Like Meng Zikun, Zhao Tianyu divorced his parents when he was a child. In his words, a dignified girl suddenly stood on the table like crazy, waving a clothesline in her hand, and her grandmother looked at the woman on the table with a kitchen knife, surrounded by people. Zhao Tianyu was only two years old at that time.
Later, my mother went to Shenzhen, and Xiao Tianyu carried a schoolbag, which contained her mother's favorite food, and flew from Wuhan to Shenzhen alone. Every year.
Later, my mother had her own family, and Xiao Tianyu grew up slowly. He can't go to her mother's place any more, and he can only meet her when she is at work. At other times, a person disguised as a different identity shuttles through the streets of Shenzhen.
When the host asked, would you cry when you saw your mother? Zhao Tianyu said no with a cold face. Because you cry, mom will cry. This is a happy thing. Why did you make it so sad? Hold on, don't let yourself cry. At a young age, he has learned to take responsibility that should not be borne by him.
In fact, in Wuhan, his life is not easy.
Grandpa goes to work, grandma plays mahjong, and a pot of mung bean soup costs five yuan a day. He must plan to finish three meals. If you don't have enough to eat, you will go to your relatives' house to eat, and you will learn the skill of eating with one hand.
When asked, how did you rub it? He said with a smile, selling cute. Who can understand the sadness in that smile?
When he was young, in order to eat enough, he learned to read and write early.
When he grew up, five yuan was not enough to meet his needs, so he began to work hard. Work while going to school. Because of his young age, he can only do the hardest and most tiring work, handing out leaflets, washing dishes and doing odd jobs ... He said with a smile that it used to be quite white, but in summer he handed out leaflets in the sun and got a tan. When washing dishes, although I wear gloves, I still feel the oil seeping into the gloves, and the smell is disgusting.
But none of this made him fall. What really made him tremble was that he found life so fragile.
When he was a teenager, he established a community, and he was the founder. It's a club, but it's actually for brothers. Once, a brother provoked people in society, hit him with a crack in the corner of his eye, lost his tooth and was covered in blood. These teenagers who were just tinkering around the edges panicked and didn't know what to do. They disinfected him with beer, and the blood was more than that. ...
For the first time, let Zhao Tianyu realize the helplessness of life.
He simply said that he was afraid of heights, but once he opened the window on the fourth floor of the rental house and sat in it, he wanted to jump. At this time, Hua Chenyu's "It's Time to Kill" is playing on the mobile phone radio. Suddenly, he felt he should come back and cry. In this way, he gave up the idea of suicide.
Do you have that feeling, a person, drinking wine, rolling in bed, uncomfortable and helpless, trying to get rid of this life, but powerless, just like Zhao Tianyu.
Someone once asked him, what are your plans in the future? He said, I have no plan. I only plan what I will do tomorrow. As long as there is food to eat. Because he thinks it is the easiest thing to live in this world.
Even when the host asked him to recall his bloody past, he finished with a smile, as if it didn't happen to him. The more light the wind is, the more distressing it is.
Zhao Tianyu said that everyone has a well on his head. Taking part in this competition just makes him feel that the well on his head is a little bigger.
Just like his label-outsider, he looks at the materialistic society as an outsider.