The answer is simple: the long-term goal is unclear.
V is a modest platform with a scale of about 10,000 people. To tell the truth, it's hard to come in as a freshman. These days, big Internet companies basically don't read 2 1 1 985 resumes. I left my last company and worked as a project specialist for more than a year. I am dissatisfied with my rank and my salary is reduced, but my experienced seniors, friends and predecessors all say that you are still young and the platform is the most important.
I think, maybe this is the only time in my life that I can change jobs without considering my salary.
Maybe you will ask, did I vote for V because I like V? I didn't. Worked in Shenzhen for more than a year. It is easy to find a small company, but I don't want to go. Big platform is my only pursuit, but this is the only offer I can get in this situation.
After joining the company, I found that many things were not as good as I expected. The title of the project specialist was changed from "Assistant Project Specialist" to "Assistant Project Manager". What I do is basically to be a secretary to the project manager, but there is no turning back when I start working. For more than a year, my only goal was to get promoted and get rid of the title of "assistant".
Of course, I'm lucky. I have met many helpful seniors (when in trouble) and three or two friends. More importantly, I didn't become the assistant of the actual project manager at work (because there is no project manager for a long time). I dominated almost all the work here. I worked hard and naturally got the performance reward of S. When I expected a steady promotion one year later, I was informed because I was an undergraduate and a graduate student.
I can't stand it! So get out.
Because of my desire, because I yearn to be intoxicated by money, I have the mentality of an online celebrity to pursue that virtual self.
I am not ugly. I don't care about being thrown in the crowd, but my facial features are well-proportioned. I don't want to be an online celebrity. It's hard for me to live by my face, but I still have to live by my strength. I didn't plan my life before I was 23. Yes, I didn't lie.
Before high school, there was little choice. High school is divided into arts and sciences. I don't understand physics. I got more than 50 points and went to study liberal arts. I didn't do well in the college entrance examination and want to repeat it. There is no problem between me and my father. I entered a school in this province and studied computer, so I was pushed to the university.
After graduating from college, I didn't have any preparation. I watched everyone go to the student union, so I went to the student union. Because I am introverted, I only do things silently. When I was a sophomore, some of my classmates who were with the Presidium of the Student Union said they would go abroad, while others said they would take the postgraduate entrance examination. So I became the executive chairman of the student union in a muddle, and later I went to the provincial student union as the resident executive chairman (it is said that I will be in the system in my life). Therefore, in order to increase the gold content of the work in the system, I went to Guizhou as a teaching teacher for one year (plus two years of service in the conference), but I was too lazy to take the postgraduate entrance examination and went directly to major, but these were useless in the end.
I have been thinking about what changed me, so that I stopped pursuing the iron rice bowl within the system and began to actively pursue something else.
The first point is the original bad wine culture within the system (before the implementation of the eight regulations). I was dragged to the school leaders countless times, holding a respect, and finally a person vomited to death. Every time I get drunk, I actually don't get taken care of. At that time, my boyfriend felt that the woman who went to the hostess every day was drunk and deserved it. My roommate gave me some care, but some school leaders didn't say much. Parents dare not even mention these things.
The second point is that I chose to go to Taiwan Province Province as an exchange student in my second year of graduate school, which cultivated my aesthetics. I tried to tear off the label of a small county, and I always thought it was a very correct thing: I began to learn to make up, dress and communicate with people at that time, and began to pay attention to cultivating my own temperament from a rustic village girl.
Third, I don't want to admit my bad emotional experience. To tell the truth, it gave me the courage to go out of Nanchang and the small circle of the school to come to Guangzhou and start to know and look forward to the cruel world outside. I tried to prove my ability, thinking that I could keep this relationship if I were a little better, but the result was still cruel. There are some reasons I really don't want to understand.
There is a saying that everyone you meet on the road will be branded in your bones and emitted from your manners. I began to accept my desires and walked out of my comfort zone again and again.
I am the kind of person whose advantages and disadvantages are very obvious.
The advantages are nothing more than diligence, hard work and meticulousness, which can basically make up for some problems caused by IQ, education and experience, and diligence can make up for them. It's true.
Disadvantages: First, laziness and lack of long-term vision are manifested in life and self-improvement. Just like losing weight, I cry out to lose weight every day, but I still can't get 100 Jin, because I can't stop eating and I can't stop when I'm hungry. I have done many things that I gave up, such as painting, taekwondo, yoga, tennis, IELTS, running, reading and so on. Three days fishing and two days drying the net.
The second shortcoming is that I can't stand being wronged. In recent years, I have had three very wronged experiences, which directly led to some choices in my life.
When I was in graduate school for the first time, I wrote a declaration for my tutor and sent it to her very early. She has never read it. The day before the manuscript was due, she asked me to go to her office to correct it. I can't finish it after dark. She opened a room directly in the school dormitory for me to correct. She sleeps in the bed. I'm revising the manuscript. It should be around 3 am. She said it was almost time. I lay down and slept for a while, and it was dawn. I cried after the exam. I cried when I called my parents. My grievance is that she didn't say she wanted to change before, but suddenly she said she wanted to change, and she was still sleeping. I was correcting the information at that time, and I obviously had an exam the next day.
The second grievance directly led me to quit my first job. I went to the company where the fresh graduates were, but my resume was transferred and I always wanted to do business before. My leader is very kind to me and gives me enough platform, space and money. Among the leaders I have contacted, this leader is irreplaceable. From internship to resignation for more than two years, I actually didn't see any business opportunities. Suddenly one day, the business girl in our group told me that she was leaving, and then a test MM switched to business. I felt particularly angry and wronged at that time. Afterwards, my leader said to help me make a decision directly. He felt that business was too condescending for me. But I didn't understand at the time. I think you should ask my opinion first. Who are you to help me decide what I want to do?
I'm still not sure if this decision is correct. I also believe that if I don't leave, I will have a good chance there and get in touch with the best resources that this platform can give me. But after I came out, I also saw that it was a broader thing, and people and things at a higher level also developed a skill because of single-handedly. When I wrote this article, I actually felt guilty for this leader. That's how I was detained at the beginning.
The third grievance is the direct cause of this resignation, which was also mentioned in the first part. The leader of this company is also very reserved, but he hardly gave anything practical during his time in the company, so he balanced the pros and cons.
This is a character defect that I really want to overcome. I know there is still a long way to go and I will encounter many unhappy things. I can't be so reckless and dominated by emotions, but there are many comprehensive factors. Leaving is not just a fuse.
The road ahead is difficult and dangerous. I hope I still have a naive and kind nature and a brave choice.