Holding this 400-page book, it is awkward to read, and I thought it was particularly suitable for reading before bed. I keep thinking about opening it. It's already past three in the morning.
Tara was born in 1987. I was also born on 1987. We are the same age. Tara was born in the mountains of Idaho, and I was born in the countryside in the northeast. It seems that our birth environment is not much different. But after reading the growth story behind her, I began to be shocked, especially when I realized that we were the same age.
Tara grew up in a dump run by her father, and her toys were just scrap metal. If this is because of poor family conditions, it is understandable. From fathers to children, school, hospital and government workers are demons. Children who go to school and get an education are betraying God and taking refuge in the devil. If family members go to the hospital for treatment, they will ignore God's salvation and let the devil invade their souls and bodies. Even if the crazy and reckless father drove home on a snowstorm night and his mother skull fracture overturned on the road, he would choose to use homemade herbal tincture for treatment and repair.
Because my parents are extreme Mormons and have an extreme lifestyle, I changed all my labor income into peaches that can hold thousands of bottles and gallons of gasoline. Ten-year-old Tara studied only one course systematically-Morse Code. All these efforts are aimed at enabling federal agents to lead a normal life in case they come to the door to contain the family, or when the end of the world comes.
Born under the red flag and raised in New China, I was deeply troubled by this unorthodox religion since I was a child, which seriously affected my understanding of the world. When I was in the fourth and fifth grade, my parents were persuaded to believe in God and the new Christianity of the trinity of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit because the youngest brother's pneumonia could not be cured, which started the life struggle and spiritual barrier between me and my parents. Because they believe in religion and preach, they are often not at home, so I can only cook by myself and feed pigs to burn kang to keep warm. At the turn of the century, there are many rumors that the end of the world is coming on 20 12. When Tara's parents stored their houses in the mountains, my parents didn't work or farm, and went around preaching to save more people. It was at this time that my family's economic conditions were particularly poor, which led me to take the third place in the town when I was promoted from primary school to junior high school, but I couldn't go to school because I needed ten yuan for living expenses for accommodation and study a week, even though I repeatedly promised to eat less and spend less. ?
When I was a child, I was loved by my elders and taken care of by my teachers. I can feel the beauty and kindness of this world, but my parents always say angrily that this world is outdated and heartless. If you only recognize money, you should perish and achieve heaven. Of course, in heaven, all the material accumulation in this world will become a golden brick, and only those who believe in Christ Jesus can enjoy it, because their faith is qualified. I think it's super funny. But what can you do? Parents who talk less and disobey can only be scolded back. It's just that everyone else worships dad, but I don't. ?
Tara's parents are fundamentalists. Later, when I studied English, I knew that the official name of Taliban terrorists was also fundamentalist. I can't help but guess that Tara's parents are probably the terrorists' reserve team. /kloc-when she was 0/7 years old, she helped her father work in the garbage dump and survived several times from cutting steel rolling. Finally, she yearns for the outside world. At this time, with the help of a brother who passed the self-taught exam, she ignited the idea of self-study and began an extremely difficult road to study: the knowledge base is extremely weak and there is almost no foundation; The learning environment is very poor, and the father will be labeled as "betrayal" when he finds that his children are reading books other than the Bible. The communication with the school is not satisfactory, and I almost missed the opportunity to go to school; When I first entered school, I was out of place with my classmates, because I didn't have a sense of hygiene, because my father taught me that "cleanliness is hypocrisy and dirt is truth"; After the fracture, she infected her black toes, and her toothache deformed her chin. She is still afraid to see a doctor, because the doctor is the embodiment of the devil in her consciousness ... All kinds of ups and downs have not overwhelmed her, but she devoted herself to "education" in adversity, which is a difficult way to get rid of ignorance. With perseverance and belief, Tara never failed and became a straight A student. She got an exchange opportunity at Cambridge University, where she went on to study for a master's degree, became a visiting scholar at Harvard University, and finally got a doctorate from Cambridge University.
If life is compared to a race, it can be said that the starting line of the author's track is blocked by concrete, but she still wears out all kinds of imprisonments on her own and opens up the infinite possibilities of life. I can say that I have the same courage and perseverance as Tara. Climb out of the family's imprisonment by your own struggle, objectively understand the world and yourself, and give life new possibilities.
But my grades are nothing compared with Tarabai's, but even so, I can tell her from a distance that I know you and give her a hug.