The first time I saw the canoe was in Xinhua Bookstore in Shenyang Middle Street in mid-May, 20 15. She signed a new book, A Grain of Red Dust.

Looking from a distance across a long line of hundreds of people, sitting there is a lady wearing a light blue patterned shirt, wearing a long shawl like seaweed, caring for her skin, calm and quiet.

This is the first time I have seen her. I didn't even say a word, but I'm not surprised. I hit it off immediately.

I believe that in everyone's life, there will always be another person like this. Through words, through music, or through other means, it brings you a unique and irreplaceable power to face life.

2

Looking for my dear bad girl

Everyone's youth was once rebellious and unremarkable. In that era of worrying about giving new words, romance novels were favored by us.

Later, I got to know the rebellious girl Ge from the article "Canoe". 16 years old, in order to commemorate her youth, she had 16 ears pierced, smoked, drank, tattooed and killed Matt. In memory of his ex-boyfriend, Ge took a pen name canoe, homophonic "Lonely Week". At that time, she almost completely met all the characteristics of a rebellious girl.

However, this bad girl has never hurt anyone except herself. She is naive, brave, dare to love and hate, just like Li Bala in her left ear.

"As heaven and earth testify, I am a good girl."

If it is difficult for people to feel empathy between different lives, then such a few can be called * * * Ming, which is why canoes were recognized by readers at that time.

At the age of 20, she wrote her teenage stories to young audiences: pale childhood, unattainable love, betrayal and doubt of friendship. At that time, she and her readers lacked care and necessary sense of security, so they could get great praise and comfort from her words. Some even lack fatherly love, love too much, and are eager to attract others' attention by being unconventional.

"Many people secretly criticize me and say that I am sleek and sophisticated, but I only know one thing. If I don't protect myself, no one in this world will protect me. " -Canoe "Stars in the Deep Sea"

three

Dear girl, don't look back.

Now look at Weibo in the canoe, and you will find that this older single young woman is now living an exquisite life. All kinds of fleshy babies and well-cut flower arrangements are placed in exquisite vases. Li, the official account of WeChat, will claim to be Mr. Ge's lipstick pusher and handwritten account to serve readers.

Who would have thought that Ge, a college student, was a complete academic scum. In order to save money, she now writes novels in her notebook and types them word for word in the Internet cafe. Later, she rented a small house in the south of Changsha, with no air conditioning and no bathroom. In summer, she is too hot to sleep all night.

The writing computer is a second-hand notebook sold by others. Sometimes, the computer will crash instantly, and thousands of words will be gone. There is no kitchen at home, so she can only eat roadside stalls or instant noodles. Recalling this experience, she once wrote, "Many times I looked at eight meat dishes and seven vegetarian dishes and gritted my teeth, but I just couldn't bear to eat that meat dish once."

Now, this woman has her own small family in Chaoyang District, Beijing. Would you like to share with us what we can't bear with gritting our teeth at our age and some of her freewheeling daily activities?

I will be envious when I see this, but I will never be jealous, because I know that all this comes from her unremitting persistence in watering her dreams, and I will not make myself materialistic because of her sharing, but I know that girls should love themselves, life and dreams.

Let every vibrant green plant bring happiness to your life, let every ornament become an ornament of your beautiful life, and let quality things enhance your quality of life and happiness.

Now, every self-portrait of her is a better look tomorrow. Teacher Ge, who interacted closely with readers in Weibo and WeChat official accounts, is no longer the patient who was tortured by depression and cried all night. She can't cure herself, and the medicine is in vain. Even in the face of a major physical illness that requires hospitalization, I still look positive and optimistic. Don't forget to tell us that girls should save some money for themselves when they grow up.

Fate will never fail those who live seriously. I hope years can treat her gently.

four

I have been wandering for a long time.

I think this is a turning point in the growth of Zhou Zhou, from canoe to Gewanyi.

Different from the previous words, young and frivolous, unrestrained, this book, canoe is a little more relieved of fate.

After experiencing something that can't be changed or done, she found that many things were actually doomed from the beginning, and most people couldn't escape this life track.

So, in the chapter for her daughter who lost her father, she said, "You are an adult. Don't be sad or cry when I tell you this. Every life comes to this world with a mission, with sorrow and joy, efforts and achievements, and losses and gains. If there is a shortage in place A, place B will be lengthened. You have to believe that God is fair. "

She finally gave herself a firm answer about this heart disease that has plagued her for many years during the trip.

She will still think of him, in the Lama Temple in Beijing, the Potala Palace and Jokhang Temple in Lhasa ... in every legendary supernatural place on the trip, she often worships and prays devoutly in the name of love.

Finally, love is not enough, but my heart is calm.

Still lonely, but finally at ease.

five

I once loved my canoe and her loneliness.

Now I like Ge, and I like her attitude full of fireworks.

Every miserable life will welcome a Moses, whose powerful and kind scepter will separate the water in the Red Sea and take you to the fertile land, the city of God.

We will all grow into trees as long as time, and pay our deepest respect to the quality of life.