One of my classmates, from freshman to senior, spent four years playing games or watching martial arts in the dormitory except for exams and classroom meetings. Nobody in the university is in charge anyway. Later, he was dismissed from the college because he failed too many courses. My parents came to ask for an extension, but it was useless. I didn't graduate until senior three. Another student was also dismissed because the game failed too much. His mother came to the college, knelt in front of the college leader and said, "I'm eating leftovers at home for him to study." Please give him a chance! " At that time, I was shocked to hear the leaders of the college talk about such a thing. Parents eat lettuce leaves for their children to play games in the city? You're begging for a chance? Give him a chance to continue the game? They all said they felt sorry for their parents. I think of my hardworking parents, and I think of millions of parents who send their children to college. They all think that children should study hard in college, work hard to earn money, and selflessly support their children to go to school, so that they can relieve their worries and not worry about their lives. I wonder how many people are there in the Dance Academy on campus today? In the words of one of my classmates in xidian university, if his mother comes to college for a week, she will definitely let him drop out of school and go back. Because going to college in China is probably the most relaxing and enjoyable time in my life. Everyone can play games, watch TV, skip classes and write martial arts novels, which is the whole life of many college boys. Where are the girls? Watching Korean dramas, the main learning content of many female college students is to watch Korean dramas and other series and emotional dramas, one after another. Can you imagine that this is my university? It's a pity that all this is true, and it happened in a famous and key university like Wuhan University. These people are the pride of their families and the envy of many students when they are admitted to college, but why are their behaviors so puzzling when they are in their prime? I didn't even know it at that time. Of course, not all students muddle along like this. There are still many people in the university who are still studying hard, but they are also confused: the main reason for their hard work is fear and pressure: fear of not finding a good job and not being admitted to graduate school. Everyone has heard that it is difficult to find a job. Many graduates can't find jobs and dare not indulge themselves every year. But few students study hard because they pursue wisdom and truth and study for the country and the people. Although these hard-working students don't have a dance academy, they live in a state of severe depression, and their thinking is often slow, and they slowly embark on a stupid doctoral path ridiculed by college students. In fact, college students who commit suicide every year are often not bad students who don't study hard, but good students who are seriously depressed and study hard. Like them, they have encountered many unsolvable puzzles since they entered the university, and they have also been instilled with some so-called correct development directions. They are just willing to obey the conclusions of these authorities and study with self-repression rather than inner call. Is this really better than playing games and watching DVDs? What is the purpose of university study? Why did college students lose their ideals?

The teacher's job should be to preach and teach students, but some teachers send their graduate students to class without seeing them several times a semester. Later, I learned that they were all busy with their own projects and topics. When I was a freshman, our communication engineering major had a doctoral supervisor in physics. The students' evaluation is this: I also have a doctoral supervisor. What have I achieved? Speak in a fog and often don't come to class. . The textbooks selected by universities are puzzling. Obviously, there are good national textbooks, such as advanced mathematics in Tongji Fifth Edition, but it is difficult and obscure to choose the textbooks compiled by our own school. Even multiple-choice questions are one of the postgraduate exams over the years. Maybe the teacher who arranges the textbooks wants us to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination in advance? Later, I learned that the reason why the school chose this self-made textbook was because the teacher had to evaluate the professional title. If scientific research results are needed, they will compile some teaching materials to complete the task. They will use their teaching rights to send them to college students for classes. It is said that the teacher is also very poor. They have to complete the so-called scientific research achievements every year, write papers and publish books to complete their tasks, or they may be demoted. Some teachers can't afford to spend their own money to find publications to publish articles. It is easy to understand that students can buy textbooks without spending money.

In the career of college students, there are few inspiring voices except requiring students to study professionally. More importantly, the lack of courses to guide college students' life development and orientation can make them understand why they study and why they live. My major is electronic information science. Like many students, I have worked hard in compulsory public courses such as advanced mathematics, but I am confused outside my daily professional study. I don't know if this major is suitable for me. I don't know what this major means. I don't know what is the social development direction and mainstream of this major. I don't know what kind of talents are needed for the purpose of this major training. I don't know how to study in college, let alone where the future is. How can I realize my dream step by step? I have met many college students, and the same is true. They know little about their chosen major. In fact, I don't think teachers know what these majors are going to do at all. Later, I learned that university administrators can easily attract students just by looking at the professional name, so I changed my name. See what major is popular, so that you can find a job. Just start a major as soon as possible, and make some courses to fool people. Many students choose their major only for the convenience of employment, but when they really want to position themselves, they fall into professional thinking and cannot extricate themselves. Most people just study a hot major for a job, but forget to pay attention to their hobbies, even the cultivation of comprehensive ability and ideal thinking.

"University Reconstruction" made me begin to understand the origin and significance of universities, that is, universities should be the conscience and ideological engine of a society, and universities should cultivate students with justice, courage and wisdom for this society. After entering the society, they can gradually improve the bad things in this society, promote social development, and constantly devote themselves to the transformation of human material society and the exploration and promotion of spiritual civilization such as science, art and literature. I heard some exciting voices and seemed to catch something, but my heart was still wandering, my direction was unclear, my ideal seemed to be getting farther and farther away, and I didn't know how to start. At the same time, why is our university like this? Why do so many students lack mental thinking and teachers' guidance? Apart from occasionally hearing some exciting inner voices in some lectures, why do teachers in universities feel that they are just muddling along after class, bored and without content, and then leave? Why do university teachers never discuss life wisdom with their students? Why do so many college students turn a blind eye to this? I don't know these problems, and I have encountered more confusion on the road of being a student cadre myself.

When I was a freshman, I joined the news department of the Student Union, then became a minister, and spent an unforgettable time with a group of like-minded friends. In my sophomore year, I successfully ran for deputy secretary of the Youth League Committee and a member of the Presidium of the Student Union. However, after half a year, I resolutely resigned from this glamorous position. You may be surprised. Don't I have a dream of being a prime minister? Why did you quit? Is this the right way to be an official? When I first started as a student union department, I just held the idea of broadening my horizons and exercising myself. When I became a minister, I began to think about the role of what I did outside of work. What valuable things can you do to serve your classmates? College students have many questions to guide and help, just as I have many puzzles to answer in my heart. Can students solve it by doing so many activities?

No, since I joined the student union, I have been running with my camera in various activities, such as class meetings, sports meetings, literary competitions and so on. At first, I was very excited because my life was full and my activities were really colorful.

But slowly, my heart began to understand. I found that these activities were organized, held, wonderful and laughing, but without more wisdom and enlightenment. This seems to be just a record of political achievements. Those college students who play games continue to play games, and my inner confusion about ideals has not been answered in these activities. So I began to think, why should I spend a lot of energy and energy to organize these formal activities, instead of paying attention to the practical problems of students and doing what students and universities should really do? At that time, I was the head of the news department of the student union. When I was facing a transition, I thought about quitting. My heart has vaguely told me that this place is not suitable for me. But the hazy dream in my heart makes me think: If I have higher status and more power, if I can lead the Youth League Committee and the Student Union, can I do something really meaningful and valuable? You can also take this opportunity to exercise yourself and clear your direction. Many student cadres have embarked on the road of politics step by step in this way. So I began to strive to improve myself: relying on my relatively good strength and the trust of teachers, I successfully ran for the deputy secretary of the Youth League Committee of the College, which may be the highest-ranking official among the students.

My heart is full of energy, and I want to do something that really helps students. But when I really got to this position, I realized how naive I was: all kinds of activities are beyond our arrangement, and we just follow the established procedures and contents arranged by the teacher above, and it is almost impossible to change their formal functions; The teachers of the college have their own arrangements, and the leaders of the Youth League Committee have their own ideas. Everything must achieve one goal: the activities should be wonderful and the forms should be diverse! But no one thinks about the practical significance of this activity. I find that I have no personal autonomy. I have to face more boring meetings and organize many meaningless activities. Most of these meetings and activities have no effect on serving students or realizing my ideals, and there is no way to solve the current situation of my addiction to online games and lack of spiritual outlook. Even lost the time and space for thinking and learning.

I don't understand in my heart: why can't we solve all kinds of problems that actually exist among students? Why not persuade and guide them when they are addicted to the internet and games, or even take some tough measures? Do we have to wait for them to be expelled from school after class? What's more, after dealing with some student cadres in other colleges, I found that many student cadres in the university student union are top students in the game university, but they have become student cadres because they have a good relationship with counselors and teachers and help teachers manage students. Where can such student cadres lead students? At the same time, these people seem to be confident that they are an elite group, and everyone feels good. Student cadres began to have a lot of meals to pull into each other's relationship, drinking and even smoking. The so-called "smoking a cigarette to clear the way" is the first time I heard it from the president of the student union. I am very confused. Is this an aspiring young man studying in a university? Is this an elite group leading the country's future? Is our country short of such talents?

When faced with this situation, my heart began to suffer: I could choose to do my best as if nothing had happened, and I have done it anyway. After a year or two, I will have various excellent honors and research opportunities, and I can embark on the road of politics through this platform. However, I also began to understand that no matter how high my status and power are in the future, I can't realize my ideal. I am opposed to a huge, degenerate group system that only cares about material interests and benefits for myself. If I want to be a prime minister or other positions with decision-making power, I must get along with them, otherwise I will be kicked out of the system early. But do I really want this? What if I spend all my precious time on something that doesn't work at all and get some so-called honors and benefits? How should I continue the road after that? Is this my ideal?

After deep thinking, I resolutely applied for resignation after serving for half a year. At that time, the teachers in the college were very surprised at my actions. After clearly expressing my determination to resign, I kindly proposed that I could exist in name only, so that I could have a chance to study in my senior year. I don't want to take advantage of this. Tell the teacher that since we are leaving, there is no need to call the roll. My heart doesn't like this.

Therefore, I am glad to get rid of a lot of boring student work and return to a free day without meetings and activities I can't understand. Read books, attend classes, and listen to the weekend art park of Wuhan University, so that the mind can grow freely. I tried to redefine my ideal because I found that politics didn't seem to suit me. There are two options left. One is that everyone is very enthusiastic, and it is also a very traditional way of saving the country through industry. I can help our country become an economic power, and I can also help myself become an economic hero. Another way to become a millionaire is to sit on the bench and study: take the postgraduate entrance examination, study abroad and become a scholar. I admire the economist Mr. Lin Yifu. As a warm-blooded young man and an officer in Taiwan Province Province, he defected to the mainland because he opposed the political corruption of the Chiang family dynasty. Of course, in the party, government and army system of our country, he can enjoy the treatment of being a righteous man and get promoted quickly. But at that time, he went to Taiwan Province Province, absolutely not for seeking material benefits, but for his passion and ideal. I think he later left the political circle and embarked on the road of scholars. Does he, like me, find that China's politics can't solve the ideal of serving the people, so he wants to learn knowledge and become a scholar? Otherwise, if the purpose of his defection was just to learn, Taiwan Province Province had better conditions at that time and must have concealed something. He has now become one of the best scholars in the world economy and was nominated for the Nobel Prize in Economics.

Which way is more meaningful and valuable? I try to read a lot, think hard, and find all kinds of clues and facts to help me decide and solve all the puzzles in my heart.

Thirdly, when I go to college, I find that studying in college is also a dead end.

Can I really concentrate on learning? Like Lin Yifu? Through continuous reading and thinking, I have learned more about the university, and I begin to understand why this once quiet ivory tower, full of the pursuit of wisdom, is becoming more and more strange. The impetuous atmosphere of commercial profit-seeking pervades the whole campus. The connection between academics and business and the abnormal evaluation of teachers' professional titles make more and more teachers busy with their own projects and papers and have no time to pay attention to teaching. Because of papers and projects, there will be titles and money, houses, cars and various reputations. How can such a teacher have time to preach and explain? But now the university campus, are basically such teachers. Because the ideal teacher is doomed to be eliminated by reality. Other schools don't know, but Yi Zhongtian, which is famous all over the country, was excluded from Xiamen University because of her unique personality and unwilling to be vulgar. Later, Zhao Lin, a philosophy professor who was admired by the students and one of the four famous mouths of Wu Da University, also left Wu Da University, causing a sensation among the students. Later, it is said that after seeing the boiling public opinion, the headmaster insisted on retaining Mr. Zhao Lin and reluctantly stayed. However, the fundamental problem has not been solved, because recently I heard that Deng Xiaomang, a famous philosophy professor who focuses on learning, is going to South China University of Technology. A liberal arts professor wants to leave a prestigious school with a long history, and would rather work in an engineering university. What happened to Wu Da? Is Luojiashan still a place to study? Professor Shang Zhongsheng, one of the four famous professors, also said that many talented teachers who stayed with him in the early days left Wuhan University. Many people left university and academia. Really in China, the road to learning is the same as the road to being an official. Is it an unfeasible dream road? China is big enough to put a quiet desk? I explore the possibility of pursuing the road of learning in fear and trembling. It is increasingly found that real learning has no place at all in the so-called famous universities.