In addition, combined with my own experience, major is also very important. Some majors are easy to find, while others are hard to find. Some majors have the value of continuing learning, while others are more painful to learn.
Finally, I want to say that apart from personal subjective struggle, your personal psychological endurance, your parents' cognition and scientific level of your future development, and your family's economic situation are all extremely important. You are strong and know how to work hard, but if you can bear it psychologically, it is easy to have pessimism under the influence of the atmosphere of garbage schools. Because you didn't go to high school and your parents didn't agree, you lost the support of your family. If the family is in a poor economic situation and needs to work to earn money, then there will be fewer opportunities to go to school.