I decided to visit them in Guangzhou-the only three girls in my college class.
After work, catch the last train and go to another city-Guangzhou.
What happened to them? In the car, I kept asking myself this question. This is a question from the heart. Although the weakness of human beings is that as long as I know that you are not doing well, I am relieved. But it's not what I want. After all, we are compatriots in distress who have experienced the "scrambled eggs with tomatoes" incident together. The friendship between classmates is as deep as the sea. Note: See the article "Scrambled Eggs with Tomatoes" for details.
By the window, it's raining in Mao Mao outside. There is Jay Chou's "Sky Blue, Rain and Rain, I Wait for You" in the earphone.
You used to have a good time together in college. Are you all right now? Looking at the mountains passing by outside the window, I can't help feeling sad.
I got a call last night and heard that Xiao Liu (a female college student) was lovelorn. A man climbed onto the roof of the rental house and refused to come down. Ready to commit suicide for love.
As several girlfriends of Xiao Liu, they (other female classmates) were very worried and persuaded them downstairs for a long time.
The wind of high-rise buildings has messed up the thoughts of Xiao Liu, who used to fly and be lively.
What was she thinking at that time? Perhaps the rain outside the window made my heart sensitive.
They said that Xiao Liu was sitting on the top row of railings with his knees in his arms. The following is the night view of banquets, bars and convenience stores that are open 24 hours a day.
I am on my way. I hope you're all okay. You're still the same-my college friend.
Happy college days flashed through my mind. Like the picture that the protagonist of a youth movie often flashes when he returns to his alma mater.
Sudden cramps in the forehead.
When the train entered the tunnel, I seemed to hear the whistling wind coming from the train friction pass. Rows of dim lights at the top of the tunnel make people fall into a trance. It's like being pushed into an operating room in a coma and being taken to heaven before death.
Time took me back to four years ago.
At that time, we were all immature, ignorant of parting, love, years and aging. I only know how to laugh, talk freely, run and sweat, play and sing.
We go to school together, finish class together, go to the back door of the school to eat century-old wonton together, and watch the latest movies together.
Now that I have graduated, for work and the future, I have gone my separate ways, no longer contacted or even remembered.
Now that we have graduated for two years, do you still remember what the ideal of university is?
Are you here?
Yes My voice is very low. I wonder if they can hear me.
When they got off the bus, they stood at the subway entrance. The smile is familiar and tired, giving people a ruthless sense of vicissitudes.
She didn't come? I asked a little disappointed. But this is expected.
Yes Zheng Zhiyi, once famous for his paws, is now exhausted and haggard. The answer to this "grace" is weak. Then she reluctantly turned away.
Forget it. You must be tired. We'll talk when we get back. Li Xiaohua, known as the "boss" in the class, pretended to be strong, changed the subject and proposed to go back to the dormitory to talk about Xiao Liu in detail.
Where is Jiahui? I asked.
She is preparing dinner. Go home. Li Xiaohua said.
All right. I said.
The backpack was torn by Li. It's heavy. She said to help me with it. I looked at her still energetic and solid figure, and I didn't know what to say. I only feel a faint desire to cry. You know, I am not an easily moved person, let alone crying. But at the moment, the back of the two of them, exaggerating the red and green billboards in the city at night, are somewhat forbearing and sad like Wong Kar-wai movies.
How are you doing? I tried not to ask along the way. I don't know why, but I feel sorry for them. It will also make me look down on them. But this is not the case. For them, life has always been just going against the wind, without turning around and getting down. The bitterness of life and the pain and cruelty of society should not be defeated. Because in my eyes, they just stopped talking for a while and put away their skills. One day, they will reproduce the terrible posture and means of the university and crush life and destiny.
Go back to your dormitory.
Xiao Liu is still hiding in the room and refuses to come out.
Coming! Jiahui greeted him with a happy face. I still have a kitchen scarf tied around my waist. Bring out a bowl of delicious food in each hand. It's completely different from that year. This makes my heart more mixed.
I saw it. These are all favorite dishes in our university. Spicy fish, sweet and sour sparerib noodles. I immediately shouted excitedly, grabbed a vegetable and put it in my mouth, licking my teeth. ...
At that moment, I went back to the old Chen brand sweet and sour sparerib noodle restaurant at the back door of the school, where the lampblack filled the crowd. Mr. Chen's unchangeable and peaceful smiling face, and the old woman who always silently praises soup and cooks in it …
What are you doing? Let's eat.
Everyone is excited to move chopsticks. The atmosphere is as good as before. Talking and laughing.
Suddenly, there was a crack of the cup falling to the ground in the room. Abrupt and worrying.
We quickly kicked the door and rushed into Xiao Liu's room.
but ...
Turn on the light, the glass is broken and shining with dazzling white light.
Impressively, Xiao Liu lay quietly on the bed, his outstretched hands and wrists were red, and bright red blood kept dripping on the floor …
…
Are you okay? I asked.
Never mind, what are you doing here?
Fortunately, Xiao Liu, who found out in time and tried to give up his life, is fine now. Just like that, we sat side by side on the railing, blowing the wind from the tall buildings at night. If so many years have passed, we have all changed a lot, but the only constant possibility is that we all like sitting on the balcony, dangling our feet and watching the night bus "Le Ballon Rouge" downstairs. This feeling has not changed even after many years.
The cold wind slowly blows my cheeks and hair. The heart also stretches and flies.
You changed?
Huh? I turned away in surprise. What I saw was Xiao Liu's abrupt two lines of tears and angry and unwilling eyes. Those eyes are burning my heart anxiously. At that time, I was like a thief who was suddenly caught red-handed. I couldn't wait to find a wall to hide.
You've changed! You become silent, you become ordinary, you become not excited about anything, you compromise, you force a smile, you have no fighting spirit. What about your dream? What about the writing and talent you used to be proud of? Have you ever pointed out unfair and cynical passion? Now you are not what you used to be; Against my original wishes, I am willing to hide in a small town and do a job that has nothing to do with my interests and talents. You talk, you talk, you tell me quickly, you are still that you, you will come back, you should not just live like that, you have your mission and responsibility, and we are waiting for you to come back.
Yes, Xiao Liu is right! Come back.
As soon as I turned around, everyone came up. All eyes were on me, as if my relatives and friends who trusted me outside the court were anxiously waiting for me to answer the plaintiff's question.
But I couldn't say a word that night. I only remember that the wind was different that night. Typhoon that night. We all ran into the house to shelter from the rain. But I know. I keep it in my heart, too.
That night, Xiao Liu's eyes were vivid. I can't escape that look.
...
We haven't been together long, and we all have a good time.
During the day, we went skating in the skating rink, ate a hearty hot pot at noon, visited the park and watched a movie at night.
Walking in the back of the tree-lined path, the cool breath of the night seeps into the heart and spleen, and the mood is particularly relaxed and calm.
Do you still write articles? Zheng Zhiyi suddenly stopped and turned to ask me. At that moment, time seemed to stop, and the leaves followed us between our eyes, but the grass on the roadside trembled slightly, as gently as breathing. But Zheng Zhiyi's sudden problem, to me, is undoubtedly a cold and sharp sword, which goes straight to my throat. At that time, the sword was only 0.0 1 cm away from my throat, but the fragrance was over a quarter, and the hostess of that sword would hate me completely because I decided to say a mean word. A word that I even think is vulgar.
Stop writing, hehe, why write that thing? It's important to earn money by working. Making money is important, haha. I suddenly broke the peace like a fool, because even I thought this answer was stupid to the extreme, and, most importantly, this answer was terrible, and my heart kept shaking.
Bang!
Time can be said to stand still at that moment. A few seconds later, a warm sweaty palm slap landed a few millimeters away from my left palm-sized face. I don't have time to react. But you can clearly see a slap-like shadow flash by. That was a slap from a woman on my left. At that time, there was only a few seconds of reaction time, so I chose not to avoid it and got this palm. And the next thing I know, I'm going to throw it in one direction with my slap, and my expression is extremely ugly.
Bitch! After taking a hard bite, Xiao Liu's back flashed in front of me and left angrily.
Bitch! Another loud slap in the face and a shadow passed in front of me.
Bitch! Another one.
Hey, hey, listen to me, listen to me. Hey, hey, wait for me. I got a few slaps in a few seconds, touching my hot face and running after them.
Jiahui followed from behind. I touched my hot face and followed.
You don't deserve to come with us. Hum!
Hum!
Hum!
In the silent night, there is a moaning symphony. Hum, it has always been a unique patent for girls. What about boys? Hum is absolutely sissy. Do not believe me, hum one.
What is wrong with me? I'm forced by life, too. What's wrong with making money? Hey, don't walk so fast, wait for me.
Hungry, what about you three? Li Xiaohua asked the three people in front of them.
So do we. Let's have a grilled fish dinner. Xiao blurted out with the three of them.
Yes Let's go Eat grilled fish! Li felt his stomach and took the lead in pushing the door open and rushing in.
but ...
What happened? Li stopped and turned to look at the four of us standing still, staring at her in surprise!
Following the direction of Jiahui's finger, Li looked up and his forehead was flat: sex is guaranteed to be cool all day long!
Along the way, Li was scolded by us in turn and laughed wildly.
Familiar scene, familiar words-Li was scolded by us.
I suddenly miss it a little.
But I'm a little anxious.
A high-rise city, a prison where people are heavily pressed in the high wall under the night sky. It's wonderful and prosperous here. We forget the alleys in the village and the ponies in the field, only the wine, color and dogs and horses are left, and we can't afford to go out at all. Is this the magic of the city?
Hey, come on, guys, you're starving. You're dawdling, slow down. Li Xiaohua urged in front. Stamp your feet and shout. It's really hard to imagine that the voice of a hungry person is so powerful and earth-shattering.
The pressure of survival makes people forget to enjoy life and pursue hobbies. Everyone is afraid to waste a minute trying to make money. They have no other hobbies. After work, one or several people hide in rented houses with less than 10 square meters. Playing cards and chatting in games have become the only way for them to get rid of their inner emptiness. I can't take it anymore. I can only work overtime to get through the loneliness and emptiness of a person after work. Because compared with the hard work of overtime, emptiness and loneliness are more terrible and more difficult. People can only rely on others to arrange their own tasks and lives, just like being arranged by their parents from childhood. Over time, I got used to the life in which time was arranged by others. Pursuit? Hehe, what are you talking about? Everyone is confused.
Even writing a joke to amuse themselves, they are addicted to it and laugh at it as a waste of time, money and air conditioning. They continue to be elegant and mature, doing what they think should be done without losing their manners. I've never lost my temper, and I've never tried to get drunk and run away once. Ugliness is a luxury attitude towards life. Over time, the girls became teachers, and some became extinct teachers at a higher level. The word serious is also helpless, as if what humans do on this planet is not serious enough. Maybe it's time for us to get serious. Even if you make an ugly face in the mirror and make a face at life. Put down the adult's shelf, put down the shackles of prison locks, and try to be crazy and free.
After a hearty meal, I saw the four of them embarrassed.
At first, I thought fish was not to their taste.
Then I realized that they didn't have enough money.
Let's leave now. I just paid for it when I went to the bathroom. Say that finish, I gave them a cool figure and went out.
Hee hee, this month's rent was paid for two months. They said it in the back.
Watching the four of them suffer from life. I can't help but think of the painful feeling when we stood outside the cake shop in college. It was an interesting but tense time. I want to have a surprise birthday for my friend, but I'm worried about the living expenses this month to buy a cake for candlelight dinner. Will I be hungry tomorrow?
Therefore, I understand their feelings. I am also happy to invite every big meal to reap their happiness.
Life is to reap the happiness of others and make yourself happier.
Don't worry, we'll pay you back. But we still despise you for giving up writing and wasting your talents to live and make money. flat ...
Look at it! Li Xiaohua said, suddenly a Taekwondo 9 made me fly a few meters with one hand!
What! The camera quickly turned to aim at Zheng Zhiyi's growing mouth.
No way! The camera turned to Jiahui's big mouth again.
Cai, what about you? Are you ... Are you okay? In an instant, the camera cut and focused on Xiao Liu's mouth.
The three of them stared at me lying on the ground with their mouths open in disbelief.
At that time, it happened that Cai Xiao, the whole optical information class and even the whole telecommunication department students were shocked by a turtle wave ... If we remember correctly, it seems that only the female claw function of the tall white boy in the school of management can compete with Caiyi Jr., but now, Cai Xiao, you ... you can't even resist Li's little Taekwondo 9? Are you still that Cai Xiao? Xiao Liu suddenly collapsed to the ground in despair, kneeling on the ground, with an unacceptable expression that was more painful than being slapped, as if being slapped. I really don't understand. But my strength seems to be slowly disappearing and out of control … I feel my chakra is slowly losing.
How could this happen! How could this happen! Ha ha ha, ha ha ha ha, I beat Cai, I beat Cai, ha ha ha ha ... Li Xiaohua's laughter shook the whole night sky. There are a few birds that have been hiding in the tree and resting next to them, flying out of the leaves with surprises.
Impossible, this is absolutely impossible, impossible, this is not true. In the first episode of that year, Cai, a teacher on the fifteenth floor, rudely defeated the three of us with an amazing turtle wave skill. Don't talk about Li's nine paragraphs. Even Xiaobai, a school of management, has touched my paws. Impossible, this is absolutely impossible. No, I have to go over there and give him a vulva claw to see if he can stand it. I can't lose to Li. Otherwise, how can we live up to the master of the pretty boy? Ah, her speech at the graduation ceremony, ah, his Shuai Shuai gigolo, ah! Zheng Zhiyi said to himself.
I saw Zheng Zhiyi coming with his paws when he was whispering, trying to kill me. I'm worried that if this continues, my life will be gone.
Poof! One mouthful blood poured in and splashed all over my face.
Zheng Zhiyi flew at my head.
I jumped into the air and caught her firmly.
In mid-air, I held her, and she looked at me and slowly fell. Leaves fall one by one, like cherry blossoms in March.
Are you okay? I asked. Zheng collapsed in her arms and fainted with a "grace". The corners of the mouth are covered with black blood.
It seems that the enemy is serious. Toxic. I think.
Xiaoyi! ! ! The three of them just came to their senses and cried.
Stop. Step back. I motioned them not to come over with my hand.
At this time, the enemy has surrounded me tightly. Around me, waiting for the right moment
Looking at Zheng Xiao's quiet sleep, I realized that Zheng Xiao's graceful figure was no longer the little girl who wore a ponytail and stole the turtle's feet with her claws. Have a good sleep. No one dares to bully you three anymore. Leave it to me. I won't let you worry about me anymore. Go to sleep. I said to Zheng in my arms.
How presumptuous! You look up and have a good look at the three of us. We are three gangsters who were beaten by you. You were too arrogant to look down on us. Today, I'll let you try our Tianhe 38 method. At that time, you had a great influence on the rivers and lakes by relying on your ancestral turtle waves. Now you, haha, are just a mediocre wage earner, go to hell. Tianhe Sanba surrounded me.
Go to sleep, go to sleep.
I know all three of you are tired.
Sleep, sleep, after all, the world is too noisy.
Leave it to me. After I put the three of them to sleep, I watched Tianhe No.3 Bus.
Guys, leave him alone. Let's go
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The train slowly entered the tunnel.
Rows of dim lights at the top of the tunnel make people fall into a trance. It's like being pushed into an operating room in a coma and being taken to heaven before death.
A man fell asleep against the window, but his mouth rose slightly. Is it a dream?
Where is he going?
......