Although three years have passed, the first boy in the bud can't help but think of him occasionally at some point. I can't get him out of my mind. Someone once asked me, "Where on earth can he make you so infatuated?" I can't say why, but it is deeply imprinted in my mind.
In ordinary life, I am very attentive to everything he does. He was also a bully in the class, so I admired him at that time. But in the special period of "Senior Three", in the eyes of the teacher, we have no reason to let ourselves slack off, but I like him very much. His words and deeds attract me, and I care about what he says. Sometimes I even feel depressed because of him all day. This is probably the power of love.
But I was really miserable, especially when I saw him laughing with other girls. This is probably "jealousy". For most girls, girls are always possessive. I was no exception then. Every time I want to tell him that I like him, I really like him. Finally, I chose to tell him, and then we got together for various reasons and situations.
But it didn't take long to break up, saying that I didn't have much thought to think about my feelings, so I left without knowing anything.
I suffered for a long time during that time. After that, with the encouragement and help of my friends, I stopped putting too much energy on him. I try to open up and meet new people.
After a long time, I naturally put it down.