I am an orphan, maybe it is the result of son preference, maybe it is the love between men and women and I can't be responsible for seeking? Hey?
Zheye takes me home.
That year, he carried out the policy and returned to the city from the countryside. He saw me in the dump at the station, a beautiful and quiet dump.
His little baby girl stepped forward surrounded by many people, and the baby girl smiled at him. He gave me a home and a beautiful name, Yao Tao. Later, he said, when I smile, I can be called the death of a peach and burn its brilliance.
Zheye's life is extremely sad. His parents were both returned scholars, but they didn't escape the cultural catastrophe.
Both of them died in anger, and Zhe was not spared. He was sent to the countryside and separated from his girlfriend Lao Yan who had been in love for many years. He was alone from then on until he came back to the city to find me at the age of 35.
My name is uncle zhe.
Childhood is not too unpleasant in my memory. Just remove one thing.
At school, some naughty boys in my class called me an asshole. I went home crying and told Zheye. second
Tian Zheye specially picked me up from school and asked the boy: Who said she was a bastard? When the little boy saw the tall and burly Zhe Ye, he didn't dare to make any noise. Zheye sneered: If anyone says that again, I'll hit him! Someone whispered that she was either born to you or an illegitimate child. Zhe also took my hand and replied with a smile: But I cherish her more than my own daughter. If you don't believe me, who will stand up and show me? Whose clothes are as beautiful as hers? Whose shoes and schoolbags look better than hers? She drinks milk and eats bread every morning. What do you eat? The children were suddenly discouraged.
After that, no one called me an asshole anymore. When I grow up, I always laugh when I think about it.
My life is much luckier than ordinary orphans.
My favorite place is the study. A room full of books, under the bright big window is Zheye's desk, with sunshine.
When he works, the majestic silhouette is like a backlit painting. I always look for books by myself, and when I find them, I nest on the sofa. Every once in a while, Zheye will look back at me. His smile is warmer than the sunshine outside the window in winter. Tired of watching, I lay on his shoulder and watched him draw and write quietly.
He smiled: Do you want to be my job when you grow up?
I pouted: no, the sun is so dirty.
Ah, I forgot to mention that Zheye is a construction engineer. But the wind and the sun didn't hurt his appearance at all. Tayong
Away from Wen Ya, it is neat and elegant. On-off, on-off and on-off, it's not that there are no women who want to enter Zheye's life.
When I was eight years old, once, Zheye almost talked about marriage with a woman. That woman is getting old.
Teacher, smart and beautiful. I don't know why I don't like her, but I always feel that the smile on her face is very sticky. Zhe was there, too. She smiled at me sweetly and gently. When she was away, the smile disappeared like magic. I'm afraid of her. One day I was reading a picture book on the balcony. She asked me: What about your parents? Never come to see you once? I froze and looked at her, not knowing what to say. She mumbled that the child was so stupid. No wonder they don't want you. I was shocked. Suddenly Zheye came with a livid face, took my hand and went back to my room without saying anything.
I cry alone in the quilt at night. Zheye came in, hugged me and said, don't be afraid, don't cry.
Then I stopped seeing that woman and came to our house.
Later, I heard Qiu Fei, a good friend of Zheye, ask him why he broke up again. The man said, this woman's heart
No, if you marry her, there will be no good life in the future. Qiu Fei said, you still can't forget Aspidistra. When I was eight years old, I firmly remembered this name. I didn't know until I grew up that Aspidistra was Zheye's girlfriend.
We've always lived alone. Zheye handled everything well, including letting me spend my youth smoothly and healthily.
Period.
After I was admitted to the university, I stayed on campus until the weekend because the school was far from home.
Zheye sometimes asks me: Do you have a boyfriend? I always smile and keep silent. There are several in the school.
Excellent boys always like to be around me, but I don't like any of them: A is tall and handsome, but his grades are third-rate; B good homework, good eloquence, but looks really average; C seems to have a good homework, but he is like a fool. ...
I seldom talk to my male classmates. In my eyes, they are naive and superficial, and they have no time to think in front of people.
The best side is displayed, too eye-catching and lost.
On my twentieth birthday, Zheye gave me a red gem ring. This kind of sporadic jewelry, this also
He started buying it for me a long time ago. What he said is: When a girl is older, she needs some decent things to decorate. After dinner, he accompanied me to the mall, and I bought whatever I liked immediately.
After returning to school, I found that my classmates like to talk about me behind my back. I don't care either. Because of myself.
Life experience has become a habit that people talk about. Until one day, a good female classmate pulled me privately: They said that you have a boyfriend much older than you? I am puzzled: who said that? She said: It is said that several people saw it. You go shopping with him, and you are very affectionate! No wonder you don't like these poor boys. So you are next to the Kong Fang brothers! I thought for a while and my face turned red. After a while, I smiled: they misunderstood.
I didn't explain. Sitting quietly reading, the heat on your face will never fade.
Go home at the weekend and clean up as usual. Zheye's room is very clean, and there is a sweater he often wears by the bed.
Let's go This is a beige bottleneck. I was looking at a gray chicken collar when I bought it. I chose this one. At this time, Ye Yao said with a smile, well, it's up to you. It seems that Xiaoyao thinks I am old and wants me to dress younger.
I folded my clothes slowly, smiling and thinking about some odds and ends.
In the following period of time, I found that Zheye was in a good mental state and walked lightly, occasionally.
Listening to him hum some songs is a bit like when I was admitted to college. I want to know.
I got a call from Zheye on Friday, asking me to go home early and go out for dinner with him.
He shaved and changed his clothes. I doubt it: someone introduced you to a girlfriend? Zhe also smiled: I am an old man, and I am still
Speaking of girlfriends, it's your uncle Qiu and an old friend for many years. You can call her Aunt Ye from now on. I know, it must be a spider holding an egg. Zheye told me on the road that some time ago he came into contact with Aspidistra through Qiu Fei. Her husband died a few years ago, and it feels good to see him again this time. They are going to get married if nothing happens.
I answered casually, and gradually felt that my feet were cold and slowly spread upward.
When I arrived at the hotel, I took an objective look at Aspidistra: slightly fat, but not bloated, and still a little young in my brow.
Compared with women of her age, she undoubtedly has an advantage. But standing with Hidano, she looks much older.
She is very kind to me. She loves me and my dog.
When I got home, Zheye asked me: What do you think of Aunt Ye? I said: you are all going to get married, of course I said.
All right.
I didn't fall asleep until the wee hours.
When I went back to school, I was ill. I have a fever and refuse to skip class. I just felt top-heavy and ended up in the classroom.
When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital, hanging an infusion bag or bottle, and Zheye was sitting beside reading.
I smiled wearily: Where am I? Zheye nervously touched my head: I finally woke up and the viral cold turned.
Pneumonia, you child, is always careless. I smiled: If you want to get sick, what can you do if you are careful?
Zheye is in the hospital besides going to work. Every time I wake up from a coma, I will look for him immediately, immediately.
Only when you see it can you feel at ease. I heard him tell Aspidistra on the phone: Yao Yao is ill, and I am not available these days. I'll contact you when she is well. I smiled bitterly. If I am sick and can let him take care of me every day, then I can't afford to get sick.
I stayed in the hospital for a week before I went home. Zheye put a sofa in front of my house and lay on it at night. I'm a little
As soon as there is any movement, he gets up to visit.
I remember when I was a child, my crib was in Grandpa Zhe's room and I had to go to the toilet in the middle of the night.
I groped for it myself, and Zheye always heard it quickly. Turn on the light for me and say, be careful. I didn't sleep by myself until I went to primary school.
The spider came to see me with a bunch of flowers and fruits. I thanked her politely. The food she cooked was delicious, but I ate it.
No, no. I went back to my room early and lay down.
I had a dream. I dreamed that Zheye and Aspidistra finally got married. They are all very young, and spiders are wearing white gauze.
Zhang Meili, and a big man like me is actually playing the role of flower girl. Zheye smiled happily, but didn't look back at me. I clearly smelled the fragrance of lilies floating from the bride's bouquet ... I suddenly sat up and woke up. After a long time, I lay back and closed my eyes in despair.
In the dark, I heard Zhe come in, and then the little lamp beside the bed came on. He sighed: What dream did you have? cry
So powerful. I pretended to sleep, but my tears dripped down my eyes like a leaky faucet to my ears. Zheye's warm fingers scratched those tears again and again, but they couldn't stop.
This disease has been lingering for more than ten days. When we recovered, Zheye and I lost a lot of weight. He said, go home.
There are so many people living in a dormitory at school, and the air is not good.
He picks me up by motorcycle every day. Facing his back, my heart is always happy and sad.
Spiders hold eggs and never come to our house again. After a long, long time, I am sure that spiders hold eggs and
Like that female teacher, that was a thing of the past.
Graduated smoothly and took office.
I live happily and peacefully, with no side, just me and Zheye. Since I can't say anything, then
So just keep the status quo.
But God won't give me such long-term happiness.
Zheye fainted on the construction site. The doctor diagnosed it as advanced liver cancer. I am desperate, but I still know that I am calm.
Ask the doctor: How many days? The doctor said: a year, maybe a little longer.
I took grandpa zhe home. He's not in bed. Go to work during the day, please have an hourly nurse, and at noon and night.
Actually, I took care of him myself.
Zhe also smiled and said, Look, it has dragged me down. I should go out with my boyfriend.
I smiled, too: boyfriend? That's not Qian Shan. Qianshan is just idle.
Every day after dinner, Zhe and I also go out for a walk. I grabbed his arm. In addition to being thinner than before, he is still
It is tall and elegant. To outsiders, this is not a picture of family relations. Only I can see the cruel truth under the beautiful appearance. I am sober and sad. I can clearly see that my last days with Zhe are disappearing rapidly day by day.
Zheye lived quietly as usual. Read books and design drawings. The hourly worker said that he was here most of the time every day.
In the study.
I like this research more and more. After dinner, we always make a cup of tea, sit opposite this leaf and play a game of chess.
Poker.
Then help Zheye sort out his information. He stipulated that I was not allowed to touch a bunch of things. I am curious. Finally, I peeked while he was away.
Those are thick diaries.
"Yao Yao has two front teeth. I went to pick her up after work and staggered up to ask me for a hug. "
"F's tenth birthday, ZhuZhe uncle forever young. I laugh, Xiao Yao Yao, she is really lonely to me.
Flower of life. "
"Today, I sent F to report to the university. She was better than me in everything, and I realized that she had grown into a beautiful girl.
Female, and I am old. I hope her life will not be as lonely as mine. "
"Qiu Fei told me about the recent situation of Aspidistra, but the meeting was not as wonderful as I thought. She is much older, even though she is 40 years old.
The elegance of light time has not changed. She made no secret of her feelings for me. "
"Yao Yao pneumonia. I kept calling my name in my lethargy, but I only cried when I woke up. I was shocked. I didn't expect that.
Marrying Aspidistra has such a great influence on her. "
"When F came back from school, I felt chilly in my back. I took off my clothes and checked it, only to find that it was so wet.
Alas, this child. "
"The doctor announced that I have one year to live. I'm not afraid, but Yaoyao, she is a big deal to me. After I die,
How to make her live a healthy and happy life is my primary consideration. "
……
I held my diary and tears came down. It turns out that he knows, it turns out that he knows.
In a few days, the pile of books will be gone. I know zhe ye has taken care of it. He didn't want me to know. He knows.
My mind, but he doesn't know that I already know.
Zhe also left the next spring. Before he died, he held my hand and said, I want to give you to someone.
Good boy's hand, it's too late to watch him put on the ring for you.
I smile. He forgot my ring. He bought it for me when I was twenty.
There is a letter from him in the desk drawer, which is very short: Yaoyao, I'm leaving, you can miss me, but don't always.
With me in your heart, you can live a peaceful and peaceful life, which is the greatest comfort to me. Uncle.
I didn't cry my eyes out.
Wake up in the middle of the night, you can still hear him say, be careful.
While sorting out the sundries in the study, I found a dusty clay pot in the corner of the cabinet, which was very simple.
Here, I took it out, washed it, and froze. There is no decoration on it, only four words: you gave birth to me before I was born, and I was old when I was born. Hate is not born at the same time. Hello every day.
At this time, my tears, unscrupulous surging down.