Wu Zhi attended a class reunion. When he came home, he saw that the bedroom light was still on, and he heard a song, "Two Springs Reflecting the Moon" sung by his wife. Melodious singing is full of sadness. Wu Zhi asked, "What song do you sing if you don't sleep at midnight?"
"How long will you keep it from me?" Chen Xiaomei irrelevant answer, straight back. Wu Zhi was a little angry: "It's really puzzling. Where do you start? "
"Don't pretend, I know everything. Twenty years ago, didn't you promise your mother to give her the air? It looks like a lie! "
"How can I cheat you? Today is a reunion, and I have no right not to let others come! " Wu Zhi argued with reason.
"I didn't say you couldn't meet today, I meant the photo of her in your mobile phone!"
Wu Zhi was shocked: "How do you know that I have her photo in my mobile phone?" Chen Xiaomei snorted: "I don't have this ability, but I'll show it to me. I knew at a glance that it must be her! " "
"Oh, that's the way it is! Then I will delete it. "
"There is nothing in the phone. You dare to say that you can delete her from your heart! "
"Children and grandchildren are all around their knees. How can they be so jealous? Don't worry. I didn't divorce you twenty years ago, and I won't divorce you now. Stop thinking and go to sleep. "
Chen Xiaomei didn't say anything. She knew that he kept his promise and wouldn't divorce her. He is a provincial model worker, a technical pacesetter in the unit, the only junior high school diploma in the unit, a section chief in exceptional selection, and a younger brother and sister pacesetter. His parents have a filial son. He won't do anything wrong for the sake of his family and his prestige in the unit. Even so, her heart can't let go.
It was 12 when Wu Zhi lay down. I have to delete the photo of my sweetheart. I can't watch her fall asleep slowly at midnight. As my wife said, I can't delete Wei Jihong from my heart. Wu Zhi can't sleep anymore, and the past is vivid.
1963 period, the country was in a period of economic difficulties, and the people were struggling with hunger and cold. Starvation often happens. Wu Zhi's father is a commune secretary with a fixed income, and nine people in his family have not starved to death. The staple foods are sweet potatoes and carrots. There are few meat dishes. Wei's father can play shadow play and live a better life.
Wu Zhi and Wei are junior high school classmates. Wu Zhi studies hard. Ji Hong admires her and often asks her for advice. Wu Zhi will teach her carefully every time. Wei studies well in the class and looks beautiful. Many boys please her, but she doesn't care. She likes Wu Zhi. She often gives him a boiled egg or salted duck egg when no one is looking. Wu Zhi also quietly put precious snacks such as candy, sweet apricots and peaches in his schoolbag. They just love each other and care about each other. We sympathized with each other in those days when we were short of clothes and food. In order not to drop out of school, we were admitted to Wu Zhi, a senior three student. We gave up the opportunity to continue studying and signed up for the army. On the eve of each other, they sat by the ditch in the east of the school.
"Wei Jigong, I'm going. You must continue to study! " Wu Zhi looked at Wei's beautiful face and continued: "We are the only two people in the class. After finishing high school, you will work hard to get into college! " Wei's eyes were red, and he nodded solemnly: "I will try my best!" No matter what happens to me later, I will wait for you! " Wu Zhi was moved to tears. It was the first time that the big boy heard the girl he liked confess to him! Bai was ecstatic to hold Wei's watch and said, "Although I can't, I will continue to study side by side with you. But my heart will always be with you! " Holding hands with male students for the first time, Wei was shy, flushed and bowed his head and said softly, "I believe you!" " "
Wu Zhi in love is full of energy. Wei Jihong can recite every letter. He secretly vowed to spell out a blue sky and make her the happiest woman in the world. Wu Zhi did well in the army and was promoted to monitor the next year. Wu Zhi happily told the good news. Wei said that he would go to the army to see him as long as the school was on holiday. Wu Zhi counts the days every day and looks forward to the holidays.
Finally, the school has a summer vacation. Wu Zhi received a letter from Wei. He excitedly opened the letter and read it: Wu Zhi: You are a big liar. Song Laijun saw you, but you kept it from me. You cheated my feelings by playing two-faced. Never write to me again. After reading the letter, Wu Zhi felt that the sky was falling. Angry in my heart, if you don't want to talk to me, just say it. You can't be so wrong! Song He didn't even let go of his letter, so there was a rumor that he would join the army. Don't let me reply, there is nowhere to complain if I have grievances!
The young man who fell from the top of happiness to the abyss of pain collapsed physically and mentally. Every day, Lacrimosa is in a trance and suffering. Thanks to the instructor's timely discovery and careful ideological work, he was slowly freed from the abyss of pain.
Three years later, Wu Zhi was transferred to the telecommunications bureau. Eighteen years later, one day, Lao Wang, a message, handed him a letter. He never dreamed that this letter was sent by Wei. The content is to meet him. Without thinking, Zheng Wu wrote back that he would keep the appointment!
Two people finally met, four eyes relative, silent for a long time, full of thoughts. ...
After a long time, Wei woke up and pulled up a small bench to let Wu Zhi sit down. She said nothing, tears streaming down her face. She bowed her head, shaking with excitement. It took a long time to control my emotions. I said guiltily, "I misunderstood you at first, because Song told me that she went to the army to see you, and I believed it. Later, I learned that there was no such thing. Credulity made me pay for it. Let me never get happiness! Things didn't go according to people's wishes. After hearing that you got married, Wenjing agreed to her college classmate's proposal. My married life has never been happy. After my daughter was born, I grew a tumor in my body and was disheartened. I am afraid that my life will be short, and I am afraid that I will never meet you in my life. I heard that you worked in the telecommunications bureau and went to see you several times, but I didn't see you for various reasons. During the operation, I thought, if the operation fails, will I regret not seeing you for the last time? For living.
Wu Zhi had already burst into tears and advised "we have no destiny in this life". For the sake of children having a complete family and growing up healthily, just accept their fate! Knowing that you have never forgotten me, I have been worthy in my life. Let's hide it deeply in each other's hearts! If there is an afterlife, I won't make such a mistake again, and I won't reply. I will definitely find out! "
They talked until late at night, reluctant to part, because Wei's husband works in Shanghai and Wei's parents have no sons. In order to take care of the old people of the two families, they teach in the middle school in their hometown. When Wu Zhi is free, he will help her do some manual work such as moving briquettes and buying rice noodles. They often meet one after another, sometimes they are late, so they eat at Wei's home, although they never shake hands every time they meet. It was passed on to Wu Zhi's wife. Wu Zhi's wife found her mother-in-law, made her the boss, and said that she would go to his leader when she met again. Wu Zhi also knew that continuing to meet would inevitably affect his family, and declared in front of his mother: I will never meet again.
Later, Wu Zhi had the opportunity to meet Wei and agreed never to meet again. They will send their photos to each other, send messages on their mobile phones to care about each other, and then look at the photos on their mobile phones when they think about it. Now the photo is forcibly deleted. Wu Zhi thinks this love is too tormenting. He began to write and let a flood of thoughts flow freely from the pen tip:
The past is gone.
A winding river,
A sharp ship;
A piece of yellow cauliflower,
Green wheat fields.
A beautiful picture,
-a stupid teenager;
The real past,
Love for a long time in my life.
An empty lie,
A practical exercise.
Regret for life;
I'm deeply sorry.
A wisp of soft thoughts,
A trace of emotion;
Short white hair,
A face of stupefied.
A line of muddy tears,
Sigh softly;
A faint sunset glow,
Everything is as empty as smoke. ...
Wu Zhi did it in one go. Between the lines of this poem, it records the endless pain caused by his forbearance and compromise on marriage and love in his life. He lay on his back on the sofa in the living room, crying his eyes out. At this time, the east is about to break dawn, and he once again spent a sleepless night.