You love your boyfriend very much, I believe. But does your boyfriend love you too? You are only 18 years old, so young, I believe your boyfriend is not much older, men are very immature, this age is a changeable period, love is often short-lived, can stand the test of time, and finally enter the marriage hall is true love.
Finally, it should be emphasized that even if couples have sex, they should learn to protect themselves and use qualified condoms every time. This is the bottom line. If your boyfriend doesn't want to wear a condom and insists on the intimate zero contact of swallowing bacon, let him be rough!