I, female, a secondary school student, my major is not very good for employment. I mainly do three things every day, class, eating and playing mobile phone.

But I'm actually an enterprising person. I know that after graduation, I can only work as a worker in some factories, which is only three or four thousand yuan a month, or I can work as a salesman in some enterprises.

I am not satisfied with the salary of an ordinary worker, and I don't want to suffer from the salesman.

If I want to change this seemingly destiny takes a hand thing, I can switch to starting a business, but it is undoubtedly very difficult. Where can I change without a skill?

How to ensure that the development after the switch is better than the original' professional industry'?

I also wanted to start my own business.

As for starting a business, being your own boss and making money by yourself sounds good.

But how did the money come from?

My parents can help me a little, but my family is not very rich. To tell the truth, I am already under pressure at home as a college student, and I have a younger brother who goes to junior high school.

Moreover, when you become a boss, you have to do everything yourself. You have too many things to think about. You have to pay for renting a storefront and paying for the property. You have to consider money, sources, publicity, customers and so on. Even if you use more water and burn more gas, you will feel distressed.

Because my own family is a small business, I have watched my parents carefully calculate and work hard every day since I was a child, but it is a bit risky. A man who looks like a big boss brought a lot of goods in my house and ran away when it was time to check out. Without the money, the family would have nothing.

Therefore, these lessons from my parents let me know that starting a business is actually not easier than working.

Can postgraduate entrance examination change fate?

In order to change myself, I also plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination. Now I check a lot of information every day, go to the research recruitment network, go to the school official website, go to the post bar of the target college, and go to the postgraduate QQ group, just to find a good exam with high cost performance.

After reading many schools, I found that there are very few schools that are easy to test, really very few. Because I went to ordinary schools from high school to university, I dream of walking proudly on the campuses of those famous schools. Another reason is that when I was looking up the information, I saw someone say that I didn't take the 985,211and went to graduate school for nothing.

I yearn for those good schools, but I also know that my strength is really not enough.

The most important thing is that my English foundation is poor. I took the CET-4 twice. In fact, I prepare for the exam carefully every time. Basically, I recite words every day, listen to listening, and brush the questions one or two months in advance.

Maybe it's really a bad foundation. I grew up on the verge of passing the exam. The first time I got 398 points, the second time I spent 98 yuan on scallop words and watched several classes online. The second time was 456 points.

Maybe this score is ugly for you, but it is the reward for so many days of hard work for me. At that time, I thought it was worthwhile and effective to spend 98 yuan.

Because English for postgraduate entrance examination is very important, and you should have oral English to introduce yourself during the second interview.

So I believed that I really reported to work, and I was cheated by about 3400.

About being cheated

At that time, a person who claimed to be a senior came to our dormitory with a leaflet, saying that it was to help those seniors who wanted to learn English well, which was equivalent to an English club, but it was too much trouble to apply for a club.

You can add a QQ group for 30 yuan, and then take you to read books and punch in words every morning and evening.

Our dormitory is a famous slag dormitory, and no one cares about her. Only I paid the money, thinking that there was not much money, that is, the money to join a society.

Senior sister insists on taking us to morning reading every day, sharing some experiences in learning to be a man, taking care of everyone and winning our trust and even friendship.

Then the seniors told us that they actually practiced in an English training school, and they learned it in that training school with such high scores in CET-4 and CET-6 and good oral English.

Then say some conditions, such as one-on-one teaching, practicing dialogue and giving lessons to teachers. I spent 3400 yuan to learn English well out of my trust in my senior.

After that, the course has not officially started, and the teacher will not be free until the summer vacation.

This was said when we paid 3400 yuan, and we have no doubt. We also said that we should lay a good foundation before the official start.

They gave us a phonetic lesson and bought a repeater, which cost us more than 700 yuan.

As a result, it is conceivable that the senior was not from our school at all, so she ran away with the money.

I called the police and couldn't find anyone. This information is all fabricated.

Do nothing.

When I first heard the news, I was really desperate and angry, but there was nothing I could do.

I was cheated by more than 4000, which is not enough to tell my family. Every time you ask me on the phone, I make it up. I learned well in that class.

I applied for driving school, and the coach was unreliable. I have brought a dozen people and have no time to teach us. After studying for half a year, I haven't taken the second subject yet. I feel like I'm giving up studying and spending money for nothing.

When I was a freshman, I worked as a league secretary and went to the student union. I was very busy and made one form after another.

I felt too busy, so I gave up the Student Union in my sophomore year and became a Communist Youth League secretary.

I feel so regretful now. It's a pity that everyone who went in together became ministers. I worked for nothing for a year and got nothing.

Sophomore participated in a scientific research group because it was said to be helpful for the postgraduate entrance examination. Very boring. Brush test tubes every day, do some very basic experiments, and persist for a while before giving up.

Although I haven't reached that age, I really feel that I have accomplished nothing.

I want to do everything, but I can't stick to it and I can't do it well. Very painful.

Nothing is light now. The most common thing every day is playing mobile phone and surfing the internet, but I am not happy about it. On the contrary, it is very painful.

Thinking that I am so degenerate, I want to change, but I can't find a way out. I can only brush my mobile phone.

Feel helpless and depressed

In fact, sometimes I am really helpless, confused and depressed, and I don't know what depression is. I just feel very upset, anxious, a little world-weary and unable to find a way out.

I think, what is the purpose of living so hard and humble? I just want to have a good life with my family. Ordinary is not good.

I sometimes think it's okay to farm with my family. But I can't say it. My parents worked hard to send me to college, not to farm.

I feel a lot of pressure now. Will you do this in the future? Looking for a job, you have to support your family.

When I was most depressed, I thought about jumping off a building, but I thought about how to be worthy of my parents and my own efforts.

I don't want to tell my friends about my troubles. My heart is locked. In their eyes, I am cheerful and have a good chat every day.

This is life, struggling upward in pain.

Although these pessimistic views are what I sometimes think, I can't help it. This is the pain of growing up.

But I'm actually very aggressive most of the time.

Although I am a girl, I like Li Bai's poem, "One day I will ride the wind and waves, and set my cloudy sail straight and bridge the deep, deep sea."

There is a sense of joy and accomplishment that breaks through all the haze.

"Laugh and go out, my generation is Artemisia." Really heroic, really yearning.

I wish myself and everyone "I was born useful, spinning a thousand pieces of silver, come back!" ."

Life has to go on, the revolution has not yet succeeded, and comrades still need to work hard!