Personally, I suggest you don't shy away from reality. Generally, many people are facing the same dilemma as you, but I think you should summon up courage to take the college entrance examination, because this kind of anxiety is completely unavoidable. Only by overcoming it can we get rid of this trouble. You can even say that you have no choice at all. Personally, I suggest everyone take medicine together and go their own way, one day. One day, the dark clouds will disperse and the world that belongs to you will come.