the virtual environment of the game, there are advantages and disadvantages.

On the Zhihu, there is a game god who answers what if someone meets a teammate's pit?

"If the output, is it more than 25%? If so, restart the game. "

Many things in the canyon can be solved with common sense.

You can't play a hero well because you don't invest enough time and know enough.

Meet a teammate pit, because even if you invest energy and time, you will meet all kinds of people. In reality, your social circle is free to choose, and the game circle has no right to choose. Today you think he is a pit, and tomorrow you may be a pit in the eyes of others.

Sometimes we will encounter dirty tactics with poor experience in combat. We have two methods. The first is to see through and deal with it. The second is to learn it. But we don't recommend the second one, because it will give others a very bad game experience. Want to play a game, poor experience will lose some potential senior users.

Recently, Benwei Lu ate chicken with plug-ins and refused to admit his mistake. He was hit by the whole network and his popularity was low. In fact, it is because everyone's life pressure is too great that he uses games to decompress, and even the anchor uses plug-ins to attract attention. Naturally, someone can't stand it.

For games, we are the majority of their low-end users. For us, games are just a way to release pressure. Why waste time on games?

I just heard a senior brother say yesterday that it is meaningless that you did it and then there was no result. This is also a result, which is itself a meaning.

Playing games for 202 days, for me, has no result, even affected my life, and then let me finally realize my regret when summing up, which is probably the meaning of these days.

This summary will come to an end. Compared with the first half of the year, my life is full of powerlessness. Even though I wrote 10 1 life list with great interest, it didn't come true in the end.

In fact, I am you and you are me. We are both challenging the bottom line of our self-discipline, perhaps because we are not in a hurry to achieve that, or perhaps because we always feel that we can put it off. Anyway, in the end, we still did something so carelessly.

But treat your future with almost the same attitude, make do with it, and the future will definitely give you almost the same life.

I think it's changed, on the tail of 20 17.

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