Before going to college, my brothers and sisters all said that college is a very training place, and college life is very colorful and fleeting, so we should make good use of it.
Three years ago, I stepped into the university campus with excitement and expectation. But after going to college, you will find that everything is not so beautiful.
I still remember when I was a freshman, my brother and sister told me that college is not the state where you used to study hard. You should actively integrate into the group, show yourself and exercise yourself.
But my freshman life was terrible from the start. Maybe I'm usually introverted and inarticulate. When I ran for the class committee, I got up the courage and prepared for a long time, but I lost in the first round. It seems that I still have no self-confidence and can't learn other people's "flying souls".
Next, I am actively preparing to join various student unions and youth league committees with my sister in the dormitory. At that time, I was blind, and I didn't know what to join, so I reported it to the Youth League Committee Organization Department and the Ministry of Recreation and Entertainment with the people in the dormitory.
Then we'll wait for the result. The other three girls in our dormitory all received the notification messages from two departments, but I didn't. I thought my mobile phone was broken, and the people in the dormitory told me not to worry, and so on. I still didn't receive it the next day.
I understand that it's not my mobile phone, it's my personal problem, it's my ability, and I gradually have doubts about myself. I am bored in the dormitory except during class.
I also began to pay no attention to my appearance. I just read novels and eat snacks all day, and my weight has reached an unprecedented height. I also began to feel inferior, unwilling to communicate with others and participate in class activities.
I stay up late reading novels every day and feel sleepy in class. What the teacher says basically goes in one ear and out the other. Exams are basically cramming and doing cheat sheets, and even the library rarely goes in. The final grades are basically passing, just passing, and English has just passed Level 3.
After leaving the campus, I found a job with a professional counterpart. During the interview, the personnel of the company asked me many questions related to my major. Most of my answers are faltering and some are speechless.
Seeing the interviewer shake his head, I feel particularly sad and hate myself. I regret that I didn't study my professional knowledge well, which made me feel useless.
After four years in college, I regret wasting time most. I wanted to change myself and get a scholarship, but I was defeated by my lazy self. I didn't have the courage and perseverance to change myself and beat myself.