Under the background of modern society, the word "honest man" has rarely been used to express appreciation for someone. This word is often used to implicitly say that this person is soft-tempered and disappointing. Therefore, many people who are labeled as honest people often have some inexplicable malice and will be bullied because others are not pleasing to the eye.
But if anyone really thinks that honest people are easy to mess with, he is all wet. Since ancient times, there has been such a case: an honest man who usually looks at the end of his life, because the long-term accumulated negative emotions broke through the psychological defense, and eventually broke out and led to tragedy. In ancient times, two ruffian cows bullied Yang Zhi to sell knives, and finally proved with their own lives that Bao Dao "killed people without seeing blood"; Today, there is another story that Ma Jiajue killed four people in anger and then ran away.
The event to be told today is similar to the situation in Ma Jiajue. Lin Senhao, a gifted scholar of Fudan University, came to this metropolis with greater inferiority because of his ordinary family. Under the long-term psychological internal friction of inferiority and resistance to inferiority, personality is gradually distorted. In the end, because of my roommate's ridicule, I chose to go to the road of no return and poisoned my roommate with chemicals.
I believe many people will have questions. What happened after Lin Senhao was admitted to Fudan University, which turned this honest student who had been studying hard into a murderer with blood on his hands? What is the gap between him and his roommate that led him to murder each other in such a cruel way as poisoning?
Come with me. Let's start flashbacks from Lin Senhao's boyhood, looking for clues that led him to choose extremes.
Born in an ordinary family, Lin Senhao was born in an ordinary worker's family in Shantou City, Guangdong Province. He is the second child in this family.
In the next few years, the family ushered in several new lives, and Lin Senhao also had younger brothers and sisters. Lin Senhao's parents have five children, and it is not easy to support them. Fortunately, children are very sensible, and older children begin to share the pressure of their parents when they grow up.
Lin Senhao grew up in such an environment. When he was a child, he was despised and bullied by his classmates at school, but he chose to endure it silently.
He believes that only by working hard and studying hard can he and his family get rid of poverty and be looked down upon.
Because of him, the Lins' family is not very good, but they have a good reputation in the neighborhood. God helps those who help themselves. At school, Lin Senhao was among the best in almost every exam and became what many parents call "other people's children".
Facing the college entrance examination, Lin Senhao also handed over an answer that delighted everyone: he was admitted to Sun Yat-sen University, one of the top universities in China, with a score of more than 780 points.
Lin Senhao's admission to Sun Yat-sen University basically indicates that the Lins can improve their family environment and get rid of the shackles of poverty in the future. But Lin Senhao has not taken it lightly, and the burden on him is still very heavy. Therefore, during his undergraduate course, he still maintained his hard work style, hoping to go further.
On 20 10, Lin Senhao successfully walked the graduate students of Fudan university, especially the popular doctor of medicine. This is undoubtedly great good news for Lin Senhao, and it is also news that he can finally breathe a sigh of relief: Fudan University, as a first-class university, has a bright future for doctoral talents and a generally high salary level. At the same time, he is studying medicine, which makes his treatment after graduation far exceed that of ordinary people.
After entering Fudan, Lin Senhao still belongs to the most dazzling group, even among the heroes. Lin Senhao has demonstrated outstanding ability in both academic and student affairs.
Eight papers at the level of core journals were published in the postgraduate stage, and the first authors of five of them were all him.
You know, being able to publish papers in core journals as the first author is an absolute affirmation of your ability. And Lin Senhao's performance makes him qualified to be classified as "rare".
While busy with academic work, Lin Senhao also served as the vice president of the Student Union. You know, most people can basically choose between their studies and student affairs. If you take care of them forcibly, you will only be too busy to get results at both ends. But Lin Senhao has achieved a good balance. This further shows the extraordinary features of this child from an ordinary family.
But even God has his weaknesses. What's more, Lin Senhao is just a mortal. Under his dazzling achievements, what is hidden is his inferiority complex and sensitive heart.
After being admitted to Fudan University, he thought the future was bright and came to Shanghai to feel inferior. Although Lin Senhao was admitted to Fudan University, his future was destined to be bright and open, when he came to Shanghai, a metropolis known as the "Magic Capital", he still deeply felt his inferiority caused by his smallness and birth.
Of course, Lin Senhao knows the harm that negative emotions will bring to him, and he has been fighting against it. His efforts in academic and student affairs are not only to prove his ability, but also to hint at his confrontation with inferiority complex.
But inferiority is like a snake waiting for an opportunity in the dark. It always takes a bite when people least expect it. Although Lin Senhao has made amazing achievements for her classmates, she still can't shake off the shadow of inferiority.
No matter when classmates get together, when everyone plays in other places, they share their experiences and insights, or when they hang out in the street after school, they all make Lin Senhao feel that there is still a big gap between himself and others.
The inferiority complex caused by this common environment of family background is almost hard to eliminate by our own efforts. In this way, Lin Senhao fell into the self-friction of inferiority, self-confidence and even conceit.
Unfortunately, his classmates, his friends and his mentor didn't find that the rural child had been struggling in his heart. This also leads to Lin Senhao's loneliness, although he still seems to be gregarious.
His roommate Ge Qijun later recalled that Lin Senhao looked simple and good, but the conditions at home were not very good. He privately revealed that he would use part of his money to support his younger brothers and sisters who are going to school.
In this way, Lin Senhao, while suffering from his inner pain, also assumed the responsibility he should bear for his eldest brother. He has no place to vent these emotions, but let these negative energies grow in his heart.
At the same time, the strong personality born from a small family does not allow him to show his fragile side to others, so he can only bear it silently. And when he can't stand it, it's also the moment when he will finally break out.
If his roommate can give him a hand and enlighten his inner tangled pressure and pain, then the subsequent tragedy may not happen. But fate always likes to play tricks on mortals for fun. The arrival of a new roommate, not only failed to become an opportunity for Lin Senhao to get rid of his mental predicament, but made him step by step into the abyss of depravity.
After the arrival of new roommates, the gap between them gradually deepened. At first, Huang Yang was not Lin Senhao's roommate. 20 1 1 I moved here by myself in early August. At that time, Lin Senhao's original two roommates moved to other places, and the school adjusted the postgraduate dormitory. Huang Yang moved to their dormitory because he didn't like the noise on the original floor.
The family situation in Huang Yang is similar to that in Lin Senhao. His father used to work in a state-owned enterprise, but later he lost his job because of the arrival of the laid-off tide, so he went to a middle school as a dormitory administrator.
His mother is one of the important reasons why he chose to study medicine: she suffers from hepatolithiasis, which often leads to abdominal pain, high fever and other symptoms, and is an extremely tormenting disease. Huang Yang didn't want to see her mother suffer from illness, so she chose to study medicine.
However, although the family conditions of Lin Senhao and Huang Yang are almost the same, their personalities and styles are quite different. Lin Senhao usually belongs to the reticent type. Although the results are very high and belong to the top level, they are not so arrogant and treat people relatively peacefully. Anyone who asks him for help will help a little.
Huang Yang belongs to a more flamboyant temper. Perhaps because he is an only child, Huang Yang will be more independent and powerful than Lin Senhao.
Sometimes I am proud of my academic achievements and my ability to handle certain things, and I don't care much about other people's feelings in the process of interacting with others. I just want to say what I want to say, and I don't care much about what others think.
According to their roommate Ge, when Huang moved to their dormitory, he asked Ge to pay the electricity bill alone because he thought the small refrigerator he brought was too expensive. However, Ge Qijun doesn't care about these details because his family conditions are not bad.
At ordinary times, Lin Senhao and Huang Yang are also very different. When roommates chat, they usually have different emphases. For example, when communicating with Ge, they tend to talk about their hobbies and discuss their favorite girls and stars. At the same time, Huang Yang will also pay attention to some social and livelihood issues, which shows that he is a person who attaches great importance to fairness.
In contrast, Lin Senhao emphasized a lot of academics, and most of the conversations with him involved medical professional content, such as the operation process of a certain technology, the points that should be paid attention to in research, and so on.
Two people with completely different attributes were arranged by fate. Such a combination often ends in a tragedy, or even a tragedy, because of the complementary personalities and successful mutual assistance, or because two people can't get together. Unfortunately, what happened to Lin Senhao and Huang Yang belongs to the latter.
After a period of getting along, the difference between Lin Senhao and her roommate, especially Huang Yang, becomes more and more obvious. Huang Yang's parents will send him some delicious snacks from time to time, and Ge Qijun will sometimes bring some fruits from home to share with his roommates. But Lin Senhao never brought anything to share in the dormitory, which made his roommate have a strange feeling towards him.
Huang Yang often jokingly pointed out that Lin Senhao's family conditions were not good. Because Lin Senhao has to subsidize the family, she can pinch and scrape at ordinary times, and she is a little stingy in Huang Yang's eyes. When Huang Yang discussed his graduation trip with another roommate, his words revealed his disgust at Lin Senhao's stingy behavior.
This is actually a common occurrence for Lin Senhao. After all, since she was a teenager, Lin Senhao has been living in an environment where her peers laughed at her.
But now he has become a top graduate student in Fudan University, and his academic achievements are no less than that of Huang Yang, and even far more than that of Huang Yang. He also has his own self-esteem and pride in his heart. As a result, Lin Senhao became more sensitive than before and could not tolerate being laughed at by others.
Huang Yang's behavior is tantamount to opening Lin Senhao's inner scar. Lin Senhao has always wanted to prove that he is no worse than others through his own efforts, and also wanted others to look at him from now on.
But Huang Yang's disgust and jokes remind Lin Senhao again and again that he is just a poor child of an ordinary family.
The gap between the two people is also slowly developing. Sometimes Huang Yang plays jokes on Lin Senhao, and Lin Senhao won't even talk to him. Perhaps this is Lin Senhao's way of expressing unhappiness, and his roommate Ge Qijun understands.
Maybe Huang Yang just thinks that this bookworm, who is usually reticent and only pays attention to academics, doesn't understand the interest of life, and just plays some kind jokes with him to help him become extroverted. But did he ever know that everything he said happened to be a sharp sword that pierced Lin Senhao's heart?
I work so hard to make you ignore my background and face up to my success, but you still have to use joking words to uncover my scars, so that I have been struggling with inferiority and realize my smallness and backwardness again and again. Then when my negative emotions erupt, you will be the first to bear the brunt.
Lin Senhao fell into the abyss step by step, and now he is even more silent. His roommate also thinks that he just pays more attention to his studies and doesn't take this change to heart.
At this time, Huang Yang didn't know that an April Fool's joke would make Lin Senhao choose to poison himself.
April Fool's joke killed him. According to Lin Senhao's own account, on Saturday, March 30th, 20 13, he was playing games in the dormitory that night, with two other students. Huang Yang came later. He put forward an idea as soon as he arrived. He said that April Fool's Day was coming, so he had the idea of playing tricks on people who wanted to have a try. Then Lin Senhao and the three of them told a joke that soaking feet with hot water would make people wet the bed, and then they patted the boy next to Lin Senhao on the shoulder.
Huang Yang's original intention is only to enliven the atmosphere. After all, he is a person who likes to make life full of fun. But I didn't know his behavior was so dazzling in Lin Senhao's eyes.
Lin Senhao later recalled the scene and felt that Huang Yang's triumphant appearance made him look unhappy. Aren't you trying to lie to others? Then I'll take care of you first
Lin Senhao remembers that in an experiment he had done before, a drug was very toxic, but if a small dose was added, it would not cause too much toxicity. So Lin Senhao decided to use this medicine to cheat Huang Yang.
So the next day, Lin Senhao took the opportunity of volunteering in his classmate's lab and stole some medicine from the lab, and this medicine is dimethylnitrosamine.
Dimethyl nitrosamine is a highly toxic chemical. If a person accidentally ingests more than a certain dose of dimethylnitrosamine, he will be greeted by acute liver injury, decreased platelet content in blood and systemic bleeding, and finally die in pain.
After stealing the medicine, Lin Senhao looked for an opportunity to poison Huang Yang. It is too obvious to pour it directly into the cup where he drinks water, because dimethyl nitramine is an oily yellow liquid.
At this point, Lin Senhao thought that Huang Yang would draw water from the water dispenser in the dormitory when he drank water, and another roommate also drew water from the water dispenser, but he had gone home and would not be exposed to it again.
So Lin Senhao added dimethyl nitramine to the bucket of the water dispenser, waiting for Huang Yang to get water to drink.
1 At eight o'clock in the morning in April, Huang Yang took a sip of water, but maybe he sensed something was wrong and suddenly spit out a part.
After that, Huang Yang went to the library for self-study. During the period, I vomited many times and felt unwell. I went to Zhongshan Hospital for examination. But there is nothing wrong with the test results.
Huang Yang later asked a friend to accompany him to see a doctor. When his friend arrived, he was having an infusion in the hospital. During the period, he also said that the bucket of water in the dormitory may have gone bad for too long, reminding them not to drink it.
After the blood transfusion, Huang Yang's physical condition has not improved, and she has been resting in the dormitory. Until the afternoon of the 2nd, accompanied by his classmates, he found that his liver function was damaged and his platelet content dropped to an abnormal level. The doctor decided to let him be hospitalized for observation.
But it all happened so fast. On the second day of hospitalization, Huang Yang's condition deteriorated sharply, and he was quickly transferred to the intensive care unit. Although doctors tried their best to rescue Huang Yang, Huang Yang finally died on April 16 because he didn't know the cause of Huang Yang and the harm caused by dimethyl nitramine was irreversible.
This matter quickly caught the attention of the police. Lin Senhao's roommate, Ge Qi Jun, remembers that Lin Senhao used a reagent that was very harmful to the liver in the previous experiment, and provided this clue to the personnel who tested the articles that Huang Yang had touched, so the police quickly noticed Lin Senhao.
After investigation and on-the-spot investigation, it was found that Lin Senhao was suspected of committing a major crime, so he was summoned. During the trial, Lin Senhao confessed the whole process of poisoning.
Once the case was published, public opinion was in an uproar for a time, and it was another case in which roommates hurt each other. Lin Senhao's classmates and tutors were also surprised. They never imagined that this good student, who usually seems to be taciturn and only thinks about his studies, would be so cruel to his roommate.
Teachers and students jointly plead for him, but killing people requires paying for their lives. When more details are exposed, when Lin Senhao tells about his mental journey in recent years, his classmates and tutors have very complicated views on him. In their hearts, they not only hate the murderer, but also sympathize with him who has been fighting against inferiority.
They recalled some contact experiences with this classmate who was usually frugal, devoted to academic research and even reached the level of obsession: although a little dull, he would actively help his classmates do scientific research; During the Wenchuan earthquake, even if his family was in poor condition and needed his support, he saved money and donated to 800 yuan.
Finally, everyone agreed that although his act of poisoning Huang Yang was outrageous, it was not irreversible. He didn't deliberately and maliciously deprive others of their lives, but because the negative emotions in his heart accumulated too much, which exceeded the limit that he could bear alone, he did such evil deeds.
So after Lin Senhao was sentenced to death in the first instance, Fudan 177 teachers and students jointly wrote to the Shanghai Higher People's Court, hoping that the court would not sentence Lin Senhao to death, give him a chance to live, let him turn over a new leaf, take care of his parents instead of Huang Yang, and make amends.
But since ancient times, killing people for their lives is well known, and Lin Senhao did deliberately poison them. Therefore, the court rejected the defendant's appeal and resolutely upheld the first-instance judgment.
In fact, Lin Senhao's behavior should be sentenced to death. If Lin Senhao wakes up after being poisoned, surrenders himself in the initial examination, and tells the hospital the characteristics and treatment methods of the poisoned drugs, then Huang Yang may only suffer rather than die.
Even if he is arrested, he will not die. But he didn't do it. He just watched Huang Yang's vitality lose a little, and finally he died painfully.
Lin Senhao certainly has his regrets. There is too much pressure on him at home, so he can only work hard. Ordinary birth environment makes his already sensitive heart more vulnerable to external stimuli;
Huang Yang's outspoken and occasional jokes became the last straw to crush him. But after all, he committed murder, so he must pay the corresponding price for his crime.
Being born in an ordinary or even poor family is not his original sin, nor is he a born criminal. He poisoned his roommate only because he fell into mental internal friction with his own personality shortcomings-inferiority, sensitivity and fragility-and eventually collapsed. I hope we can all learn from him, learn to release our negative emotions reasonably and become better ourselves.