My wife Hu Jie is a county registered permanent residence, and her family conditions have been good. My parents are county civil servants, and I, a rural person, have never been to the county before I went to high school. Later, I was admitted to County No.1 Middle School with excellent results. I didn't know hujie when I was a freshman, but I met Hu Jie occasionally. She was very beautiful and was one of the few beauties in the school at that time. Of course, I also had a crush on him in adolescence. I am a sophomore in arts and sciences. I didn't expect that she and I were assigned to the same class, and it was the front and back seats. When I moved the classroom that day, she took the initiative to talk to me, but she was too shy to look up.
Because I come from the countryside, I study much harder than ordinary people, and my grades have always been among the best. At that time, Hu Jie's grades were average, and he often asked me questions about my future study. After a while, I became familiar with it naturally. Miss Hu Jie has a heavy temper, such as giving me snacks at home. If you refuse, she will be angry. Because of my gentle personality, I always do what she says. In this way, the students joked that only I can stand her temper and only I dare to marry her. I didn't expect this sentence to reach hujie's ears. The next day, she announced that I was her boyfriend in front of the whole class. In fact, it was also an angry moment. I didn't expect the joke to come true, and I was so excited that I didn't sleep a wink all night.
In this way, hujie and I became boyfriend and girlfriend. Senior three, learning pressure is great. My partner and I moved out to rent a house. At that time, the family's economic conditions were not good, and the weekly living expenses were not much, just enough to eat. Although Hu Jie is a day student, she has a lot of pocket money. She always spends money when we date together. She is also very willing to give up me, and often says that she has no psychological burden. I hope I can be admitted to a good university. We once dreamed of going to the same university.
It's no problem for me to be admitted to a key university after several model exams, but Hu Jie's grades are not so ideal, so the undergraduate course is difficult. In order to help Hu Jie improve her grades, she later moved in with me, and boys and girls certainly tasted the forbidden fruit together. In fact, in the past year, there have been many quarrels, many times because of the opposite sex, and sometimes because of what she said and did, she was unhappy, while I was bored and not good at expressing and explaining. Once, a female junior high school student came to me from County No.2 Middle School, and I invited her to the food stall at the school gate for dinner. Later, Hu Jie came over with an unhappy face and stood there waiting for a while in wait for a while, saying that she wanted to see me. Junior high school students ate their own meals the day after tomorrow and went back. Because of this, I had a big fight with her. Because I am young, I can't deal with emotional problems. I ignored each other for about a week, and they had a cold war. Then I wrote her a love letter, sort of. I didn't mention it again. Her parents also know about our relationship. Actually, her parents don't approve of us being together either. Even if the result is good, hujie is rebellious because his family is poor in the countryside. After the college entrance examination, my score is enough to focus on undergraduate studies. My expected school is a school in Beijing, and it is easy for hujie to apply for an undergraduate school in Beijing. She applied to one or two universities in Nanjing. She said that if we were not in the same city, we might break up. Hu Jie is my first love. I care about her very much and love her very much. So I reported my first choice to a university in Nanjing. After the admission notice came down, we got our wish and went to the same city to go to college, and the school was only two ways. In early autumn and September, our parents saw us off when we left, and we had a meal together. During this time, hujie asked me about my tuition. When I went to school to apply for a student loan, her parents were fairly open-minded and said that I was ambitious and would definitely make a difference in the future. As for their future, no one mentioned it.
In this way, hujie and I spent four years in college together, many times in four years. Although my condition is not good, I basically completed my studies through work-study program for four years in college, but Hu Jie didn't give up on herself, and sometimes she accompanied me to take a summer job. She also gave me my first mobile phone for college. Something happened in the middle, and hujie's character suddenly changed. When she was a sophomore, her parents had Bauer, a boy. After that, her parents paid less attention to her and she began to be unhappy. She puts all her feelings on me, and she is very dependent on me. Her living expenses for her junior and senior years have also decreased. She blamed all this on her little brother. After graduating from college, I returned to my hometown county according to her parents' wishes. It happened that the institution introduced highly educated talents, which coincided with my major. Hujie said, where were my previous ideals and ambitions? She doesn't want to go back to the county seat, but wants to work in Nanjing. I also think that if I go back and she stays, then there will definitely be no chance for us to be together. I can't bear to give up their feelings for many years. In fact, before this, she really wanted to go back to her hometown to live together, but a family accident completely changed her mind. Her father went to prison for corruption. Being a civil servant in a county in the north is actually very low, but she has a good reputation. In the past, corruption was very common. The life pressure brought by the birth of Hu Jie's younger brother made her father take risks and secretly intercepted the project funds he was responsible for. Hujie was disappointed that his father went to prison for corruption. Since then, we seldom attend high school reunion, and she doesn't want to go, so I don't have to go.
I couldn't give up hujie, so I finally decided to stay in Nanjing and work together. Later, he joined a technology company to do research and development, and hujie got a job as an accountant in a trading company. Because I have to repay my student loan and remit my brother's college living expenses regularly during my college years, my salary in the previous year was basically unbalanced, and I often relied on hujie's salary to maintain it. At first, we were poor and happy, and soon after. We are all dissatisfied with our present living conditions, complaining and blaming each other and quarreling endlessly. Now think about it. At that time, I really didn't let my wife live a good life, and life was very bitter. I used the public toilet and had to wait in line for a bath. For more than a year, my sister bought clothes and my sister went to a restaurant. Because I am engaged in technology research and development and a startup company, I often go out and often leave hujie alone at home.
Later, because of one thing, I decided to marry hujie. At that time, a supervisor of hujie Company liked her very much and cared about her in work and life. Hujie has no hard feelings for him. At the same time, as a new employee, he also needs the care of his old colleagues. But then I found out that this supervisor actually came to my house. I came back from a business trip that day and quietly went home without saying hello, ready to give hujie a surprise. However, as soon as I went outside, I heard hujie talking and laughing with a man in the room. I suppressed my anger. They were all in a panic at that time, and I pretended as if nothing had happened. Hujie has always explained that there is nothing between them, but the relationship between colleagues. In fact, I don't believe that hujie will do anything out of line. Besides, I made the same mistake in college. Hujie chose to forgive me, and of course he can forgive me today, but I also realized that my frequent business trips made hujie look lonely. So I decided to marry hujie two years after graduation. When I got married, I only bought a gold ring because of financial constraints, and my family didn't spend much money. There are also contradictions on marriage. Hujie thought, my parents should help me, and I should pay attention to my wedding in my hometown. Of course, she also said that because we had no money, we started quarreling again. I don't want to embarrass my parents. Tell her my parents paid for it. Just passed a level and successfully finished this marriage.
However, after a few months of quiet life, a contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law got me into trouble, and my wife got pregnant not long after marriage. This is a happy thing. Hu Jie wants to quit her job and have a baby at home. Originally, I didn't agree. Although my position and salary have improved, in a big city like Nanjing, I still have no sense of belonging without my own house. Buying a house has become a top priority, especially when my children go to school, and my wife can't bear to see me. She was so depressed that she lost her temper and said that I didn't love her at all and didn't care about her. After all those years of suffering, I aborted my child. My mother also came to Nanjing to take care of us at that time. When she saw her daughter-in-law, she was inevitably angry and said a few words to her, so the contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law began. Of course, my mother is the kind of rural woman who can't talk, and her personality is unreasonable. I begged my wife for a long time not to make her angry. I supported her to quit her job and have a baby at home, so she took the initiative to apologize to her mother, but she also bought a mine with intensified contradictions in the future. Before going on a business trip, I'll talk to both parties, coax and coax, and tell my wife to call me if anything happens.
One day, I received a phone call from my mother, saying that my daughter-in-law could not serve her, and she was disgusted. She wants to go back to her hometown. At that time, Hu Jie was six months pregnant and needed someone to take care of her. I'm in a meeting and I'm not in the mood to continue working. I am a person who won't hide things. I'll call hujie right away to ask questions. In a rage, I said something fierce to stimulate her. She started to be silent, and then she started to shout. I left work and hurried home. I ignored her. I walked into the bedroom and saw hujie still crying. She said she was divorced and gave birth to the child. I never thought about it, because it would involve divorce, and I said she was crazy. I began to try to coax her and ran to the living room to beg her mother for an apology. After all, she is pregnant, and her mother is reluctant to apologize to her. I tried to persuade her again and again, but my mother said, "Don't bring it in the future." Hujie suddenly collapsed with anger. I shouted to my mother, "What are you doing?" ...
For the next few days, hujie shut himself in the room. I let my mother-in-law accompany her for a few days. Then she gradually recovered her good mood. But after the baby was born, the contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law escalated to a situation beyond my control. I have to take my mother home. The next month, hujie was alone, and her mother-in-law came back in two days. I was as busy as a bee. In this way, she fell ill, was in a very bad mood, and was often alone. Usually no different from ordinary people. You will cook me a lot of delicious food when you come back from business trip. As long as I mention my mother and the day when I was confined, even a little bit about my child will stimulate her child to be one year old. The reason for my resignation is very simple. I am too energetic to do my job well. At the same time, I tried to stay with my wife for two months, but they didn't spend much time together. If we don't spend a few days together, we will quarrel, mostly because of my family, because I didn't do my husband's job well. After calming down, I found that my wife may have postpartum syndrome or depression. I took her to see a doctor, and the doctor confirmed that it was depression and postpartum syndrome, which needed special attention.
Two months later, I went to the new company to be the vice president, and my salary position was promoted again. I thought I could pay the down payment on the house in two or three years. This is my goal. At the same time, my wife's mental condition worries me. In the next three years, I will live in the shadow of my wife's depression, and I will be strong myself. Even for the sake of children, I can't fall down, plus the pressure at work, but the more I do it, the more I can't bear the inner pressure. I often cry secretly at night. As long as my wife loses her temper, I pay all my savings for the down payment of a house, and my wife's name is written.
One day, I had a long talk with my parents I told them that Hu Jie was depressed since she was a child, and now I also have anxiety disorder. I hope they can help me. That day, my parents hugged me and cried. With the promise of my parents, I wrote a message to my wife to let her live and raise my daughter. I love her. I'll go first. I planned many ways to commit suicide, such as jumping off a building, pulse-taking and taking sleeping pills. Later, I chose the most painful way to feel death, pulse-taking.
On that day, I parked my car by the lake in the university town where hujie and I often dated, smoked one cigarette after another, cried and looked at the photos of my wife and children, cut my wrist easily, and watched the blood drip bit by bit without pain. ...
But the patrolling security guard found out and rescued me in time. My wife knew the news of my suicide, and the whole person collapsed. Mom and dad are crying in the hospital bed, watching their daughter crying and calling for dad. My heart was fragile in an instant, and my tenacious heart began to live. When I saw my daughter, I had the hope of living. After leaving the hospital, I resigned. I traveled to Yunnan with my wife and daughter. I haven't been there once in five years, and my children don't know the outside world. I am a man, I can't die cowardly, and I can't live without value. I want to pull my wife out of depression, raise my daughter and let my parents enjoy the happiness of life with us.
After the trip, I paid for a trip to my wife, and I did it. Go to cram school with my daughter, go shopping and watch movies with my wife, and also like reading books. My wife and I went back to the university library for an afternoon. My anxiety gradually improved and my wife's depression eased a lot. Now I occasionally engage in private work and write online. My income may not be as much as when I was the vice president, but I am also very satisfied because I saved my love, marriage and normal life. Life is too short to be too pessimistic. My wife plans to go home to farm, grow fruit and live an idyllic life when her children are in junior high school. As long as his wife can get out of depression, she is willing to farm all her life.
This article is a true narrative, and any similarity is purely coincidental.