When I was young, youth was so warm, so unrestrained and so passionate. I was born in a scholarly family. My grandfather was an official of the former Qing Dynasty, and his family was well-off. In today's words, I am a real lady. When I was a child, my father taught me to read San Zi Jing and Hundred Family Names, and also taught me to write and draw. At that time, my father was a private school teacher and my mother took care of me at home. I went to a girls' school and advocated the idea of freedom and democracy. 1937, when I was eight years old, after the Lugouqiao Incident, all-round War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression broke out, and the frontline materials were in short supply. Father decided to sell all his possessions and support the front line in the war of resistance. Father often tells us that there is a country before there is a home. We will always support the country when it needs it. My father returned to my hometown with his family. After that, I went to school there My eldest brother and my second brother are older than me. One is 20 years old and the other is 18 years old. They joined the People's Liberation Army and devoted themselves to War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression. I wanted to go at that time, but the two brothers said, "Silly girl, you are only eight years old. You should study hard. It is useful and will serve the country in the future. " Big brother and second brother are also studying, so they decided to give up their studies and join the army. When Big Brother and Second Brother said to their father, "They are going to the front." The father said, "Good! All right! All right! My son has grown up, so a man should. Go, I will take care of my family and I support you. "
Two years later, at 1939, when I was studying in this city, I met Zhao Gang. Zhao Gang is my good friend. We were classmates and met at school. I often go back to his house to play. His father didn't know we were in contact. No one in the county knows that his father is a famous local tyrant and evil gentry. The wind blows on both sides. He is a snob. Now my family has left the city and returned to the countryside. His father looked down on our family and wouldn't let me associate with him, so I hardly saw Zhao Gang. I haven't seen him for a month since I returned to my hometown. I ran out of salt at home, so my father asked me to buy it in the city. I'd like to, because I can take this opportunity to see Zhao Gang. After I came to town to buy salt, I went to Zhao Gang's yard, where we often met. Zhao Gang asked me, "What have you been doing at home recently?" I told him in detail that when I said goodbye to Zhao Gang and was about to leave, I saw Zhao Gang's father hiding outside the door and eavesdropping on our conversation. Outside the door, I managed to squeeze out a smile and said, "Hello, uncle." Left his house.
Zhao Gang's father heard that my two brothers joined the anti-Japanese team, and he was not allowed to associate with me. Because Zhao Gang's father is timid, although the Japanese haven't hit our county yet, it is privately said that there have been Japanese spies in the county, which is the Japanese Chamber of Commerce in the county. Zhao Gang's father and Zhao Gang said, "Zhao Gang, Zhao Gang, don't you want to live? I want you to leave her at once. " Zhao Gang refused to live or die. Later, like a fool, Zhao Gang suddenly came to our hometown to find me. Zhao Gang said to me, "Let's elope and I'll take you away." I said to Zhao Gang, "Dude, what are you afraid of? We have done nothing shameful. This is our home. Where are we going? " I went on to say, "Besides, I'm only ten years old and I'm not with you? Are you going to elope with me? " Zhao Gang blushed because of me. Zhao Gang's father didn't disappoint. Zhao Gang's father reported our family to the Japanese Chamber of Commerce in the city, saying that our family had anti-Japanese thoughts. My parents and I were arrested that night. They kept asking us, "Where are the guerrillas outside the city?" We didn't say anything. They hung us up, beat us half to death, were raw, and finally asked nothing. I finally let it go. After all, the Japanese Chamber of Commerce did not dare to make a scene at that time, which affected their "face" in the city and showed their fangs.
After we were released, I went to Zhao Gang's house and explained everything to Zhao Gang. I broke up with Zhao Gang in front of Zhao Gang's father. I have never been to Zhao Gang since then. Zhao Gang's father is a real bad guy, but Zhao Gang's mother is a good guy. She is a doctor in a hospital in the city, saving lives, and often burns incense and worships Buddha in Admiralty Temple outside the city. When she sees beggars on the roadside, she will also give alms. Zhao Gang's mother heard that his father had done such an abomination and decided to leave Zhao Gang's father to stay with Zhao Gang. When Zhao Gang's father knew that they were leaving, he asked Tintin to hit his mother with a big stick. A few days ago, Zhao Gang's mother felt cold, and now she has been beaten again. Before long, Zhao Gang's mother died.
After handling his mother's funeral, Zhao Gang came to his father and said to him, "You and I will never be just again. From now on, I am no longer your son. I don't have a father like you. You go your way and I'll cross my wooden bridge. " Father scolded, Zhao Gang slammed the door, and Zhao Gang left the county overnight. Not long after, he wrote to me and said, "War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression is over. When you grow up, I want to marry you. Now I take refuge in my uncle. " Since then, Zhao Gang has never set foot in this county. I heard that after Zhao Gang left, Zhao Gang's father joined the Japanese Chamber of Commerce and became a lackey of Japan. By the end of the year, my father rented three rickshaws and took my mother and me to the city to buy new year's goods. But I never imagined that Zhao Gang's father came to the countryside with a group of people. A fire destroyed the house in my hometown, leaving only a barn, where we had to live. Zhao Gang's father had deep pockets. At that time, no one could accuse him. As for why I knew that Zhao Gang's father burned down our house, Zhao Gang told me later. How did Zhao Gang know? That's what his father told him before he died.
Before the house was not burned down, my hometown still had some savings. There is still time to read in the evening, and now the fire has burned out, and so has my box of books. I especially like reading when I am at school. Now, my father teaches me to study. My father is my private school teacher. With my father's efforts, I returned to the girls' school to study. My father teaches in the countryside. During the day, my father went to the village school to teach other people's children. In the evening, my father taught me to study. In order to make a living, my mother cultivates her own land during the day and weaves cotton at night. Knit clothes and sell them in the city. Although I don't make money, I can barely make a living. Mom's hands used to be smooth and delicate, but now they are full of calluses. At first, my mother could not weave and play cotton, but was taught by Huang Grandma in the country. Because my mother weaves and plays cotton day and night, she is sick and inconvenient for physical activities. My father forbade my mother to do any heavy work.
Five years later, 1944, I just turned fifteen. Big brother and second brother haven't written home yet. After going out, it seems that they haven't heard from each other, but our whole family knows that Big Brother and Second Brother are our pride. My father planned to send me to study in the provincial capital, but I gave up. I didn't go. Father hates iron and doesn't produce steel, so he slapped me. That was the first time my father hit me. I said to my father, "Now my mother has asthma, I will share your burden." From then on, I gave up my school years and took over my mother's job. I also knitted at home and played with cotton.
My skills in weaving and playing cotton were also taught by Huang Grandma. Huang Apo is kind-hearted, and it is not easy to meet a weak woman. Grandma Huang often asks her son Huang Liren to come to our house to help me with farm work. Huang Liren is a simple and honest man with a bodhisattva heart. I heard that he also went to school and read a little. It is not difficult to see that he is also eloquent and has a little culture. Huang Liren is also very kind to my parents. Slowly, after a long time, I developed feelings with Huang Liren, and finally we came together. I told my father the idea of marrying Huang Liren, and my father agreed. The father said, "Is this boy reliable and trustworthy?" 1945, I just turned sixteen and decided to marry Huang Liren. The wedding was simple, but I felt very happy.
Two years later, we had three sons, the eldest son Huang Renyi, the second son Huang Renai and the third son Huang Renzhong. They were born in the same year, triplets, but at different times. As a mother, I am glad to see three lively sons. I took pains to wash their diapers and put them to sleep. Three children love to toss and turn, and three children cry and make trouble. Every night, after the three children go to bed, I go to bed. In order to make a living, his father Huang Liren helps people cut wheat during the busy farming season and usually goes to the dock to move goods. Life has to go on, and I have parents to take care of. My mother fell down the stairs and got into a wheelchair. The wheelchair is made of wood by my father himself, a simple wheelchair. There are old people and young people in the world. In order to survive, my father and I have to work hard to make money and support our families. It's late at night, the children and their father have fallen asleep, and my loom is still creaking. One winter, the wind was cold, and my second son, Renyi, was injured and had a fever and cough. His father was busy outside, so he didn't come back, and there was nothing he could do because the road was blocked by heavy snow. I cook Chinese medicine and let his grandparents take care of Renyi. I went to the city and asked the doctor. It was snowing all over the sky, and it was so cold that my hands were cracked. I wrapped a headscarf and put on a long-worn cotton-padded coat. A man walked towards the county seat, and there was no carriage on the road. I walked from the path to the county seat and walked twenty kilometers. When I went out, I slipped accidentally and fell down, and my knee hurt, but I knew I had to hurry, or I would delay the treatment and lose my child. I groped all the way to the county seat and invited a doctor to treat Renyi. When I got home, I was frozen stiff. The burning of benevolence and righteousness, I hid in the corner and secretly shed tears. At that time, I was just 18 years old and forgot that I was still a child. I remember one year during the Spring Festival, the children told me, "They haven't eaten meat for a long time." I asked Liren to go to the city to buy meat. I made three fresh soups for the children, and I was very happy to watch the three children eat them with relish.
We grow vegetables in the open space outside the door. Every time we go to the market, Liren and I carry the burden over mountains and mountains. I picked cabbage, set up people to pick vegetables and radishes, and walked 20 kilometers to the county seat to sell them together. My feet are bleeding every time I go home. When the three children saw it, they always said, "Mom, take a rest." And I always smile and say to them, "Have you forgotten? The mother's strength is infinite, and this little injury is nothing. " Everyone in the village said, "Huang Liren is really lucky to find a good wife like me. She is hardworking and has no resentment. " I just laughed when I heard my neighbor say that. However, this reminds me of a sentence: "Women are weak, but mothers are just." My hand, once a pen-writing hand, is now a knitting hand and a pair of mother's hands. I have read books, and I know that good days need to be created with my own hands.
Two years later, I just turned 20. Unfortunately, it happened again. That day, dawn, Liren went out. But this move made me lose my life forever. I heard that Liren was crushed to death by the goods on the dock, and I cried my eyes out, unconscious. Three two-year-old children cried for their father that day. I told them, "Your father has gone out to work and will be back in a few years."
1949, New China was founded. When I heard the news on the village radio, I left tears of excitement. There is still a little good news. Big brother and second brother have also gone home. After a long separation, my mother in a wheelchair burst into tears when she saw her eldest brother and second brother. My eldest brother and my second brother told us about their military life and anti-Japanese war career. Say that finish, I gave them a thumbs-up sign. My eldest brother and my second brother said to me, "You have worked hard at home these years. You are only 20 years old, but you shoulder the heavy responsibility alone. " I wiped my tears and smiled and said to my eldest brother and second brother, "Nothing, the whole family is fine, eldest brother and second brother, you will always be the pride of the family." They heard that my husband Liren passed away and went to Liren's grave with me to sweep the grave.
New China was founded, and the big brother and the second brother came back. I am so happy that I seem to have forgotten all my previous pains. Life at home has been much better since Big Brother and Second Brother came back. Five years later, 1954, all my three children reached school age, and I sent them to school. That year, when I was 25 years old, a person appeared in my life and lit up my life again.
Zhao Gang appeared and Zhao Gang came back. He hasn't changed a bit. In recent years, he followed his uncle, crisscrossed the country and did business. He has grown into a big boy and still follows his uncle. He told me that he came back this time because his father died. I learned from Zhao Gang that his father burned down my house. Zhao Gang said to me, "I'm sorry, my father is sorry for your family. He didn't know how to repent until he died. " At some point, Zhao Gang shed tears.
Suddenly, Zhao Gang took my hand and said to me, "I came back this time for another purpose, to fulfill my original promise." I suddenly froze and asked in surprise, "What promise?" He went on to say, "Have you forgotten to believe this?" I suddenly remembered, and then jokingly said! "Are you crazy? Look over there, my three sons are still there! My husband died and I became a widow with three sons. " After hearing this, Zhao Gang walked up to my three sons and said, "Sons, dad is back." Three seven-year-old sons have been calling Zhao Gang "Dad, Dad!" Because I never told them that their father Huang Liren had passed away. At that time they didn't understand that their two-year-old son didn't even know what his father looked like.
Zhao Gang doesn't mind me taking three babies. He told my two brothers and parents privately that he wanted to marry me. With the persuasion of my parents and Zhao Gang's insistence, Zhao Gang and I finally got married. Two years later, I was 27 years old and we had two daughters. Zhao Gang did another thing that surprised me. He named his two daughters Ai and Hui. Zhao Gang said: "Children are all the same, all have the same surname, and all five children are their own flesh and blood." After listening to Zhao Gang's words, I said with tears: "I have no regrets when I met you."
Ten years later, the county set up a textile factory, and I went to the factory as a worker. Zhao Gang and I are together. My three sons all study well. I made them all choose military schools and become soldiers. My life is bumpy and lucky. I met Liren and Zhao Gang. I have five lovely children. They are the wealth of my life.
Now that I am ninety years old, life and death have long been looked down upon. I have no regrets when I see that my children are promising!