It's finally over. I finally paid off the debt of the first semester, and I can devote myself to the study and life of this semester. In fact, I didn't get any grades. I took the initiative to ask the math teacher. Is it because I am sure of this exam? No, the result is just the opposite. Top student and scum often don't have to worry so much about exams. On the contrary, ordinary students like me, who are in between, are often most afraid of exams-it feels like putting people on an inverted triangle stone, and they may lose their balance if they are not careful.
I began to publicize my "achievements"-I couldn't even eat lunch and started calling my mother, grandparents and grandparents. Although I can't see my face, I know that my eyebrows are probably going to heaven at this time. After I informed my aunt that I had slipped enough, my excitement finally subsided.
I'm really happy. I think my grades show my excellent side. The fight against anorexia didn't delay my study life. I will definitely make my parents more proud than my patients!
My father and I were sitting face to face at the dinner table, and suddenly I felt: I have been trapped in the shadow of failing in the past six months, and now I am standing in the sun, and suddenly I find that the university has gained a lot in one year. First, I went through several interviews and campaigns: a freshman representative spoke, ran for the secretary of the League branch, and was interviewed by the People's Alliance Radio Station. Although my grades were not as smooth as those in high school, I met several excellent people. Summarized the experience of failure; Frustrated and frustrated, the eyes are clearer. These valuable experiences are beyond the reach of other students.
In addition, I have made great progress in one of my abilities-self-study. Before I went to college, I was always a person with weak learning ability. In class, I am often left behind by the teacher. Finally, it takes extra time to master the knowledge slowly under the careful guidance of my mother. But college is not better than high school. College knowledge is complicated and difficult to understand. The most important thing is that there is no one behind to urge you to study. I have always been weak in self-control, and I have suffered losses here. In the first semester, I walked into the examination room almost blank, and then I walked out of the examination room as the first brave person to hand in my papers in less than 30 minutes.
You always have to pay it back when you hang out. In order to recover the time wasted in the first semester, at the beginning of this year, I was almost studying hard. Even if there is unpleasant treatment and ed in the middle, I will learn a little more or less every day. At first, I took a big homework and looked at the symbols and numbers twisted together like bugs. My eyes were full of despair. After being savagely ridiculed by my father: "You want to do the problem without learning", I began to start from scratch-I can't understand the book, but I will read the concept word by word, and even if I don't understand it, I will try my best to memorize it. I don't know what this is for, but my father insisted that I do it.
Then, I began to practice the last question. To tell the truth, after reciting the concept and reading the book, I feel cheated by my father-I still look at a loss when facing the big homework, and I don't know where to start. However, my father didn't care that I couldn't do the problem at all, but kept pushing me back. For more than a month, I erased the high number, but I was at a loss-what's the use?
Soon, I started school and was hospitalized. My life is full of despair and helplessness, but even in this case, I still haven't given up studying-not for a day. Unable to understand the teacher's explanation with an accent, I began to look for my own learning methods. I found a massive open online course in official website, a professor, listened to Song Hao's class in the mile mile, searched the explanation video of after-school questions, and learned every question left by the teacher ... Because of the lack of foundation in Grade One, I couldn't study Grade Two. In addition to learning this semester's knowledge, we should also review last semester's content from time to time, so that the memory of that "history of blood and tears" makes us feel palpitation.
School is about to start, and my nervousness and anxiety almost washed away all my reason. A month before the start of school, I couldn't calm down at all, let alone study. It was dark at that time, and the dark tunnel was full of helplessness, anxiety, fear and despair ... that sad feeling once made me feel that I was dying.
However, I survived.
A few days before the exam, I had to force myself to go back to school and live in a crowded and dirty dormitory; Eat greasy and unpleasant meals; Look at the topics and materials that break me down.
Nietzsche also said, "whatever can't kill you will eventually make you stronger." I force myself to work hard and do those topics that make me cry when I look at them; Even if I don't know the scope of the exam, I am as hopeful as a blind man touching an elephant: even if I bump into a question!
Maybe God has mercy on me, and everything is developing in a good direction. After a few months, I thought I had forgotten the high number. Unexpectedly, I not only quickly recalled every knowledge point, but also memorized the formula. Even the second substitution integral method, which I had been having a headache before, was solved at once. Four days before the exam, the big homework questions were brushed three times. At that time, my state of mind had been adjusted back to 70% to 80%. Although I thought I had only a 60% chance of getting in, and I might cry if I failed, I felt refreshed when I walked into the examination room, just like I had finished the exam-I felt very relaxed-I had worked hard and had no regrets.
I believe what I read between the lines is full of pride. I am a patient, but I am not a failure. Sooner or later, I will be myself who stands out from the crowd.
Just as celestial bodies maintain vitality through movement, a gentleman should constantly pursue self-improvement.