Like you, I'm still worried about the make-up exam in math. I can understand how you feel. To be honest, you don't have to worry that college grades don't mean anything. I don't think you should give up getting a scholarship. Why do you feel inferior to others? I think you may be lazy. You didn't go to class or skip class. Even if it is not a hint in the college exam, others may have grasped the key point of review. Now you are under pressure, but as long as you get through this stage, you will get better. Don't give up the scholarship, because the scholarship is not entirely academic performance, right? Come on next semester, and you will be fine. Really, don't give up the scholarship, you will find a lot of gains.