Before, I chased a girl, every day. Although I was rejected by her countless times, she kept in touch with me. I thought I still had hope. Why else would she keep in touch with me? Although she said she didn't want to lose such a good friend, I stubbornly thought it was just a girl's reserve.

Although she will say something to me when she is happy, she will not say anything to me when she is unhappy. It's really silly to think about it now. In fact, she obviously just regarded me as a spare tire. But at that time, I was carried away by my fantasy love, and I have been looking for various reasons for what she did.

At that time, she kept saying that she had no feelings for me and didn't want to fall in love for the time being. But at that time, I felt that I was definitely not doing well enough. She is testing my sincerity. Stupid, right? But most people who are blinded by love will. Even if others try to convince them, they stubbornly think they know nothing. For this reason, I also had many contradictions with several very good friends.

At that time, I couldn't tolerate others speaking ill of her. I thought I could really fight for her life. I thought what I did would impress her one day, until one day she was at school with the rich second generation. That boy's reputation at school is as bad as ever. I can't figure out why, why she should be with such a person. At that time, I even thought that this man must have threatened her.

As a result, it is conceivable that deterrence does not exist at all. Life is not the plot in the novel, so there are so many threats, coercion and oppression. Looking at the goddess who was once high above me and giving everything I did for her to another boy, I was completely disillusioned. I didn't have a chance from beginning to end. Everything was just my own fantasy.