I am a freshman, and I like my chemistry teacher. I fell in love with him at first sight when I first met him in my freshman year. At that time, I thought he should get married and maybe have children. I didn't think much, so I suppressed my feelings abruptly, thinking that I would follow this when I found someone in the future.
Later, I heard that he was not married and had no girlfriend. My heart is ready to move, I really want to catch him. 20 19, the second half of the semester starts. It's nice to see him again. And talking to him occasionally will make you feel a sense of panic. On the one hand, like meeting a bosom friend, he read some books I like.
On the other hand, he knows what I don't. I dare not say too much, afraid of making a fool of myself, afraid of being laughed at by him, but I love to show off, study hard, precipitate myself, pay attention to his bit by bit unconsciously, and learn everything from him. Later, when I was in his class, I often saw him. I am the kind of person who writes everything on my face and can't hide it. After a long time, I guess he felt it, too
After a while, a classmate saw him and a woman (like his girlfriend) waiting for the bus in Wanda part-time. I'm a little depressed, but I'm afraid to show it, because I'm afraid my classmates will influence his work. I have been afraid to tell my gossip roommate. Besides, I am now a junior college student. He graduated from graduate school and felt that I was not good enough for him. Maybe he will be my motivation to study.
But I miss him very much, because I can only see him on Monday and Tuesday. I tried to keep myself busy and not think about him, but I couldn't. I really like him and want to be with him, but I don't think I can marry him yet. After all, I am less than 20 years old and he is 30 years old. I still have plenty of time to choose a partner, and my friends also advised me to meet better ones in the future.
Sometimes I feel selfish. I've never been in love. I like a person so much for the first time, and I never thought about having a future with him, so I won't confess to him.