Secondly, you should make it clear that what you do has nothing to do with your relatives and friends. As long as you work legally, don't cheat or steal, there's nothing shameful. You should improve your psychological quality and be calm.
Finally, nine times out of ten people who have face in your eyes now have a past that you now think is "faceless".
As long as you work hard, you won't be ashamed. It is impossible to say that you have no money now and want to show that you are tall. Externally, unless you win the first prize, you can pack it, but it is also empty. The most important thing is your inner quality.
Remember one sentence: Only after suffering can you be a master.