The next morning, I went to the living room to make coffee. When I was about to go back to my room to do the problem, I suddenly found a white sock hanging on the eaves of the living room table, and the other one fell to the ground. I picked it up and shook the dust off it. A dark blue Adi logo reminded me that it was left by Yusen. Holding Yusen's socks, I stood there, not knowing what I was thinking. If it was someone else's, I would be too dirty to even touch it, but now, I am holding the socks that Yusen took off last night but I don't want to let go. My brain stopped moving and I went to the swimming pool. The cool water is frothy, and the socks are dazzling white in the water. It's the first time I volunteered to wash socks for others, and it's men's socks. I serve others almost devoutly! I began to wonder, what the hell is going on? Am I gay? When Tian Yusen came back late, I sat in the living room watching TV. He sat down next to me, opened two bottles of beer and gave me one. I am very happy that we started chatting all over the world. He doesn't look at me because of what I call Excellence. "Oh … Yusen," I suddenly thought of socks and felt a little embarrassed. "I have washed the socks you wore yesterday." Yusen stared at me. My heart is pounding: "I thought it was mine, but I found it was yours after washing it." I'm really sorry. ""Oh, thank you. "Yusen said casually, obviously remembering something." You remind me of my ex-girlfriend. "Yusen forgot the ceiling with his eyes and said slowly," It was my family that made me the past me. With a lot of money, I am in a daze all day. I lived with her in high school. I have always been a male chauvinist. She washes all my clothes. She loves me wholeheartedly, but I don't know how to cherish it. Until one day, we quarreled, and she said angrily, from now on, I will wash my own clothes. I was so angry that I drank and took off my socks and forced her to wash them. She didn't wash, so I gave her a good beating. Finally, she washed her socks with tears and rushed out the door with blood in her mouth, and then we parted ... "There was something in his eyes." Later, I was admitted to Wuhan University, and She Yusen shook her head. "Never." Yusen looked up with tears in his eyes. "Lan, I finally found someone to talk to. Do you know how fucking painful it is to stay in my heart? " Yusen was a little excited, and I quickly said, "I understand, I am single, too." "You?" Yusen some don't believe, "high flyers, a handsome boy from a famous university, is single? ! "If suicide can be relieved, since then, our relationship has become close. He is very dependent. I usually take care of him, cook for him and even wash his clothes. He regards me as his big brother and trusts me very much. I later learned from my friend that he would actually do all these things. He was lazy and pretended not to do it. I should be angry, but I don't care. On the contrary, I thought I was happy to work for him. If I am in a bad mood or don't come back on time, I will feel uncomfortable. I finally know that I am in love with Yusen. I think hard and can't get rid of it. I think I have fallen into a country where I can't see crime. Yusen flirts with me on his mobile phone from time to time and asks me to marry him as his wife. I have been cursing him on the surface, and only I know how sweet I am. I want to get rid of my demons, but he is also very kind to me. When I was lonely, he gave me a birthday that I almost forgot, but I was in pain. I can't affect his normal happiness. He has a new girlfriend, and I even know that his ex-girlfriend has come back from Shanghai. I feel lost. What should I do? I am going crazy, but I can't say anything to him. I want to commit suicide, but I've committed suicide before, and finally I woke up to see myself and my sad parents sticking tubes from head to toe. In order to solve this problem, I got up the courage to enter a famous gay bar in Wuhan. I want to see the difference. I found that many of them are very feminine and frivolous among acquaintances. I believe I am healthier than them. I am brave, tall and handsome. I can lead many boys to charge on the court. But my heart hangs on him gently.