My mother easily rushed into the society and became a primary school principal. I am also a preppie student in a women's normal school, totally educated by my mother. However, due to the limitations of the environment and the times, my mother's thoughts only enable me to find a job in the future, so that I will not suffer at home. One should do something for the society. As for myself, I am a completely lost child. I never had any ideas. I am satisfied with my environment and feel very smart. The headmaster, teachers and classmates all liked me, but then suddenly May 4th came. The May 4th thought at that time had no direct influence because of my age and knowledge, but it had a great influence on my future. I can't help but say that I became who I am today because of the May 4th Movement. In the year of the May 4th Movement, I was a preparatory student at Taoyuan Women's Teachers College. There was no social activity in this school before. But the wave of the May 4th Movement also hit this small city. Especially a small number of students in it, they immediately set up a student union to lead us to March, give speeches and shout slogans. We began to feel at a loss. Why are they so excited? I followed them and gradually came up with the idea: "I can't be a conquered person." At that time, they held a debate at school and discussed many women's issues and social issues. Teachers seldom sympathize with them, and most students agree with them. I admire my two classmates: Yang Daicheng and Wang Jianhong. It's a pity that I didn't stay with them because of my low class and young age, but I expressed my attitude whenever I had the chance. For example, once they talked about women's haircuts and had a heated argument with the teacher. We didn't applaud when the teachers spoke. As soon as Wang Jianhong spoke, we applauded. After the meeting, many people cut their braids, so I cut them without thinking. Cutting hair is too common now, which is a natural phenomenon, but it was a big event at that time. We are laughed at or scolded everywhere because we have no pigtails. Later, they started an evening school for the poor. See, I like activities. They asked me to teach abacus. When the students saw that I was not much taller than the table on the podium, they all called me "Mr. Zaizai". This group of students was my guiding light at that time. They aroused my dissatisfaction with society and instilled many question marks in me. Although they didn't give me a satisfactory answer, it gave me the idea of pursuing the truth. Later, I followed Wang Jianhong and Yang Daicheng to Shanghai, and they took me to many fields. We became very good friends, and Mr. Mao Dun talked about them in the biography of Ding Ling. Now let me remember Jian Hong, who died young, and pay tribute to Zhiyi, who lives in the south. My mother is in Changde. How she was influenced by the May 4th Movement is not clear to me. Anyway, when I came home during the summer vacation, my mother told me about the transfer. She thinks that if a person wants to do something for the society, he must first reform the society. How to reform society is a necessary knowledge today. Ordinary normal middle school curriculum can't solve this problem. She said that Changsha Nan Zhou Girls' Middle School has made great progress and has many new ideas. So my mother personally sent me to Changsha and entrusted me to one of her old classmates, Mr. Tao Siyong. A year and a half later, my mother asked me to go to Shanghai with Wang Jianhong. Based on this idea, she wants me to find a way to transform China society. Later, she embarked on this path herself, and she totally agreed with me. We are not just mother and daughter, we are comrades and bosom friends. Since then, I have left her for more than 20 years. She has never been bullied. She is eager for my career and supports me. My mother! How is your life now? We are blocked and isolated by reactionaries, and you are helpless, but you will fight and your vitality is strong. Today, there is a dawn of peace and democracy in China, and the road of China and my road have been clearly placed in front of the people of China. In the revolutionary history of more than 20 years, many martyrs died in front, and their blood and our struggle were not in vain. Mom! You are happy! I wish you a healthy life on earth. We will meet again in the near future. Mom! After entering Nan Zhou, fortunately, Mr. Chen Qiming, the Chinese teacher in our class, is the most progressive figure in the whole school. At that time, we regarded him as a sacred figure. He graduated from Hunan No.1 Normal School and was a classmate of the famous Comrade Mao Zedong in Hunan at that time. He subscribed to many magazines and newspapers outside. He circled those articles in red ink and showed them to us. If he doesn't understand, he will explain. Many articles in New Youth have become teaching materials. Most of our classmates don't pay much attention to other classes and are happy to talk about problems. Anti-feudalism became the main topic at that time. In this air, I naturally become more thoughtful, and I also have the courage to fight against all the old ethics. When I went home again, I first abolished those hypocritical and complicated manners and publicly denounced those corrupt lives, and then got my mother's help to dissolve my engagement. Everyone thinks I am a paranoid and blames my mother for her connivance, but how proud I am. Chen Qiming not only planted some seeds of social revolution for me ideologically, but also encouraged me to engage in literature. Before I entered Nan Zhou, when I was in primary school, I read many novels, but my composition was not very good. Because I write classical Chinese, sometimes I have to write four or six articles. Chen Qiming introduced me to read many new novels and poems. At that time, I read Hu Shi's articles and poems, his translated novels, Kang's poems, Qiu Jin's Autumn Rain, The Last Lesson and Two Fishermen, all of which were my favorites. Of course, the emotional appeal of the story, the writing of the Franco-Prussian War, and the feeling that France was about to die were all in line with our emotions at that time. So I learned to write, write poetry, write prose, and write a novel, two of which were published in Xiangjiang Daily, edited by Chen Qiming. Of course, these things are naive and have nothing to write about, but they have cultivated my interest in literature, so that when I hit a wall everywhere in society, I will think of writing my grievances with a pen, resisting China society and exposing the darkness of the ruling class. Until now, I still serve the people of China with this pen, and the encouragement given by Mr. Chen Qiming is useful. We feel very uncomfortable that Chen Qiming was fired because of his "radical" ideas. I went to a boys' middle school with some older classmates. At this time, because these students are older and more knowledgeable than me, everyone feels that they can't learn anything in this school, so they leave the school and prepare for self-study. As for me, I always feel that I want to pursue more distant and brighter places. It happened that Wang Jianhong came back from Shanghai. She told me that Chen Duxiu and Li Da were going to run a civilian girls' school in Shanghai, and she invited me to go with them. I was sponsored by my mother and went to Shanghai with full fantasies. Naturally, I didn't find a bright road at once. I turned around several times and hit many walls before I got on the right path. But from then on, I flew to a wider and freer world. I let go of myself, bravely soared into the sky, was knocked down, spread my wings and flew away, and the wind and waves swept me back. I tried to find the truth, and then I decided the direction and fell into reality. Although I didn't take part in the May 4th Movement and couldn't catch up with it, it influenced me. I am behind the May 4th movement, which shocked me and brought me to the front. 1946 was written for the youth of the times in May.