At the moment, I'm lying in bed, I don't know what to do tomorrow, and I don't know what I like. This may be the general state of junior students, confused and thinking that they can do anything and do everything well.

When I really do it, I can't do anything well. No experience has proved that I can do it. Actually, I moved it myself.

I have always felt that I am a particularly awesome person, but after thinking about it, it seems that there is nothing to say. Ha ha, that's ironic.

Chatting with my family, persuading me to take the civil service exam and the postgraduate entrance examination, my firm belief began to waver, fearing that one day I would be defeated in front of the word confusion.

At the end of the second semester of senior two, I still feel that I am a senior two, just a summer vacation. Why does my mood change dramatically?

When the future is so open in front of you, you have no chance to escape. Whether you like it or not, you have no choice at all. Can only go on like this, there is nothing on my resume, a heart that has long lost its passion for the future.

―02―

When I was a freshman in Thank You, I wanted to do this and that. In the end, it seems that there is nothing to insist on. When I don't want to insist, I can always find a lot of reasons for myself.

Growth always changes the future bit by bit in a quiet life, yes, this is the road you choose. There is a saying that what you stole in the past will always be returned to you in the future. The reality is that past efforts may not be helpful to your later life.

I always wonder, why does life always give you endless expectations? Let you believe and intend to stay away from reality, and then pull you back to the heavy reality.

I saw such a passage on the internet. I thought about the darkness of society when I was in college, but I didn't expect the reality to be more cruel than I thought.

If you don't work hard, struggle and succeed, it's like being out of this society, and it seems so out of place.

I often fantasize that life will always give you some sweetness after giving you suffering, so that you can continue to live, but unexpectedly, life is not a box of chocolates, but a cup of bitter coffee. Whether sugar can be added is the key.

―03―

I like the slow-paced life, Mao is not easy, Xiao Lin and Mei Yu, and the classical teacher Jiang.

I like a romantic and profound life. I know that everything I like is so different from this successful society, but I just can't hide my excitement when I mention them.

Indeed, according to Maslow's demand theory, I can't even eat, so I am not qualified to pursue a higher level, such as the value of life.

But the demand theory in my eyes is not like this. Since the value of life is at the top, in addition to the final realization, it should have the meaning of direction and goal.

If a person doesn't know what he likes and can't do what he likes when he is alive, how sad this life should be.

―04―

Before, I never understood why money was so important to others. Some people say that I don't know how difficult it is to make money, and that I am too ambitious, but in my opinion, this is my life.

Life is not to live, nor to achieve anything, but to feel your life and do something that makes you worth loving with your life. This is very exciting.

I don't know if this life is mine, so why should I live with my own skin and other people's souls?

Funny, I may not be able to do it.

Poisonous chicken soup, maybe no one will read it. But I hope I can remind myself that I must stick to it and do something different. My initial heart is not easy, and the future can be expected.