I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. I can understand how you feel. College students face many psychological pressures, such as employment pressure, academic pressure, family pressure, interpersonal communication and emotional handling. These pressures may affect your mood and study efficiency, and even lead to negative emotions such as depression, anxiety and inferiority.

If you feel that you can't bear these pressures, or have suicidal thoughts, I suggest you seek professional psychological counseling and help in time. Most universities have psychological counseling centers or tutors, who can provide you with one-on-one listening and guidance to help you adjust your mentality, solve problems and enhance your self-confidence. If you don't want to find resources on campus, you can also contact psychological services provided by other institutions or individuals through the internet or telephone.

Pause is an option, but not the only one. Suspension from school needs to meet certain conditions, such as disease treatment or special reasons, and it needs my application or school approval. Suspension from school may also bring some effects, such as wasting time, recording in files, losing contact with classmates and so on. Therefore, before deciding whether to quit school, please carefully consider your own reasons and goals, and consult relevant departments or teachers.

No matter what decision you make, please remember that life is precious and everyone has dreams and values. Please cherish yourself, believe in yourself and face difficulties and challenges bravely. I believe you can overcome the immediate difficulties and realize your dream.