The crime he was accused of was so cruel and his desire to cause pain to others was so strong that I began to question the view that people should not end their lives under any circumstances.
I realized that the one-sided pacifism I advocated before might have the opposite effect on me, and worse, my son might suffer. I have no choice but to conclude that for our survival, I must make sure to take the best choice.
I hooked my finger on the trigger and finally pulled the trigger, accepting the fact that I killed the intruder. I am glad that I am not a victim.