I know Pan because I saw Painting the Soul starring Michelle monique Rice, and Li was as plain as ever and as beautiful as ever. Before that, Pan was played by Gong Li, who was also a rare beauty. This formed the initial impression of Pan: a beautiful but ill-fated female painter.
Later, when I saw Pan's self-portrait, I couldn't help being surprised. Pan in the painting is tall, with regular facial features, and is not beautiful at all. With all due respect: not only not beautiful, but also a little ugly. I felt that there was something wrong with my aesthetics, so I looked up some information out of curiosity. As a result, the materials show that many people who have met Pan herself say that she is not good-looking at all. According to people who know her well, Pan is a short and fat ugly woman with a lion's nose and thick lips.
The real Pan Yuan is better than the amazingly beautiful Pan in the film and television drama. No one can deny that appearance is a natural passport for women. People who are not good-looking are always sadder. This increased my curiosity about Pan Yuliang. With what power did a completely unattractive woman complete the triple jump from prostitute to concubine to painter?
Pan's Life has been written into a ready-made screenplay, so it is no wonder that directors like shooting her story so much.
She was originally surnamed Chen, but her parents died when she was a child, so she had to live with her uncle. My uncle lost a bet once, so she was only 13 years old and was sold to a brothel in Wuhu, Anhui. It's not her fault that she was helpless, but it was later taken as a reason to attack her by people with ulterior motives.
Because she is not picky, she works as a fire girl in a brothel, doing rough and tiring work. The lady also forced her to meet the guests. She refused to give up, escaped from the brothel again and again, and was arrested and beaten again and again. In the middle, she tried diving to hang herself, but all failed because of strict supervision.
17 years old, desperate, she sang in a brothel, and her voice was like tears, which attracted a person's attention, that is, Pan Zanhua, the salt policy of Wuhu. Pan Zanhua studied at Waseda University in Japan. He is a new character. He was moved by the poor and strong woman in front of him and decided to atone for her.
Even from the present point of view, Pan Zanhua is an open-minded, affectionate and righteous good man. From ancient times to the present, there are many heroes who have saved the dust, but they have all saved beautiful people. Only Pan Zanhua helped a little girl who was not beautiful at all, and she had a big temper. Pan Yuliang's great beauty image undoubtedly weakened Pan Zanhua's personality charm.
Pan Zanhua's help to Xiao is mainly out of sympathy, purely righteous and selfless. He wanted to send her back to her relatives, but she offered to stay with him, even if it was a close-fitting little girl.
With his mind, he naturally wouldn't let her be a little girl, so he took her as a concubine. He is very kind to her. Although I married a concubine, I also held a formal wedding ceremony. The witness is his best friend, the famous Chen Duxiu.
He didn't want her to repay him before marrying her; After marrying her, he tried to take care of her. He personally taught her to read and invited a teacher to teach her to draw. He didn't look down on her at all, knowing that she had suffered too much, so he pitied her doubly.
It is because of this kindness that Pan has been deeply moved by Pan Zanhua. She resolutely changed her surname to Pan and gave her her own surname first, because he not only gave her marriage, but also gave her a chance to be born again. A man who has never read any books and started to learn painting in his teens has shown amazing painting talent under the guidance of his teacher.
According to the development of old novels, Pan Zanhua's marriage to Pan should be gentle, respectful and frugal. But she just doesn't want to be a docile concubine. She wants to paint! Instead of drawing a few strokes at home to amuse myself, I went out to study and paint everywhere. First, I was admitted to Shanghai Academy of Fine Arts, and then I went across the ocean to Paris.
Painting is enough. Lu Xiaoman paints, Pan Su paints, and even Song Meiling paints some Chinese paintings. They paint only as a means to cultivate their feelings, and most of them paint elegant flowers, birds and mountains. Pan painted a human body without painting. She was a naked woman, which was a great blow to the world at that time.
When Pan Xue painted, the government didn't allow people to paint nude, so she secretly painted in the bathroom, and once she was almost beaten out by a big fat woman. When she got home, she looked in the mirror and suddenly thought, am I not a good model myself? Thinking of this, she took off her clothes and began to draw herself in the mirror.
In addition to painting the human body, she is also informal in words and deeds. When my classmates and I went out to sketch, Pan peed in the wall of Leifeng Tower. At this time, a group of male students came over and the students quickly called Pan out. Pan Yuliang squatted inside and said, who is afraid of them? Do they care if I pee?
On another occasion, we discussed the gossip about a poetess's companionship with dogs and her intersection with male dogs. Pan bluntly said: male dogs are better than people, at least male dogs will not reveal people's privacy.
When a person is independent, it is easy to become a target of public criticism. Someone dug up the erotic history of Pan Dang's child prostitute, and a female classmate even asked to drop out of school and vowed not to go to school with prostitutes.
Only Pan Zanhua supported and tolerated her as always. After learning of her predicament, she took out money to support her to study in France.
Pan was admitted to the National Academy of Fine Arts in Lyon, France, and studied under Xu Beihong, specializing in oil painting. After studying abroad for nearly nine years, she returned to China. Once, she was indeed a professor at the Academy of Fine Arts run by teacher Liu Haisu and classmate Xu Beihong. She published picture books and held exhibitions. Even so, people have not stopped attacking and slandering her. In an art exhibition held by her, an excellent human movement-artificial human was exhibited. One day, someone posted a note that read: A prostitute's ode to her customers.
I always feel that people who have had so-called stains still have a sense of superiority in their bones, as if because of tolerance, those people can get rid of stains and get a new life. However, Pan Yuliang doesn't seem to think it is a stain in a brothel at all. She rightfully painted the human body, rightfully became a professor, rightfully held an art exhibition, and did not flinch at all, which angered the mainstream of society at that time.
Even Pan Zanhua's first wife couldn't stand it, so she came to Shanghai to call her home and announced with dignity: Don't think that being a professor outside can be an equal with me. In this family, I will always be big and you will always be small!
Since the sinister and cramped environment can't accommodate her, let's go to a farther and bigger place without rumors. 1937, 42-year-old Pan left home again, and Pan Zanhua still sent her to Huangpu River pier. He gave his lover a pocket watch from Cai E as a parting souvenir. She waited for 40 years until she died of old age and never returned to China.
During these 40 years, she and Pan Zanhua have been facing each other across the bank and have never interrupted contact. Pan Zanhua often sends her rice paper, and also entrusts people to bring her domestic goods. At one time, Pan especially wanted to return to China. Pan Zanhua wrote a letter suggesting that the domestic storm is unstable and it is not suitable for returning to China. If she insists on returning to China, it is estimated that she will not escape the ups and downs of that era.
It's hard to walk in the distance, and the sound of geese is in a foreign land. He knows that the dew will be frost tonight, and how bright the moonlight is at home! This is a poem written by Pan to Pan Zanhua many years later. At that time, China and France had not established diplomatic relations. Two years after Pan Zanhua's death, Pan Cai learned the news of his death from the population of the embassy and was heartbroken.
In that case, why doesn't Pan go back to China? I think it's not that she doesn't love Pan Zanhua, but that she loves painting more. She is not the kind of woman who can love with her life, but can paint with her life. She insisted on staying in Paris because the open and inclusive environment here is more suitable for her creation. There are rumors that she and Xu Beihong have different creative ideas. At that time, Xu Beihong was an authority figure in China, and she didn't want to go back to China to listen to him.
When he was in Paris, Pan called himself "three women": no love, no foreign nationality and no attachment to gallery auctions. She stayed in the small attic all day, absorbed in painting. Due to poor management, she lived a hard life and was in poor health, so that she lived on a little welfare in her later years.
She is old and looks worse than when she was young. Some people say that she doesn't even have to wear makeup when she sings Peking Opera. A female friend went to visit her. She stood in front of the window in a coat and greeted her. She looked like a gorilla to people.
Then a second man appeared in her life. His name is Wang Shouyi. As an international student, he went to France to work and study in his early years and opened a Chinese restaurant. Wang Shouyi, with a low education level, vowed to use the money she earned to support artists among overseas students. He has always supported Pan Yuliang. When Pan is free, he will also go to his restaurant to sing a Beijing opera.
It was this man who gave Pan the only warmth in a foreign country. He not only takes care of her in life, but also helps her to contact the art dealer and take care of her paintings. Up to now, thousands of Pan Yuliang's paintings we have seen have been shipped back to China from France at great cost and effort. To this end, Pan Wei made a sculpture and put it in her bedroom until her death.
For Pan, a Pan Zanhua and a person who stepped over her. Pan Zanhua created her, and Wang Shouyi guarded her. As a woman, Pan was unfortunately born in an ugly world. Fortunately, she got a warm boat to send her on one journey after another.
Pan Yisheng claimed to be Pan Zanhua's concubine, although she lived with him in the later period. After wandering in a foreign land for 40 years, Pan died of poverty and disease. Before she died, she gave Wang Shouyi, who was standing beside her, three last words: First, put on a cheongsam after her death, because she came from China; 2. Give the necklace of her wedding photo with Pan Zanhua and the pocket watch that Pan Zanhua gave her as parting gifts to Pan's descendants; Third, we must bring her works back to the motherland.
Wang Shouyi lived up to expectations and made every effort to realize her last wish. Shortly after her death, he also died of a serious illness, and his friends buried him in Pan's grave. After their death, these two strangers can finally resist the loneliness of wandering outside.
Compared with the romantic stories in movies, Pan's real life always reveals a bleak and bitter feeling. Many people mentioned the most famous female painter in the Republic of China and felt sorry for her. From a secular point of view, she was a typical loser, without beauty, friends, money and finally lost her health. For most of the rest of her life, she was haunted by the words poverty and disease.
And all this is just because she loves painting. If she didn't choose to paint, or her painting style was not so bold, she could have stayed at home, lived under the wings of her lover and lived a stable life. If she could do it all over again, would she still choose?
It was not until I read Mao Mu's The Moon and Sixpence that I realized that Pan and Strickland were the same person. Strickland used to be a securities broker with a happy family and a stable life, but one day he suddenly abandoned his wife and children and ran away from home, and finally exiled himself to an island in the Pacific Ocean. Asked why he wants to live a good life, he replied: I want to paint, just like a drowning person has to struggle.
People who are hit by dreams actually have no choice, such as Strickland and Pan Yuliang. She has to face her dream step by step, even if it is accompanied by bad luck, even if she gets nothing. As a woman, Pan has experienced too many misfortunes; As an artist, she was lucky. She discovered her talent and put it to the extreme. No matter how displaced she is, poverty and illness are all part of her willingness to bear. In the career she pursued all her life, she has been on the upward path.
There are more than 4,000 paintings left, and the number of works she painted before her death far exceeds this number. In the days when she was separated from her lover, in the small attic in Paris and in the war of World War II, she devoted herself to painting every day and integrated her life into the human body and flowers in front of her. What she paints most is all kinds of female bodies. These women's bodies are full to the extreme, as strong as Mother Earth, as beautiful as herself, but full of vitality, as if to come out of the paper generate.
In 20xx, Pan Painting Exhibition was held in Hangzhou with the theme of "The other shore". I feel like a metaphor for Pan's life: this shore is a real life, with ups and downs, but with earthly happiness; On the other side is the holy land of art, soaring beyond the dust, but lonely and cold. Those of us who can't reach the other shore can only look at her from a distance and sigh: the top of the mountain is too cold!
Being beautiful is an advantage, and living beautifully is a skill.
Only those who can stand on their own feet can enjoy leisure.
Life is like a waterfall, a thrilling moment, and then a dull future.
Heaven rewards diligence. Maybe if you pay, there is no return, and if you don't pay, there is no return.
Life is full of pain, and we are lucky to have been here.
Everyone will be tired, and no one can bear all the sadness and fatigue for you, so people always have to learn to grow up for a while.
Dreaming is just a kind of intelligence, and realizing dreams is a kind of ability.
The more you care about others, the less you care about yourself.
The most important thing in the world is not where we are but where we are going.
All great actions and thoughts have an ordinary beginning.
Reality is this shore, success is the other shore, and there is a swift river in the middle. Interest is a bridge over the river. You can cross it as long as you act.
The faster you run, the greater the resistance of the wind. Resistance is closely related to achievement.
Time tells you what aging is, and memory tells you what innocence is. Don't dwell on past memories. Yesterday's sun cannot dry today's clothes.
If I don't, I have to, I have to, I will.
If you really choose to do something, then the whole world will help you.
Once a teacher, always a father.
When you are happy, you should think that this happiness is not eternal. When you are in pain, you should think that this pain is not eternal.
The lamp of life is lit by enthusiasm, and the boat of life is moved forward by hard work.
Being beautiful is an advantage, and living beautifully is a skill.
If you have the courage to start, you will have the pride of success.
Anyone who is timid for a moment may let go of the sweet bait that luck extends to him at this moment.
QQ Mood Quotations: People, it is better to be beautiful than to live beautifully.
1, do you think the sourest feeling is jealousy? No, the sourest feeling is that you have no right to be jealous.
2. When the pain comes, don't always ask "Why me?" Because you didn't ask this question when happiness came.
There are two tragedies in life: one is not getting what you want, and the other is getting what you don't want.
4, people, it is better to live beautifully than to grow beautifully!
5, the same bottle of drinks, convenience stores sell 3 yuan, five-star hotels sell 60 yuan, many times, a person's value depends on the location.
6. Everyone is "primitive" at birth. Sadly, many people have gradually become "pirates".
7. When most people care about whether you fly high or not, only a few people care about whether you are tired or not. This is friendship.
8, like a person, very happy together; To love someone is to want to be together even if you are unhappy.
9. If you can't bear it, you can bear it again.
10, there is always a gap between ideal and reality. Fortunately, there is still a gap. Otherwise, who wants ideals?
1 1. Not every "sorry" can be exchanged for "it doesn't matter".
12, life is like a cup of tea, it won't be bitter for a lifetime, but it will always be bitter for a while.
13, God decides who your relatives are. Fortunately, it leaves room for you to choose your friends.
14. A friend is someone who sees through you but still likes you.
15, anyone can be vicious, as long as you have tried jealousy.
16. Love is like sand in your hand. The tighter you hold it, the faster it will be lost.
17, let the future come and let the past pass. (Classic Quotations)
18, beauty can only provide eyes for others, but it may not bring happiness.
19, people are tired because they can't put down their shelves, tear off their faces and solve the plot.
20. Nonsense is the first sentence in interpersonal relationship.
2 1, Taiwan Province province, your mother's 60th birthday! Tell you to go home for dinner!
22. The man was away on business and suddenly went home early. He heard the man snoring at the door. The man walked away silently and sent a text message to his wife: divorce! Three years after the divorce, his ex-wife said to him: It's Rising's little lion!
23. If handsome can be a meal, then my handsome can feed 654.38+03 billion people.
24. The fat man got a girlfriend and broke up in less than a week. When a friend asked why, the fat man said, "She said ... she was tired of watching me for a long time ..."
25. What is the worst job? Is to do something he doesn't like. What is worse than the worst? I want to work all my life!
26. Looking at beautiful women in the street is appreciation if you look up, and hooligans if you look down.
27. If the heart has no place to live, it will wander around.
28. The biggest sorrow in life is not that you can't get anything, nor that you lose anything, but that you don't know what you want at all.
If you see a shadow in front of you, don't be afraid, it's because there is sunshine behind you.
Don't always tell me the story of 2B society as an ordinary person! Why can't Baidu search you again? No matter how tough you are, you can't hold your urine, can you?
It is better to be beautiful than to live beautifully.
1, do you think the sourest feeling is jealousy? No, the sourest feeling is that you have no right to be jealous.
2. When the pain comes, don't always ask "Why me?" Because you didn't ask this question when happiness came.
There are two tragedies in life: one is not getting what you want, and the other is getting what you don't want.
4, people, it is better to live beautifully than to grow beautifully!
5, the same bottle of drinks, convenience stores sell 3 yuan, five-star hotels sell 60 yuan, many times, a person's value depends on the location.
6. Everyone is "primitive" at birth. Sadly, many people have gradually become "pirates".
7. When most people care about whether you fly high or not, only a few people care about whether you are tired or not. This is friendship.
8, like a person, very happy together; To love someone is to want to be together even if you are unhappy.
9. If you can't bear it, you can bear it again.
10, there is always a gap between ideal and reality. Fortunately, there is still a gap. Otherwise, who wants ideals?
1 1. Not every "sorry" can be exchanged for "it doesn't matter".
12, life is like a cup of tea, it won't be bitter for a lifetime, but it will always be bitter for a while.
13, God decides who your relatives are. Fortunately, it leaves room for you to choose your friends.
14. A friend is someone who sees through you but still likes you.
15, anyone can be vicious, as long as you have tried jealousy.
16. Love is like sand in your hand. The tighter you hold it, the faster it will be lost.
18, beauty can only provide eyes for others, but it may not bring happiness.
19, people are tired because they can't put down their shelves, tear off their faces and solve the plot.
20. Nonsense is the first sentence in interpersonal relationship.
2 1, Taiwan Province province, your mother's 60th birthday! Tell you to go home for dinner!
22. The man was away on business and suddenly went home early. He heard the man snoring at the door. The man walked away silently and sent a text message to his wife: divorce! Three years after the divorce, his ex-wife said to him: It's Rising's little lion!
23. If handsome can be a meal, then my handsome can feed 654.38+03 billion people.
24. The fat man got a girlfriend and broke up in less than a week. When a friend asked why, the fat man said, "She said ... she was tired of watching me for a long time ..."
25. What is the worst job? Is to do something he doesn't like. What is worse than the worst? I want to work all my life!
26. Looking at beautiful women in the street is appreciation if you look up, and hooligans if you look down.
27. If the heart has no place to live, it will wander around.
28. The biggest sorrow in life is not that you can't get anything, nor that you lose anything, but that you don't know what you want at all.
If you see a shadow in front of you, don't be afraid, it's because there is sunshine behind you.
Don't always tell me the story of 2B society as an ordinary person! Why can't Baidu search you again? No matter how tough you are, you can't hold your urine, can you?