Early withered leaves are scattered all over the floor, and unfinished catkins are dancing gently. What was once familiar has finally become the past, and everything has become a memory, an eternal memory, like the sunset in the distant mountains, beautiful and clear, although it is about to die. In a trance, I suddenly realized that I had lost it for a long time. The past, blowing in the wind.
The night is heavy, but I wander in the lonely street. After the graduates left, the once bustling place became empty. After failing in the postgraduate entrance examination, I missed the opportunity to find a job. My girlfriend said goodbye to me after finding a job in a state-owned enterprise in the south, and suddenly found that all the misfortunes and pains were doomed to me. Many shops closed early, and the dim light of a stall on the corner came through. I strolled past, and it was a mutton kebab stall.
Boss, ten yuan of mutton kebabs and a dozen beers.
The night wind is bleak, a lonely moon, pale moonlight, under loneliness and melancholy, cups of golden liquid seep into my body, paralyzing my only remaining sobriety and fighting spirit, and I feel that everything in my body is sinking, deep and thorough. Until I completely lost consciousness.
The banging on the door woke me up, and the direct sunlight on my eyelids blinded me. I feel a splitting headache. The dormitory administrator outside has started shouting, it's the last day, so move out of the dormitory quickly, and the building will be closed! In a daze, I left the campus where I lived for four years with my luggage and wandered the streets in the early morning.
Young man, are you all right? Walking on the street corner, a voice sounded.
Last night, I saw the stall owner of the mutton stall, a shy little girl of about twenty years old.
Of course it's okay! I didn't say angrily, didn't you see that I was alive and well? It suddenly occurred to me that someone helped me into the dormitory last night. Is that her? I scratched my head, embarrassed to say that I drank too much last night. Did you send me back to the dormitory? Thank you very much. I saw Zhang Mingliang's smiling face.
I left in a hurry, so I have to solve the accommodation problem quickly. After settling down, I frequently go back and forth to various job fairs, but it seems that God is against me, and my resume is as silent as a mud cow. I missed an easy interview because I was late for the traffic jam! I can't sleep because of my bad mood and hot weather. I wandered in the long street, and unconsciously, it was the lights on the corner that attracted me.
Ah! You again. Haven't seen you for a long time.
I nodded slightly and shouted another dozen beers.
Drink so much again, don't get drunk like last time, it's not good for your health.
Although I was very upset, after all, people meant well, so I bowed my head and said in my heart, you are a Pacific policeman. Boss, another ten-dollar kebab. I shouted inarticulate. Stop drinking, you'll get drunk again. She advised softly. Drunk! I just want to get drunk, and the more drunk the better! If you get drunk and know a thousand worries, you're fucking drunk. I can't stop when the conversation starts. I don't remember what I said. Anyway, I dragged her to talk all night. With her later jokes, from Pangu to the Tang, Song, Yuan, Ming and Qing Dynasties, from the reform and opening up to the financial crisis, from the ups and downs of birth to the current depression. Astronomy, geography, history, philosophy and current affairs are all-encompassing.
In this way, I gradually got to know her. Once, I ate mutton kebabs at her house, and there were quite a few guests. Seeing her alone, I had an idea and said, why don't I help you? She smiled, how dare you! I can't afford a college student! Our own people, you're welcome. I said to start work, and I was busy until the early hours of the morning. There were fewer guests coming down, so I wiped my sweat, and then we sat down and had a rest. She pointed at my face and smiled. It turned out that charcoal black stained my face and turned it into a big face. Why don't I work for you and be my boss? I squinted at her and said. No, no, you are a college student. How can you kebab? Why not? There are also pork sellers in Peking University, and college students who started by shoeshine and collecting junk. Now they are all successful people. All right! As long as you don't dislike it, I'll recruit you as a coolie! Thank you, boss! I will be your man from now on. I smiled when I saw her blushing face.
Just do as you say. I didn't know how difficult it was until I entered this business. From carbon selection, material selection, seasoning, stringing, pickling, cooking, mastering the heat and even how to ignite the roasted carbon, it is all knowledge. Firstly, the white tendons of mutton, preferably leg of lamb, are removed and cut into thin slices with a thickness of 1cm and a length of about 3-4cm. Cut the onion into powder and put it into the mutton slices. Add a spoonful of spiced powder, a spoonful of fennel seeds, a spoonful of soy sauce, a spoonful of sugar, a proper amount of pepper noodles, pepper noodles and salt, mix well, cover the mixed mutton with plastic wrap, marinate for one night, and take it out halfway. Brush a layer of cooking oil on the bamboo stick in advance, shake off the seasoning on the surface of the pickled mutton and put it on the stick carefully. Pay attention to fat collocation. She talks like a monk chanting. I can't help but admire that she is really an expert. It's a loss not to be selected as an academician of China Kebab Research Institute.
She stamped her foot, which is really glib. Start work quickly, or our boss will deduct your salary. Yes, madam! As the stall is not set until after six o'clock in the evening, I always come back from the job fair to help her put on airs and help her. The unhappiness and fatigue, loss and loneliness of the day all vanished in the busyness and laughter with her. She gets up at six o'clock every morning to buy materials and closes at one o'clock at night, but the smile on her face never disappears every day. A confident and satisfied smile, a good expectation for life and a full smile are the best lights in my dark night.
After two weeks of busy work, I found an ideal job. She patted me on the shoulder when I showed her the application form excitedly. Congratulations! Comrade Qin, not bad. Seeing her satisfied expression, I smiled happily. Come on, it's my treat today
This is a kind of ease when the dust settles, full of ambition and passion. Before leaving, I gently took her hand and said, boss, I will go to work tomorrow, and I can't work with you in the future. Really, thank you very much. Then I looked at her face deeply and saw that her smile slowly froze and became embarrassed. It's over, I find I seem to be in love with you, my boss's wife! I am serious. I saw her blush. She broke free from my hand and ran away in a hurry.
When I was sitting in the towering office building, overlooking the distant green hills and endless crowds at my feet, I suddenly missed the days when I was with her. I was ecstatic to see a string of mutton skewers coming out of the oven and clapping my hands to celebrate my bulging wallet after closing. I was always infected by her bright smile, although it was hard and fulfilling. When I miss him again and again, I got on the bus to this city on Saturday. I want to tell her that I don't miss her. I want to be kind to her all my life, and I want to marry her. When I rushed to her booth, I saw a strange face.
I suddenly have a bad feeling that I will miss her life. When I arrived at the railway station, I only saw the straight rails extending in the distance. I think our future life is like this extended railway track, always parallel and without intersection.
Under the door, I saw the words she left me.
Shao Feng, I'm leaving. Waiting for you at the gate of your dormitory, I really want to see you again, but I vaguely feel that maybe it is better not to see you. I had a very happy time with you. Although it appeared when you were down and out, I still envy you, because going to college is my dream. Originally, we didn't meet in life, but fortunately, I met you and saw my dream. I really like listening to your talk, watching your unbridled laughter, watching your crazy kebabs, and watching your white hair covered in charcoal ash. You will have your own career, your own love, your own life, and our appearance is an episode of each other. Forget me. I'm really glad to see your ambitious appearance. Mother is seriously ill and needs me to go back and take care of her. The money I saved is enough for my brother's tuition. Goodbye!
Tears welled up from my eyes, and I only felt bitter.
When I wander between life and work in a suit and tie, when my stiff smile shuttles between colleagues, when a piece of sunshine shines into the gap of the window eaves, when the smell of coffee comes to my nose, I will often think of that face, that bright smile, that past gone with the wind, although it feels a little far away.